Everybody choosing ,,, neither do i ,,, . Yes ,,, all of this ,,, the risks of what i have choose before ,,, well, still survive till now anyway ,,, . Eventhough this is very painfull and asunder .. just hold with your heart ,,, it was still you, still your mind … still your heart ,,, who has decided it. Just keep move on ,,, till the end … as hafi.
they said … they often times saw me bengong … . I’ve already did that since junior high school i think … xixiixixixi 😛 … . But you know what … it was not that blank koooo … just … imagine or thinking something maybe ??? hehehheheh *ngeleshdotkom*. Minds is something big … they wild on many imaginations on … isnt it ??? 😛 . And some times … it so hard to control … but it can be liege by heart … 🙂 . these are some stories above …
Keep in touch. when my mind asked me … why you still can be friendly to person that already hurt you that much ??? this is not make sense … . well … Its not easy to handle out my heart … but sometimes its not that hard also being friendly for now. On the other side … i thought …, even thought i forgive them … its not gave any guarantee that am include on ‘save peoples’ . My sins too much … One kindness can not make me safe. Even i did kindness during entire whole my life (if i do that) … still not gave any guarantee … . Just do good things … as long as we could … as long as time still turn arround … as long as our heart still beat up . Its all about God mercy … is that what we looking for so far … Isnt it ???
Riba. ummghh … u know … riba is not allowed in islam. As we knew, riba is allowed on conventional financial system. They said, if we are in disanvantaged side … its ok we use the conventional system, but if we get benefit which mean interest then its not allowed to. And most of financial system in this world … using this riba. Still there is syariah system that already exist in indonesia. Ya ya ya … my money is not that much to debating for interest, riba or something … (lah wong buwat makan aja repot … kekkekekekkek). And so far, still i try to avoid the riba. Still looking for the syariah one for my insurance or my banking transaction. Why ??? because … i knew how hard working to earn money for live … and i dont want to my saving in the bankings/insurances, get role for un allowed in islam border. Its make my effort became vain or maybe make some troubles in the judgement day. i dont want it. Still, i use conventional bank to facilitate payments for my credit cards. The interest i used to sedaqoh jariyah … wakkakakakkak… (helloooowww ??? mana bisa sodaqoh jariyah d lalui dari jalan/duit yang haram ???) … astaghfirullahal’adziimmm… . Well, further … still bound to conventional system inorder to have house or car maybe ??? … hmmhh … how bout that ??? kekkekekekekkekk 😛
Corruptor. Sometimes … i lost in my mind bout them … why they do that ?? . Persue that money in wrong way … for what ??? Provide high quality living for they family ??? Isn’t it became make more bussiness to be done ‘next’ ???. I mean … semana seh harta/dunia neh mu di raih mu di kejar ??? ga d bawa mati tuh benda duniawi … . And my relative said … thats why most of moslem not get good welfare … . Hmmhh ??? well … if many humans not greedy … maybe this earth could be long live also … 😛
i like spontanaeity … really like it … because there is honesty describe on. I like few things also that describe another honesty.
Pray. I like seeing praying people with khyusuk. Really like it … *terlepas pada doa ape yeeeee …*. It just … mmmhh … like … xixixixi, i cant describe one with words … . Sometimes i heard they pray till craying … and with jailnya i said in my heart :: ” ya aLLah … ada yang manggil mpe nangis2 tuuhh … di kabulkan dunkz ya aLLah … hehehheheh ” 😛
Sedeqah. Once … we have visited an elder. Her condition very pathetic, because she seems alone … it just her sister who take care her daily. One of our parents felt very pity to her … . And when we leave that house … our parents left her sandals to gave to her. When we want to inside the car, her son asked :: “mom, where is ur sandal .. ??? “ . and she said : : ” its oke … i left behind for her … “. i saw with my own eyes, when we want to go, she already ware that sandal then she took off and leave it in front of the door, when she look that elder’s sandal was very poor one. Lalu dy berjalan bertelanjang kaki, dari rumah orang tua itu sampai mobil yang areanya tanah2an … .
Laugh. and i like seeing people laguh with spontanaety … with that expression … what ever it is … hahhahahahhah. May be thats why i like to ngerjain orang, because i can get 1st expression of them …. hahahhahhahah. Muhun maapppp bagi orang2 yang telah merasa di kerjain … itu hanya perasaan anda2 sajaaahhh .. hahhahahha *kaboooooeeerrrrr*
Its already twice that i was dream facing death ,,, . We are often discussing bout death ,,, and sometimes it become kind of joke rather than the meaning of death it self. In fact … its so horrible !! Its seems between something that ur mind can not reach of. Its so frighten till u want to pay anything to keep in live … . But you can not … its one way ticket … you cant go back for any second. Masya allah …
They said … if we were dreaming bout death … we will long live … (aamiin) … . But in my case … if i was dreaming bout something ,,, often times it will happen anyway … . Well … we will die … soon or later isn’t it ?? 🙂 . Never be ready for live ,,, never be ready for death … . Everything bout God’s mercy … 🙂 .
