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Masya allah ,,, udah mo akhir march 2023 ajah ,,, dah 3 hari terliwati di bulan Ramadhan ,,, dah bahagiyak juga seminggu kemaren ,, kwkwwkkwkwk ,, alhamdulillah ,,, .

Yaaa ,, kemaren kan minggu nya gajiyan ,,, terush livur 2 hari ( raboe kamizh ) ,, jumat masuk ,, sabtu minggu off lagi ,, . Njirrr ,,, bahagiyak amad idup gw ga ketemu persunteran tanah air beta 3 hari ,, wkkwkwkkwkwk ,,, . Pula lah ,, gw alhamdulillah bisa belanjak belenjik karena dh gajiyan ,, kekekkekeek ,, . Di Toped beli Madu, rice cooker mini, celana boim. Beli jajanan camilan wat bocil ,, bisa sedeQah lagiiii ,,, alhamdulillah ,, .

tapiiiiiiiii ,, gw belom pwasak niiiicch ,, jadi bengang bengong ajah dh guwaaaaaaaaaa ,, njalanin hari kek hari2 bysak ajah ,, . Masih olga nge mall dll ,, kekekekkeke ,, .

daaaaaaaaaann ,, kemaren gw dh bisa ke dokter lagiii ,, #karena dah gajiyan for sure ,,,, kwkkkwkwk ,,, . Ke dokter mata karena mata yg ternyata amad sangad kerink inih ,,, juga ke dokter kulid wat ruam di muke gw dan ekseemmmm ,,, xiixixixi ,, . Alhamdulillah di kasih obat tetes wat mata ,,, dan di kasih obat minum peredam inflamasinya ,, .

teruushh ,, ni minggu pagii ,, syahdu amaaddddd ,,, abis ujan besar semalem ,, udaranya ademm ,, pwasak ,, hening nged ,,, kekekkekekek ,,, . Mo ngapain gw tudey ??? ,,, . Kerjak ??? xiixixixixi ,,, .

aaahh ,,
alhamdulillah wat smuwa yeezzhh ,,
Masya aLLah tabarakallahu ,,,

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Alhamdulillah ,,,
masih ada umur sampay dengan Ramadhan inih ,,,
masih ada kekuwatan dengan smuwa kelelahan jiwa ragak inih ,,,
masih ada pekerjaan halal yg di jalani ,,,
masih ada inkam halal yg didapati ,,
masih ada rumah untuk kembali ,,,
Masih ada hati yang bisa bersyukur ,,,
Maka, Nikmat Tuhan mana lagi yang kaw dustakan ,,,

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kadang mikir ,, padahal idup gw begitu baik ,, cobaan idup gw keknya nyaris gada ,, ya pasti adaaa siikk ,, xuman yaaa ,, kek segitunya idup ajah ,, . Trush gw lebay gitu ma idup ?? brsyukur untuk idup gw ?? ya eyaaa lahh ,,, lo kudu brsyukur ,,, mang mo apa lagi ??? ,,, hehhehehhehehehhe ,,,
#ketika utek trbysak mensimulasikan dr berbagay sisi jail ,,,

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gw inih ,, orang yg bodoh ,, . Daya idup gw sangat rendah ,, . Inisiatif gw gada ,,, . Xuman jalanin apa yg di suruh ajah ,, gada improvement dalam idup ,, . Karena yaaa ,,, memang terbentuk pola pikirnya spt ituh ,,, . Ato mgkin xuman mampu mikirnya segitu ,,, . Ummhh ,,, what ever it is ,, moga qt bisa selamet di duniyak dan akhirat yak ,,, . Bisa bertemu aLLah swt dalam sebaik2nya keadaan ,, . Amiinn amiinn amiinn ,,

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Tuzhdey 07.March.2023 ,, its a blessing day for me ,,, . Tudey ,, somehow i just get thought ,, ::

pikiran gw harus above dariiiiii ,, kekhawatiran di logsitic akan ketululan around ,,, kekhawatiran dng mnjadi bodoh di log ,, kekhawatiran dari badan yg nge drop tiap harinya ,, i dont fucking care ,,, !
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Life must be happy ,,, !!
no doubt ,,
ihiyyyy ,,,

Pikiran gw harus di atas smuwa kekhawatiran ituh ,, . Kekhawatiran dan ketakutan gw fix xuman 1 ,, pada aLLah swt ,, and the judgment day ,, . So ,, if my body will be drop anyway ,, ya drop lah ,, if i eventually will pass away ,, ya pass away ajah ,,, . What ever will be ,, ya will be lah ,, . Selama gw idup ,, selama gw masih bisa napas ,, then selama ituh pula gw berusaha terush mmprbaiki dan meningkatkan ibadah gw ,, . Lainnya hal ke-2 ,,, .

insya allah istiqomah yezh fi ,,
amin amin aminnnnnn

dalam sholat gw terush bersyukur dan brucap hamdalah untuk smuwa taqdir baik yg ada di hidup gw ,, . Allah swt memang baik ,, #speechless ,,

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Milliieeeee ,, hawaryuduiiinn ???? ,,, xxiiixixi
meee ??? its ,, just getin worst and worst ,, ahahahhaha ,, . even i cant imagine will be in this stage of badness ,,, hehehheheheh ,,, . I mention for official life that i consume more than 8 hours /day yaaakk ,, kkekekekkeke ,, . Others from that time spot ??? am so blessed ,, masya allah ,, alhamdulillah ,,,

eh ??? gw dh critak lum sikk ??? hal pelecehan di kantor ???? #wait tak sekrol dulzh ,, . ternyata belom !!! ,,,, .

jadiii ,,, i hv had harassment at office sunter.
My Bozh ,,, said to me ( it might in “bercanda” theme ) that :: “i dont want to hear any story about nisida except story about your affair with him ,,,”. Wehhh ,,, from my side ,, my feeling ,, i know he is serious saying that ,, . But that time i just laugh ,, even though feel strange inside ,, . In my mind :: so ,, this long ,, he have that thought ,,, and thats why he hates me that much ,,, .

after few days and inputs from my around that i need to reported this harassment to HR because its also concern about nisida’s name ,, . But its wednesday morning, almost a week after that issue happened ,, when i saw his face ,, i said to my self :: no, i dont report this issue ,,, , for all reasons lah ,, .

But some how ,, on Wednesday afternoon ,, another manager logistic ,, said to buX ,, :: ” bla bla bla ,, gantian berhubungan badan dengan buX” . I answered him with :: ” you can not speak like that ,, it can be reported to HR “, and he was laugh ,, . I said more :: ” you cant laugh for this, Sir ( with high tone) “. at that moment i realize that i hv to reported this to HR. I hv responsible for Logistic healthy environment and another female talent tobe secured for this un-necessary things in the office hour ,, . Manager loh ,, doing those things ,, hehehehheeh ,, . Ya gpp lah ,, what do you expecting for this duniyak ,,,

Then the next day ,, i report to HR by email ,,, . Not for make if official report, but more to get HR education for all Aji emp awareness for this matter ,, . Is it any response till now ??? OF COURSE NOT !!! ,,, wkwkkwkwkwkwk ,,, . Mang apa yg mo di arep dari aji ??? xiixixixix ,, . Selama gajiyan tepat waktu, cicilan ke bayar, dah bhay ,, wkkwkwkwk ,,

after that ,, yaahhh ,, sudah tentu tidak menyenangkan kerjak di log ,, sudah pasti lah ,, its feel weird more and more ,,, . And i think DM HR already inform personally to Log DM ,, xiixixixix ,, . So ,, its all about who will get transfer this year ,, is it him ?? or me ?? ,, hehehheheheheh ,, .

Hidup gw ,,, pada akhrnya ,, bukan, pada smuwanya adalah tentang pertanggung jawaban pada aLLah swt kelak ,, . Gw masih brtanggung jawab atas lingkungan yg baik untuk team ce ce lainnya ,,, bertanggung jawab untuk lingkungan kerjak yg sehat di logistic ,, dengan smuwa keterbatasan gw dan kebodohan gw ,,, . Jadiii ,, ya gw report, dan sebisa mgkin daily nya mengarahkan pada yg + healthy environment ,,, . Karena ,, mgkin juga becandakan yg spt ituh ,, di sukai oleh beberapa orang ,, somehow yezh ,, . hehehhehehe ,, . Sekali lagiiiiii ,,, ini tentang kelak ,, and i do my part ,,, yg sekali lagi ,,, dengan niad kebaikan yg lebih besar lagi ,, insya allah ,, amin ,, ???

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whereas full of dramas ,, wkwkkwkwwkwk ,, . But we made it anyway ko ,,, aahahhaha ,,, alhamdulillah ,, . But njiiirr ,, this sirkel bener2 dah ,,, full of love and drama ,, ! No doubt ! ,, wkkwkwkwk ,,,

kami segitu drama nya loh ,,, wkkwkwkwkwk ,,, . Dari sisi gw ??? yazh ,, one of pic #hallah, very rude on words ,, and yazh ,, its not suitable from my side ,,, and its toxic relationship i think ,,, , BUT ,, she is full of love to us ,,, indeed ,, . Thus ,, one concerning is ,,, her generosity very very very teach me ,, a lesson ,, ehheheheheh ,, masya allah ,, alhamdulillah ,, .

so from my side ,, its just another type of relationship. Not all around hv tobe like i want to ,,, . This is duniyak ,, Just take it as it is ,, filtered by yourself ,, as simply as it is ,, xiixixixixi ,,, .

mari menikmati duniyakwik ini dengan penuh rasa syukur pada aLLah swt dan berbahagiyak ,,, amin amin amiinn ,, ??

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sooo ,,, this is the 2nd week my health just geting bad without i know the reason is ,, . jadi bysaknya ,, senen – raboe ,, berat gw akan turun turus ,, kamizh drop nged ,,, jumat sabtu rikoverih ,, minggu much better ,, . Yazh !!! pola 2 minggu ituh kek gitu ,, kwwkkwkwkwk ,,, . Badan lemezh, napas atu2 ,, ituh jadi sering gw hadapi hari2 ini ,, yg puncaknya bakal terjadi di kamizh ( pengalaman 2 minggu ini ) ,,, .

and i asked my self ,,, why ?????? whhyy ,,, ??????

last week ituh ,, kek sebagian jiwa / ruh gw percobaan ninggalin badan gw ,, !! untung pada balik sik ,, yg rasanya ga 100% pd balik smuwa ,,, ! lupa ma badan yg mana x yak ,, ??!!! ,,, . Dan skrg pun ,, setelah lemezh kek apaan tw ,, ya sama ,, ini darah ,, kek dr dalam ,, rasa “mndidih” ,, kek mo lepasin diri dr kulit yg dalam ,, . Dan proses ini sakit badan gw ,,, .

jadiii ,, bawaannya gw mo tidur ajah seharin ,, mo istirahat ,, kek lemezh ,, kek capek ,, inside ,, . Pun gw analisa ,, bingung sndiri ,, apakah benar dari pikiran duluw ?? ataw mang dh dari badan duluw yg nge drop ??? ,, . Meanwhile gw menemukan jawabannya ,, gw mikir, apa gw mesti out duluw dari daily gw ,, aka break aka putus dr smuwa pola ?? . Bukan eskep ,, tapi biar jelas ajah why nya ,, .

aw ,,,, iki opo yg terjadi siiiiiiiiiiiiiiikkkk ?????????

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ummhhhhh ,,, besok senen ,, mule lagi ber-interaksi dengan orang jahat ,, my bozh ,, wkwkwkwkkw ,, .

so ,, last week ,, thursday afternoon ,, while i just in the bad health condition ,,, we hv small talk ,, me ncang and pa bozh ,,, . And at the end he said :: ” saya ga mw denger ceritak tentang nisida ,,, kecuwali cerita affair qm dengan dy ,, ” . weeehhh ,,, ??? . That thought exist in his head whole the time ?????

karena besok mo kerjak dan involve lagi dengan all about Aji ,, that sentence rewind in my mind. And yezh ,, i just realize that answered everything ,,, the reason why he so mean to me ,,, . Its complete ,, !!! hanya butuh last confession and confirmation from him ,, .

Dy ada masalah dengan nisida ,, . Dan dengan beritak AI-1 mo geser doi karena di anggap tidak pantas mimpin Logistic, dy mnjadi maarah ma gw ,, mgkin karena gw orang yg cukup baik prestasinya di jaman nisida, jadi dy mikir macem2 ke gw ,, . Lahh ,, apah salahnya dengan mnjadi agag pinter dan agag sefrekwensi ama kepinteran nsd pada masa ituh ???.

ya !! ,,, Now i know ,, . Alasan dari smuwa hal yg tidak logic inih ,,, . Manusiyak dah setuwak ituh ,, masih ga bisa bijak juga menyikapi sesuwatu, even menumpahkan kemarahannya ke orang lain (gw) ,, yg ga ada hubungan apa pun dengan masalah dy dan nsd ,,, even worst, kesebut gw ada affair dgn nsd ??? . Bahkan untuk becandaan pun,, ituh ga lucuk ,, sangat ga lucuk ,, . Di utek gw, kl bukan lu dah senior, dh dr duluw lu d geser ma nsd ,,, ga perlu nggu ai-1 ,, aseli lo ga se frekwensi ituh ma doi.

but now ,, here i am ,, through my daily with somebody with anger in his heart and shed it up to me ,,, . Hmmhhh ,,, i thought at first ,, i hv to wreak him ,, with out any sin from my side ,, because ,, its him to starting this war ,,, . Buuuuuttt ,, ummmhhh ,, its not !!! ,, . NO needdd ,,, . This is not my war ,, but he is ,, . Terima kasih aLLah swt yg msih terush mmbuwat gw brbuwat baik pada orang ituh ,, di saaat dy begitu jahat ma gw ,,, .

ah pa bozh ,, sadarlah ,, karma ituh ada ,, lo percaya ataw pun tidak ,,, . Jika lo ga peduli ma diri lo ,,, at least mikirlah ,, lo punya anak ce 3 ,, memasuki duniak kerjak pulak ,, . Kalian para orang tuwak ,, inged lah ,, apa yg xan lakukan ,, bisa ber effect ke orang2 yg ceritaknya xan sayangi ,, banyak case ttg ituh ,,, . Apa otak xan tidak bisa memikirkan ituh smuwa ???

despite all of that ,, be GOOD ,, no doubt ,, !!

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mari cari lipen ,,
biar bahagiyak ,,, !!! ??????

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soooo ,,, its was last Thursday ,,, . I didnt take my fasting because i thought will hv big mtg with pa gm and will take much more energies ,, . Thus ,, its a another regular day ,, . Yaa ,, i took coffeea all day long ,, i late for my lunch ,,, but its still ,, its regular for me ,,, .

Its ,, afternoon ,, on my way back home ,, its felt like just i want to fainting. I felt sooo weak ,,, my back bone is so hurt ( in my thought, my body took energy from my back bone, ga dari lemak yg berseliweran inih ,,, . wkkwkwkkwkwk ,,, . it just i felt run out of my energy ,,, all of them ,, . Antara mo pingsan, tapi keknya nggag deh ,, kan gw dh gendut ,, wkkwkwkkwkwkw ,, .

and i made it ,, . I arrived at home safely ,, . But its soooo ,,, weak ,, hurt ,,, not headache ,,, napas atu atu ,,, asli i dont hv any energy to live ,,, . Gw nimbang ,, dan BB gw 55 Kg ,, . So ya ,, its no weird if i in this condition ,, .

i through the night ,, with sadly ,, hehehehheh ,, . Napas satu2 ,, feel so weak ,, makan minum dengan posisi tidur ,, mpe akhrnya tengah malem dh mule segeran ,, . Tapi masih lemezh maks. Bahkan wat solat ajah ,, kek badan ma otak ma jiwa ,, ga nyatu sempurna ,,, .

paginya ,, jumat wfh ,, gw beli bubur ,, wat sarapan dan abis ,, !!! . Trush lanjut kerjak ,,, . Niadnya mo ke mall ,,,, but my body is still weak ,, so weak ,, . So i just wfh all day ,,,

its ,, Magrib ,, gw nimbang lgi ,, dan berat gw dah 58 Kg lagi ,, . What !!!????? ,,,, . naek 3 kg dlm waktu 24 jam ??? its weird ,,, . But ya ,, gw dah sangat enakan ,,, . Energy gw dah ampir 80% balik ,,, and continuing well until now ( saturday ).

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SO, WHAT WAS THAT ?????????????

gilzh ,,, apa yg terjadi kemaren ,,, ??? gada penjelasan logis kecuwali mang tipikal gw yg kadang nge drop ,,, . ya ya ya ,,, it must coming out ,, but ,, should be not so bad, isnt it ???? ,,,

Then, i hv 1 Theory ,, !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
its some part of me ,, leaving me ,, leaving my body ,,, . Ituh sudah jelas ,, !!! . . Ada bagian diri gw yg pergi ,, dan ya, kembali lagi sik ,,, wkkwkwkkwkw ,, . Inih gw bingung ,, pada percobaan pergi apa gimana ???? partial2 gituh ??? haiyaahh ,,, .

ummhh ,, yaaa ,,, its bad experience ,,, but i through some like these experience ,, and this is not the worst ko ,,, . Even though its time for me eventually ,, its ,, a ,, yaa ,, mo gimana lagi ,,, . My brain know ,, everything already set up ,,, nothing in coincidence ,, not at alll ,,, . Its just me ,, following the path ,,, .

its scary fi ??? ya ,, it is ,,, . Its more scary at first ,, many years ago ,, . But yaaaaa ,,, di jalanin sajah ,,, . What else i can do ??? kekekkekekekkekekekeke

let get find udon ,,, we need re charge my energy

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