,,, hard to wait for this moment ,,, and finally its come ,,, litbit crowded at first ,, but God make it right some how ,,, i see my body in the mirror ,,, its us now ,,, and i smile ,, not complain at all ,, my heart ,,, sincere ,, say thank you for every single thing that you already done for me ,,, really i do thankful for this ,,, for the past ,, for the future will come ,,, to gather ,,,
am perfectionist one ,,, but there is nothing so perfect in my life ,, (kalo ga mo di bilang blangsak seh ,, xixiixxi ) ,, .
Hmmhh ,, and you know what ,,, Lucky, bad things ,,, sad happy ,,, ,, it all just about colaborate of thought and hormon ,,, . dont you agree with me ,,, ??? iixixiixxi ,,, . Many things in my life ,,, kick me down ,,, and i down ,,, ahhahaha ,,, but umh ,,, i dont care ,,, . xixiixix ,,, maybe its because too much kicks ,, ?? ahahhahah ,,, .
Ahhh ,,, no,, i just want to live with happiness ,,, override things that make me sad, bad and others ,,, . I cant live with sadness unhappy things or others bad things ,,, i choose to be happy ,,, definitely ,,, . and right now ,, i just think how to make my life better ,,, . hehehehe ,,, . Kenapa idup gw ga pernah bener yak ??? xiixixixi ,,,
#tulisan ini ,,, gonna be really curcol ,,, xiixixix
right now ,,, i just feel ,,, in the edge of life ,,, . When i see peoples ,,, others outside of me ,,, duniyawi things ,,, i just feel ,,, am not that part anymore ,,, disingkirkan ,, tersingkirkan ,,, segera oleh taqdir ,,, and somehow its make me litbit sad ,,, .
I do miss my Lord ,,, so much ,,, so much ,,, . Aku menantikan pertemuanku dengan Nya ,,, definitely ,,, it just ,,, so many sins that i have done ,,, so many bad things in life ,, that i cant paid with goodness or anything ,,, . Jadi ,,, gw pasrah ajah ,,, . Semoga bisa bertemu dengan Tuhan kuw dalam keadaan baik ,,, aamiinn ya robbal alamiinnnn ,,, .
But you know what ,,, sekarang ,,, aq benar2 tidak mengeluh padaMu Tuhan ,,, untuk semua yang terjadi ,,, untuk semua taqdir ,,, dalam hidupkuwh ,,, . Engkaw bisa lihat ,, aq tidak mengeluh ,,, . Am good ,,, right ??? hehhehehe ,,,
the point is ,,, right now ,,, i think ,,, i just loosing what is my purpose in this world ,,, thats all ,,, 🙂
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hhh ,,, sooo ,,, what happen to the world ,,, ??? ,,, welll ,, really sooooo borrreeedd with the job ,,, indeeeeddd ,,, . Oh dear Lord ,,, . Really want to get new Job ,,, get new challenge ,,, . #fi ,, mo tantangan ,, ?? yakeenn ,,, ??? bikin sehat/fit sehari ajah idup lo dah achievement ko ,,, we both know that ,,, ahahhahahha ,,, # . wakakkakakkakak ,,, iya juga yak ,,, . Sekarang gw bahkan ga berani wat nongki2 di strbx after office hour ,,, takut malah ga bisa pulang ,,, aka tepar di tkp ,,, secara malam dah sisa sisa tenaga guwa ,, wakkakakakkakakk ,, .
Last friday ,,, mbak wee ,, asked us to maksi at ITC ,,, . Heeee ?? huwaatttsss ??? wakakkakakkak ,,, . You know what i did before maksi ??? drink 2 glasses of sugar water ,,, to make my body more strong enough ,,, jiakkakakkakakak ,,, . And am good as long as maksi time ,,, yihaaaaa ,,, . Still, at afternoon ,,, have to go home earlier to get rest ,,, ah! plus one panadol extra before went to bed,,, xixiixixixiix ,,,, . aman lah yezh ,,, .
iyezh ,,, keknya PR banged yezh ,,, make my body strong enough ,,, at least ,,, fit enough to do my dailies ,,, include nongki2 at starbux after office hour ,,, hehehhehe ,,, 🙂
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my fathers health getting worst ,, . The doctor said ,,, it just all of his nerve is just getting less function ,, aka faktor U ,,, . i see all of this ,,, just ,,, this is life ,, . Really not meant to be rough ,,, but, who will go first ,,, ??? hehehhehe ,,, . Of course i know the answer ,, from my side of course ,,, hehehhehe ,,, .
semogaaa ,, everyhing ,, just fine ,,, from aLLah swt side ,,, aamiinn ,,, 🙂
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sumpah ,,, !! gw bener2 butuh swasana baru ,,, mungkin swasana di kota santri??? ,, eaaa ,,, xiixixixi ,,, . yup ,, bikin badan kuwat duluw ,,, baru deh ,, lanjutin semua plan2 lainnya ,,,
semoga selalu baik dalam pandangan aLLah yezh fi ,,, aamiinn ,, 🙂
Just thinking and analyze ,,, what is/are problem in my life ??? . Tobe honest ,,, i dont hv one ,,, .
All of things in daily life ,,, most of i adjust as my need ajah ,,, . Many times i made it over ,,, lebay ,,, when it already become too much ,,, i left one ,,, . Nothing so hard in my life ,,, maybe as image ,,, i can say ,,, its my game ,,, . For what i hv now ??? It is serious one ,,, litbit distruct for sure ,,, and then ??? ,,, let it be ,,,
*to be continue
Pagi ini bangun2 ,,, pikir dan rasa gw tenang banged ,,, . Dah lama banged rasanya ga kek gni ,,, . Seperti nemu suatu jawaban dalam mimpi ,,, jadi ga da beban lagi ,,, tapi apah ,,, ?? .
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am a second person ,,, am behind the scene person ,,, am an original woman ,,, . am not interesting in the first position ,,, in the public position ,, no, its not me ,,, . am following my leader ,,, when he can not do his functional ,, i’ll take the lead ,,, . If the situation getting better ,, i will let my leader to take the first position again ,,, ,, ,,, . And who is the man, who can lead a person like me ???
::. laki laki ,,, harus menjadi besar dan kuwat ,,, laki laki pemimpin ,,,
Hey ,,, am so happy ,,, . This MurNing ,, i just see my face in the mirror ,,, and i see a fresh face ,,, alhamdulillah ,,, . I just laying down at humzh yesterday ,,, some how ,, i feel so sleepy ,,, and succeed slept for hours in the murning ,, coooll ,,, xixixiixix ,,, . And i make conclusion ,,, all i need is one day full get rest to recover my health ,,, . Not go to the gym ,,, not the vitaminzh ,, not the food ,,, just get sleep ,,,, xiixixixixi 🙂 ,,, as simply as that ,,, ahahhahahha ,,, .
others ?? ,,, sometimes ,,, i think and pleased i beat them ,, sometimes i think ,, just let it be ,,, let it be ,,, whats wrong with all of this ??? ,, . They do they role ,, and neither do i ,,, . xiixixiixix ,,, , ,, ,, , , , , . its not that i dont care ,,, it just ,, i dont want to take too much for anything ,,, .
This is my life ,,, whatever that come into my life is variables ,,, and daily life is how to manage this variables ,,, . My Life ,, is just continues anyway with or with out all of this variables ,,, Time is tik tok dude ,,, I just want to enjoy my life ,,, day by day ,,, thats it ,,, as simply as that ,,, 🙂
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hehehheheheh ,,, yezh yezh yezh ,,, i just so skinny right now ,,, and for one year backward ,,, xiiixixixi ,,, . But now i think ,, so what ??? i hv 42, 43, 45 Kg before ,,, then what so hard bout this weight now anyway ??? xixixixiixixi ,,, take it easy fi ,,, take it easy ,,,
nothing that so important ,, right ??? xixiixixixi ,,
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Official ??? ummhh ,,, the bozh ,,, just already geting kind ,,, maybe related to his wive transfer to this country ,,, xixiixixixi ,,, . what ever lah ,, who care anyway ,,, xixiixixi ,,, . Jobzh ?? ya ya so so laahh ,,, . Not that interesting ,,, .
Hey, this week ,,, we were started english course ,,, . The teacher is Mr BerNard ,,, he is canadian but maybe already in indonesia for 10 years ,,, . His wife is indonesian ,,, ,,, . So far ,, so good lah ,,, 🙂 ,,, . He said ,,, when we already feel bored with our Job ,, it is signal for us to get new challenge ,,, . xixixiix ,, so europe yezh ,,, . Qt mah pan butuh yah di mari ,, kalo ga mah ,,, dah dari kapan tau cabzh ,, . ya kalik juga otak qt mampu di tempat yang baruu dan lebih baik ,,, xiixixix 😀 #curcooll ,,, wkwkwkwk ,,, .
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last friday night ,, we just hv chitchat in the mushola ,,, its a gd sharing anyway ,,,
Ya aLLah ,,, ampunilah kami ,,,
Mnjadi hamba manusia dan bisa megetahuiMu ,, adalah mukjizat trsndiri bagiku ,, duhay Tuhan semesta aLam ,,
BantuLah kami merendahkan hati kami serendahrendahnya di hadapanMu Tuhan yg Maha Agung lagi Maha MuLia ,,,
ini bukan tentang aq ,,, qm ,,, ato qt ,,, . Ini tentang ,, aLLah ,,, cant you realize that ??? . It is ,,, life is just so hard ,,, but we hv try hard to keep focus to aLLah SWT ,,, .
Mpit said ,,, she knew there is a border line that she cant cross to,,, . But me ?? already crossed the border ,,, . Do all bad things ,,, . And alhamdulillah sanget ,,, i get back ,,, . And for what ” i hv now ” ,,, its always remind me to keep in the border ,,, . What the strongest reminder beside ,,, death ,,, right ???
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i really enjoying my life now ,,, alhamdulillah ,,, 🙂
LateLy ,,, i just like ziarah to my mother’s ,,, . I dont know why ??? hehhehehe ,,, . At first ,,, i just scary ,,, but more often ,,, i feel peace here ,,, . it just me ,,, and “them” ,,, ,,, , ,,, ,,, ,, , ,, ,,
there is one story that funny enough i think ,, . Once ,,, When i went back from my mother grave ,, i passed on many others graves ,,, . And there is a name in the tombstone ,,, “Julius bin ,,, ” and i said in my head ,,, ” he must be born on juLy ,, ” . Instinctively ,, i wipe with my hand whole of the tombstone to make sure my guess ,, . And whooolaaa ,,, the born date is 31 juLy ,,, .. Ahahahahhah ,, i just walk away then ,,, . What a horror coincidental ,,, wkwkkwkwkkw ,,,
gw bangga jadi cewe padang ,,, dan mewarisi gen tersebut ,,
Wanita kami dididik keras, mandiri, berkecukupan, semua nilay hidup yang baik ,,,
But somehow, kami juga dididik untuk mendahulukan pria dalam hidup kami ,,,#what a hormony balancing i think ,,,
dan gw juga akan mengajarkan yang sama ke anak2 gw kelak ,,, . Mendahulukan pria ,, karena pria eniwey akan jadi kepala keluwarga ,,, . Mereka harus jadi besar dan kuwat ,,, .
