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GoaL ,,,
My GoaL ,,,
insya aLLah ,,

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Saturday, 11.10.2025 ,,,

it just me and millie ,, in my room ,, cold enough ,,, . I hv mangos, i hv cold black coffee, i hv my instant noodles with vegetables and an egg, i hv my sweet choco cheese pizza ,,, and my Netflix is On ,, .

Then what else i needed out side ???
masya allah ,, tabarakallahu ,,, !!!!
alhamdulillah ,, ya allah ,, !!!

di Nikmatin aeeee ,,,
selagi bisa kan yezh ,,,,,
Allah swt is the best ever ,,,

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October 1st wikeeeeeeeeeennnnnn 🙂

already 3rd week i spent my wiken “alone” ,,, not hang out with my friends ,,, . Why not fi ???. Ummhh ,, just want to “feels” my time, my life, my me ,, with milliee ,, ahahhahhahaha ,, .

nge gym, olga, tritmil-an, play with bocilzh, watch movie all days, eating what i want to eat ,, totally just enjoy my me and my time ,,, its make me happy ,,, . Hang out with my friends also make me happy ,,,, but ,, right now ,, i just want to spent time with my me ,,, hehehhehehehhehe ,,

bc, as you know ,, my life controlled by my heart kan yezh ,,, kekekkekekekekekk ,,, . And now, my heart just want me at home ,,, . As long as my heart “approve” thus i will do it ,, . Ur brain fi ??? yaahh follow ajah ,, wkkwkwkkwkw ,,, . Palingan kl ati dh aneh2 ,, xuman bisa control / hold on semananya lah ,,, kekekkekekek ,, . Well ,, life must be happy yezh ,, happy comes from heart ,,, kekekekekekekke ,,, . Yah ,, its me ,,, just me and my happiness ,, .

iyuuppp ,,, its seems my life values slightly shifted ,, hehehehhehe ,, . Was ,, i thought ,, my thought ,,, my values ,,, :: life is a battle ,, life should be struggle ,, There is NO pleasure in life ,,, . But now ??? ,,,,,, ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, ,,,, after exposed with this blesses ,, conveniences ,, kindness ,,, all good things in life ,,, , i started to enjoy this life ,, this good life ,,, .

what kind of good life, fi ??? ,,, . I ate ayce might 2-3 times a week ,,, aka i hv good meals ,, i ate what i want to eat nor to drink ,,, . I drive a car to anywhere ,,, my job quite handle ,, . Its very a good life ,, no specific struggling needed ,,, . What a life ,,, . So ya ,,, i like this life ,, ehhehehehhe ,, kan am hooman yezh ,,, ra popo kan yezh ,,, ehheheheheh ,, . Then your test is about how you can still istiqomah in this good life ,, . Can you fi ??? . Insya allah ,,, ya allah ,,, amiiinnnnnnn ,,,,,

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Trushhhh ,,, tomorrow already monday instead ???
ya ellahh ,, so fast isnt it ??? hiiizhhh ,,, .

btw ,, already a week ,, i started day recited Qur’an with Surah yasin. Usually i recited Yaasiiin at night, but now ,, i make it in the morning ,, . And maybe its just my feeling yezh ,,, i just feel my day just “lucky” for whole day ,, . It Just Like universe helps me in various way ,,, alhamdulillah ,,, . But seriously, is Yaasin very powerful ??? 😀

ya allah ,,, alhamdulillah for everything in life ,,,
masya allah tabarakallahu ,,,

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btw ,, last 2 weeks i so busy ,, not that busy ,, just higher than may average activity due to budget fy-26. Impact ??? my skins get dry and scaly ,,, and worse ,,, its until my face skin ,,, ahuhuuhuhuhuuhuhu ,, .

as we know as well ,,, i can not that soooo sad, so excited, so happy, so tired ,, pokokmen yg terlalu so is not allowed ,, . It will impact directly to my body ,,, hehheheheh ,, . Lucky me am fat enough now ,, so am not extreemly exhausted ,,, hehehehehe ,,, .

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starting to repair my shalah ,,, .
after hear sermon several times ,, i know that ,, :: shalah can not be replaced with anything anyhow, except for woman who got their cycle ,,, . In the other word, missed shalah should be replaced with shalah as well .

So today ,, i start to “pay” anything missed from my shalah. It can be from :: syaitan stealing my sholah aka ga konsen ,, , missed from my periode ( its like, i sholud got pray in day 9th, but i start pray in day 10th ) ,, and another things missed in my shalah ,, .

how is it ??
according to babang ustad ,,, after main sholah, should following with shalah qadha that missed, until all misses paid ,, . Then already start from this subuh ,,, hehehehehhe ,, . Insya allah will be following with next zuhur, asar, magrib and Isya ,,, .

alhamdulillah
masya allah ,,

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daily idup ,,, xcheck apa ada dosa sengaja yg masih di lakukan daily ??? . apa ada amalan yg bysak di lakukan tertinggal ?? apa ada lakukan sakit hati ke orang ?? . Jawabannya :: BANYAK !!! ,,, kekekekkekekek ,,, . yg paling significant adalah GHIBAH ,,, . Dasar Ghibah, sarang dosa !!! ,, hehehhehehehehhe ,, . Lalu, apa ada amalan yg bisa di tingkatkan walu sedikit ????.

yaaa begitulah daily gw ,,, . Ga kepikiran wat kerjak yg kudu di apa2in ,, di improve ,, semana bisa di kerjakam ya di kerjakan ,, kl bisa di improve ya di improve ,, tapi yaaa gitu ajah ,, ga eager something ma kerjaan ,, . Gw rasa inih ga dosa sik, masih dalam scope gw sbgy SM ,, insya allah ,, .

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Dari hari kamizh mpe senen besok keknya ,,, idup gw padet banged ma bajet ,,, . Sbnrnya teknikeli bisa di kerjain gampang sik, namun gw suka kesempurnaan ,,, kwkwkkwkwkwk ,, jadinya lama deh ,, #plus bego juga sik ,,, jiyakkakakkaka ,,, .

terush gw bisa ajah ,, aka lagi menikmati lebih lama di rumah ,, #bukan berarti seharian yak ,, wkkwkwk ,,, xuman agag lebih lama ajah di rumah ,, xiixixixiixi ,, . Bosen x yak dengan rutinitas wfh pasti ke mall ,,, xiixixixi ,, .

Inih di rumah juga ,, tiap 2 jam gw ganti swasana ,, . Misal, 2 jam pertama dengerin ceramah, 2 jam berikutnya dengerin spotify, 2 jam berikutnya solat ngaji ,,, 3 jam full kerjak, 1 jam full nge rilzh ,, 1 jam berikutnya bareng millie ,,, . di ganti2 ajah ,, biar ga ocen. Se-freak ituh gw ma rutinitas ,,, wkkwkkwkwkwk

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so whats next ???

sungguh kerjaan bukan minate gw samsek. Gw terus melanjutkan doa2 gw agar tidak jadi DM, dengan ttp berdoa mbngel bisa berkembang terush di bawah ataw pun ga di bawah gw ,, entah gmna caranya ,, yg gw ga ngerti jugak ,,, .

tapiiii semalem gw mimpi ,,,
lagi mtg SCM ,,, pa yota lagi explain di depan white board ,,, terush doi blg kurleb :: ah tapi nnti xan ( scm section ) akan pindah dept di bawah pa hermawan ,,, . weeehh ,,, ???? cincaahhh ??? ,,, . Yaaa baguslah ,, kekkekekekekke ,, aka ada new challenge yezh ,, xiixixixixiix

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terush ,,, last week ituh ,, tetiba muntjul perasaan aneh ,,, . Tetiba gw merasa dah done enough with this duniyakwik ,,, . Kek ,, cam ,, semesta blg ,, inih maks yg bisa gw lakukan ,, dh done enough ,, .

auto OT donk idup gw mil ,,, . Langsung mikir ,, apa inih pertanda gw mo mati ,, ???? ahuuhuhuhuuh ,,, . Gw takut matiiii ,, no debat ,,, !!! ,, . Pekara orang bilang ,, death is gate to heaven ,, boaaaaaammm ,,, . gw takut matiiii ,, ahuuhuhuhuhu ,, . Percaya ga percaya ,,, kadang di tengah kerjak pun ,, gw liat bengong ke depan ,, mikir :: bisa aja dalam sekejap inih tergantikan dengan view kuburan ,,, . Huikzh ,, serem amad yak utek gw ,,, ahuhuuhuhuhuuhuhuhuh

#auto istighfar ,,,
#auto salawad ,,,

dan besok dh senen ajah loh !!!
bener2 ga berasa ya allah ,,,

perasaan ru jumat kmaren blg “happy wiken gezh” ke temen2 ,,
tetiba skrg dh minggo sore dan besok senen
inih sampe denger netflix pake bhs jepun ajah, gw enegnya mintak ampun ,, wkwkkwkwkkwkwkkwkwk . Pdhal kerjak di perusahaan jepun ,, . Gpp ,, this is my own issue ,,, #ya so fastiiiihh ,, kwkwkkwkwkw

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di kemvangan ituh kan rumah lama yakkk ,,, jadi smuwa fungsi infrastruktur ya seadanya ajah ,,, . Mo bagus2in juga gada dananya ,,, xixiixixiixix

nah ,, duluw ituhh ,,, km mandi atas ituh bysaknya mainly nya wat gw ,,, yg laen di km mandi bawah ,, . Terush ada rejeki ,, bisa lah pasang aer panas / water heater di km mandi atas ,,, karena gw ga bisa an banged mandi pake aer dingin ,,, . Dan akhirnya smuwa mandi di atas ,,, kekkekekekek ,,, . Ya gpp ,,, tapi akhrnya gw ga mandi di km mandi atas sik ,, malah jadi sering mandi nya di tempat gym ,,, . Palingan mandi di rumah sekali sebulan doank ,,, .

thus ,, waktu pasang water heater ituh kan sekalian pasang toren, pasang pipa ke atas juga pompa sedot bla bla bla ,,, dan juga bikin keran aer ( di luwar keran ke bak ) ,,, wat wudhu !! ,, .

dari duluw ,,, kl mo wudhu suka pake aer dr bak ,, ( krna lom ada juga pompa sedot kl ga salah ,, lupa2 inged juga gw ,, ) . Rasa ga secure bersihnya ajah wudhu pake aer bak ,, . Jadi akhirannya kek posesif bikin keran aer di km mandi atas.

alhamdulillah kesampean ,,, . Since Covid sik kl ga salah ,,, udah ada tuh keran aeeerrr di km mandi atas ,,, alhamdulillah ,, .

Mpe skrg ,, kl wudhu tuh ,, berasa grateful nya ,,, ada ni benda wat wudhu di atas ,, hehehheheh . alhamdulillah masya allah tabarakallahu ,, .

simple yakk bahagiyakkuwh ,,, hehhehehehhe

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kwkwkwkkwkwkwk ,,, iyaaa ,, its litbit changing ,,, or might in the middle questioning ??? ,,, wkkwkwkwkkwkw ,, .

kmaren2 ,,, dalam utek gw ,, ttg harta2 duniyakwik yg juga ga seberapa inih ,, pokokmen ,, gw ambil sebutuh gw minimaliz ,, sisanya di amal jariah in ,,, di kasih orang ,,, pokokmen gada sisa banyak lah di guwe ,,, sampe gw mati ,,, aka mati ga nyisa in harta ,,,, karena dh di gunakan untuk kebutuhan orang2 ,,, .

tapiiiiiiiiiiii ,, after while got conv daily with friends dalam becandaan dan seriyuzhan ,,, kwkwkkwkwk ,, ternyataaaa ,, gw jadi cam “meng iya kan” or “menanyakan kembali” ttg harta duniyakwik inih ,,, untuk hidup yg “berada” ,,, yg mana sebelumnya nggag ,, . and moreover ,, gw menikmati “keberadaan inih” ,,, . Gilzzh yak !!!!

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lalugh bagaymana inih Tuhaannnn ???
seharusnya tak beginiiiii ,,,
ahuhuuhuhuhuhuuhuhuhuh ,,,

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