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you know what ,,, i think ,, most of my eat time ,,, its because of others ,,, . Not much that i ate based on my own desire to eat ,,, xixiixixix ,,, . maybe ,, maybe ,, when my mom got passed away ,,, she had pray to the Lord ,, to make sure that i ate in many times ,,, xiixixixixi ,,, wkwkkwkwkwkwk ,,,, . #duugghh maaakkk ,, bukannya doa in wat cepet kaweeemmm ,,, xiixixixi 😀 ,,, ehheheheheh ,, pizh maakk ,, rest in pizh there yeezzhh ,,, ehehehheheh ,,,,

sedih loh kalo gw di suruh2 makan gituh ,,, mana ga liat2 lagi nyuruh makan ma makanan yang ga guwe suka ,,, sueeee ,,, sediiihhh nya tuh di siiniiii ,,, . gw bakal makan ko kalo dah laper ,, ahuhuhuhu ,, kenapa mesti di teror wat makan sih ,,, . Sayangnya ,, bedanya ,, kalo orang gw teror wat makan ,, orang2 pada demen ,,, helloohhh ??? kalah banyak kan guwe ,,, xiixixiixi ,,,

and yezh ,, not much i like those foods ,,, . Ga banyak makanan enak versi guwe ,,, . Pernah ,, mbak uweee insist ,, kalo sosis pagi nya enak ,, . Pas guwe coba ??? ya ,, segitu dah rasa sosis ,, mang enaknya di mana ??? ,, wkkwkwkwkwk ,,, hopeless dah doi ,,, xiixixixi ,,, .

btw ,,, pernah terpikirkan ga ,,, sapa yang menemukan santen pertama kalik ??? . Dari buwah kelapa ,, ada yang mudeng ,, untuk marut dan mengambil sari santennya wat di masak ,,, . Santen ituh gurih loh ,, enak ,,, dalam takarannya ,,, . gw jarang juga sih makan makanann bersanten ,,, xiixixixixi ,,,

anyway ,, semoga semuwa orang bisa makan dengan bahagiya yezhh ,, xiixixix ,, aamiinn ,, 🙂

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February comes ,,, its ,,, a ,, february ,, xixixiix ,,, . Still with the same hafi ,, same office environment ,, same jobs ,, same daily routine ,, same income ,, same outcome ,, xixiixixi ,, . what the difference is ,, ??? ,, . Ummhh ,,, i dont know ,, nothing i guess ,, ??? xiixixixi ,,

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duluw ,, some years ago ,, xiixix ,, per berapa bulan pasti gw notes ini itu ,, karena mo jalan jalan ,,, or pergi out of town lah ,, semuwa yg mo di bawa gw atur ,, secara baju gw saat itu ( dan saat ini ,,, wkwkkwkw ) ,, ya itu2 ajah ,,, ga cukup kalo set up mendadak ,, wkkwkwkwk ,,, . Sekarang ??? males pegi2 an ,, cepet capek ,, . Some times ,, gw pikir ,, ini bukan karena gw sakit ,, tapi karena semangat guwe yang memudar ,, eaaaa ,,,, xixixiixix ,,,

dah tuwak yezh guwe ,, dah ga cocok kegiatan fisik yg aktip2 ,, xixiixixix ,,, dah saatnya menikmati idup ,,, mengurangi aktipitas / kegiatan2 yang ngurangin umur ,, misal :: nanggepin yang ga penting2 ,,, marah2 ma orang ,, kesel sendiri ,, kesel bareng2 ,, sakit kepalak ga jelas ,, wkkwkwkkwkw ,,, . dah waktunya jalan2 mahal ,, gratisan ,, cardio nya shoping di mall ,,, tinggal tunjuk terush di beliin ,, tanpa merasa bersalah ma apa pun dan sypa pun ,, wkkwkwkwkkw ,,,

terush metong ,, terush masuk sorga dehh ,, aamiinn,,, xixiixixixixi  ,,, 😛 ,,,

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dont forget to be happy my dearzh ,,, 🙂

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its a ,,, nice enough wiken for me ,,, 🙂 ,,, in fact ,,, its full nice ,, eaaa ,,, hehehhe ,,, alhamdulillah ,,, . And ,, after this nice wiken ,, whats next ,, ?? ehheheheh ,,, .

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what i hv to share about me ? my life is just ,,, average to below ,, ahhahahah ,,, nothings interesting in my life ,, nothing ,, xixiixxi ,, . Official ,, friends ,, mate ,,, xixiixix ,, am not that cheerful person ,, that can be accepted in around ,,, hehehhehehe ,,, .

Writing down is just kind of activity that reduce my brain activity ,,, and sharing thought that maybe can be use for others ,,, . If my brain activity not that high anymore ,, what could i share more ??? ,, eaaaa,,,, xiixixiixix ,,,

i still remember ,,, many years backward ,, when i hard to sleep ( now is still sih ,, xixiixixix ) ,,, . My head just spinning around thinking many things ,,, but i need to sleep ,,, . Many ways to do to make me sleep ,, but its not work out that much ,,, . One thing that i still remember and become my  habit then is ,,, i zikr many times before i got sleep ,,, . Its makes my head get focus ( to the Lord ) ,,, and finally ,, sliiippiii ,,, ihiiyy ,,, .

Now ,, after many years passed through ,,, what happen in my life ?? with all of those thinking ,,, ??? . My life is just “average” ,,, hehehhehe ,, but am so grateful so much ,,, . thus ,,, i remember a movie about a woman in middle east ,,, that have big effort to become FBI agen ,,, . There is a statement that woman said ” what do you want to become ?? a wife ? a sister ?? a daughter for entire your life ??? ” ,,, .

its like a question to me ,, who have below – average life ,, ahahhahahhaha ,,, . You know what ??? maybe ,,, for sure ,,,

,,, its about your thought ,, about what you are believe in ,,, about what way you decide to follow on ,,,

And for me ,,, i do believe in aLLah swt ,,, . So ,, its OK be a wife a daughter a sister ,, for entire my life ,, as long as aLLah bless me ,, my life ,,, . What is your goal exactly ??. If i hv a chance to have a great life more ,, being an agen ??? ahahhaha ,, yeah ,, its Ok ,, my life is about aLLah’s bless ,,, .

Apparently ,,, my life is just low ,, xiixixix ,,, with high grateful ,,, . Segini ajah banyak sekali dosa yang gue lakukan ,, dan entah bagaymana guwe memohon ampun padaNya ,,, . Masya aLLah ,,, .

,,, I do respect this life ,,, i do respect people ,,, insha aLLah ,,,

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now ,, its me ,,,  entire of me ,,, 🙂

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#masih edisi insome ,,

,,, butuh seseorang ,,, yang guwe bisa bertukar dan sharing pemikiran guwe apa adanya ,,, tanpa harus pretend menjadi orang lain ,,, just being me ,,, not just for listening ,,, but someone that really understand what am thinking about me ,,, about the world ,,, about the universe ,,, about the Lord ,,, some one with the same thought with me bout those ,,, some one who not pretend to be some one else ,,,

Just be our self ,,, entirely ,,,

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,,, orang yg bsa tahajud tuh keren bingid ,,, seting an otaknya keyeeenn ,,, hard set up ,, xixixixixiixix ,,,

,,, guwe ??? ,,, obo ajah around jam 11-12 ,,, ya kalik bisa bangun jam 3 an wat tahajud ,,, bisa sih bisa ,,, kalo ramadhan doank ,, wkkwkwkwkw,,, karena eager nya tinggi kalo pas ramadhan ,,, nah kalo 11 bulan laennya ?? ,,, huikzzhh ,,, 

Bangun sih bangun ,,, tapi ko yo mallleessssss banged wat tahajud ,,, ga rela waktu tidur gw yg around 5 jam ituh ke distruct ,,, ampun yezh ,,, . Seandaynya gw bsa obo lebih cepat mgkin gw akan bangun dini hari ,,, matgay ,, dan tahajud ,,, tapiiiii ya kalik bisa obo jam 9-10 ,, hari gni aje ni mata masih seger buger kek berger keblinger ,,, wkwkkwkwkwkkwwke ,,,

Dooghhh males bener mo turun ke bawah dan num obat ,,, pdhal da antibiotiknya ,, bodo ah ,,, sekaliyan besok pagi ajah ,,, xiixixixixixi

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hay ,, hay ,,, hay ,, its chineeee new year ,,,, #eh dah kemaren yah ,, xiiixixi ,, . And its rainy all dayzh since yesterday till tudeyzh ,, ??? ,, xixixixi ,,, #alamat jemuran mukenah ga kering dah nih ,,, xiixixix ,,, .

#Like alwayzh ,, sunday murning ,,, nongkih cantikzh at warung kupih ,, xixiixixix ,,, .

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ummhhh ,, not in the good mood ,,, . It just ,,, feel ,, full ,, . Yezh ,, “full” i think is the fit verb to describe me right now ,,, . it just ,,, i feel already all in my life ,,, ( ya ya ya ,, exclude getting married for sure ,,, wkkwkwkwk ,, ) ,,, . Having good stuff ,,, good food ,,, that i dont need those either ,,, done ,, .

Having crazy life ,, cray travel ,,, crazy expense ,,, done ,, . Having try to have good faith ,,, good worship ,,, good thought ,,, done ,,, . Having good life also facing death issue ,,, done ,,, . Having good luck and bad luck ,,, done ,,, . And now ,, i dont have passion again in those things ,,, ,, ,, .

Is it ,, not good enough with those craziness and the goodness ,,,till i hv to in this phase ??? . What in my mind now is ,,, setan is trying to make me un-focus like now ,, wasting my time to think ,, not necessary to think ,,, . But ,,, other thought said that ,, its common to feel like this ,, because am human being anyway ,,, . So ,, whats next ,,, ??? masya allah yezh ,,,  masya allah ,,,

,,, and ,, i just want still to love You my Lord ,,, for the past ,,, now ,,, next ,, and for ever ,,,

#yup,,, maybe those craziness and the goodness ,, are not enough ,, not yet ,,,

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duugghh ,,, pengen mpuuupp ,, xixiixix ,,,  #tobe continued ,,

pM,

ihiyy ,, done activities by tudeyzh ,, with high cost for sure ,, and pain leg ,,,  wkkwkwkkwkw ,,,  . and this afternoon ,, my leg cover by koyo ,,, wkkwkkwkwk ,, faaktor Uuuuu ,,, wkkwkwkkw ,,, . What ever lah yezh ,,, xixiixix ,,, .

When i get back ,, i continuing with clean up the house ,,, and then got some food ,, . And then my father came ,, and give me some speech ,,, that i hv to shalat berjamaah di masjid kalo wiken ,,, terush ibadah sampe waktu dhuha datang ,,, karena pahalanya sama dengan ibadah haji dan umrah yang sempurna ,,, . Kelar makan, baru kelar dah tuh ceramah ,, kwkwkkwkwkw ,,, . But you know what ,, i think its a good thing ,,, belum tentu ayah2 lain di keluwarga lain ,,, memberikan hal yang sperti ini pada anaknya ,, dont you think like that ???? ,,, . #duuughh ,,, gw faktor U banged yezh sekarang ,, wkkwkwkkwkwkwkkwkw ,,,,

annd ,,  my dreamzh ,,, its seems gloomy will come to kembangan ,,, 😐 ,,, to me ,,, 🙂 ,,, .

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,,, pun ,,, puunnn ,,, kaw memang benar secara facta ,,, dan mereka memang bodoh / salah secara facta  ,,, tetaplah berusaha d tiap waktumuwh fi ,,, untuk tidak sombong dan tinggi hati ,,, 

Cukuplah gundahmuwh sampay pada pemikiranmuwh sajah ,,, tetaplah hargai mereka ,,, because you know very well ,,,very very well ,,, what impact will come to you ,,, the Lord trained you many times for this one ,,, almost for entire your life ,,, masya allah ,,, 

And am so afraid ,,,

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trying have a shaum by tudeyzh ,, after many dayzh off ,,, heheheh ,, . Alhamdulillah its work out ,,, !!! ,, . Ucink lemezh ucet ,, but am survive ,, #lebay dikit boleh lah yezh ,,, ixixiixixi ,, .

what a blessed day ,, when white bozh is off ,, when not disturbing with jobs’s issues ,,, when can pray/sholat in peace ,, when can go home earlier ,,, when having food on the dining table ,, when have wifi around ,,, having good drinkz in refrigerator ,,, hacing AC in the roomzh ,,,  “Nikmat Tuhan mana lagi yang kamu dustakan ,, ??” ,,, oh My Lord ,,, please help me to alwayzh grateful for everything comes in to my life ,, aamiinn ,, 🙂 ,, masya aLLah ,,,

yup ,, alhamdulillah for tudeyzh ,, 🙂

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