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#aneh sekali ,,,

dii musholah ,,, musholah cewe ,,, nunggu maghrib ,,, mandang ke depan ,,, ke hamparan sajadah ,, tetiba ,, tetiba sangat ,, gw ,, ngerasa ,, sangat sedih ,, sangat sendiri ,,, ngerasa ,,, jiwa gw telanjang ,,, ngerasa malu dan sangat rendah ,,, ngerasa semuwa tembok kesombongan di hati runtuh ,,, rasanya ga pernah gw kek gini ,,, masya allah ,,,

semakin qt “melihat” ,, semakin qt “tahu” ,,, semakin qt merasa nothing ,,,

hh ,,, kenapa yh ??? ,,, i think ,,, rasa kesombongan guwe dah begitu tinggi ,,, kelakuwan dan ucap angkuh guwe sudah kelewatan ,,, #istighfar ,,, masya allah ,,, gw takut ,,, sangat takut ,,, gw bener2 takut mati ,,, takut di kubur sendirian ,,, takut sama aLLah ,,, rasanya ingin sekali guwe mengucilkan diri sampay kiyamat tiba ,,,

#asumsi guwe :: gw kesambet ,,, #and time flies ,,,

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The,,, logical reason for those who has hard sleep is :: your brain activity is high.

Now ,,, is it soooo needdedd ,,, think hard on your daily fiiii ??? ,,, . Is it soo needed ,,, ???? . Maybe ,,, this is my big assume  ,,, that i think this is the right one ,, is  :: i think hardly ,, because am fool  ,, . So i need more time to think deeply ,, . Maybe others ,, just need 2 hours ( in example ) to think about A ,, but i need 6 hours to think about A ,,, with the same result ,,, . Yup ,, nasib orang bodo ,, hehheheheh ,,, . So ,, let it be lah yezh ,,, #ga ada yang salah dengan menjadi diri sendiri ,,,

i slept ,, on daily ,, around 11-12 pM ,, . And on 3 aM ,, already woke up ,,, . Some times ,, when i got woke up on that time ,,, i just said to my brain :: helloohh ,, come on ,, its 3 am ,, i still need to sleeeeeppp ,,, wkwkkwkwkwkwk ,,, . Ya kalik abis itu bisa tidur bener yezh ,,, wkkwkwkwkkw ,,, 🙂 ,,,

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But you know what ,, am so grateful with this brain ,, . This tiny brain alwayzh remind me ,,, for un-good things in my life ,,, even though ,, apparently i do the bad one also ,,, . But as a brain ,, its already remind me ,,, . And maybe ,,, next ,, in the akhirat ,,, in the judgment day ,,, my brain will testify ,, :: aq sudah memperingatkannya ,, mang dasarnya aje dableg ,,, wkkwkwkwkwkkw ,,, #istighfar ,,,

soo ,,, till the end with me yezh my brain ,,, #pastinyoo ,, kwkwkwkkwkwkwk ,,, 😀

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whollaaa ,,, how are youuu ???? hopefully with happiness all the times yeezzhh ,, aamiinn ,, 🙂 ,,, . Just like me ,,, still can enjoy this time with my own happiness ,,, alhamdulillah ,,, 🙂 ,, xixiixixi ,,,

#balada nangkring pagi2 di warung kupih ,,, xixixiixix ,,,

Gila ,,, !!! ,,, ( eh, bhs inggris please ,,, xiixixixi ,,, 😛 ) ,, Dear Lord ,,, !! ,,, very cold yezh this murning ,,, lucky me wearing a jacket as thick as bear skin ,,, kkwkwkwkwkkw ,,, #lebay ,,, ( rada kurang dapet yezh kalo dalem bahasa inggris ,,, xixiixixi ,, ) ,,

Jakarta or Kembangan weather this murning just like in Germany ,,, ( kek yang dah pernah aeee ke jerman ,,, wkkwkwkkwkw ,,, ) so bloody coooolllddd ,,, eaaaaaaa ,,, . I already have some plans for this murning ,, but its neglected ,,, wkwkkwkwk because weather condition ,,, . ALhasil ,,, getting chicken sleep ,,, ( apa hayooo ,,, wakkakakakkak ,, ) ,, .

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Trlalu banyak ,,, mengalah, terlibat, berbicara, bertindak, berekspresi ,,, terlalu lama menjadi orang lain ,,, sudah waktunya “kembali ke dalam” ,,, am off ,,,

xixixixi ,,, yup ,,, its a ,,, just ,, so tired with my condition ,, and around ,,, heheheh ,,, boleh kan yezh ,, ?? ,, am just human being anyway ,,, . in what way they make me good ,,, ??? one to two ,, betrayed me ,,, . (Oh hafi ,, please get fair ,,, even though with different theme ?? . Ok then ,,, 🙂 ,, ). Yup ,, in some wayzh ,, they makes me see the world ,, places i mean ,,, . Having traveling enough when i was young ,,, eaaa ,,, #perlu yak di sebut :: was young ,, ??? ,,, wkkwkwkwk ,, . anyway ,,, those were my stories ,,, . Yup ,, its already left behind ,,, . Its just now ,, am just ,,, tired ,, hehhehehe ,,, .

I think ,, its need ,, new pattern to face my dailies ,,, dont you think like that ,, ??? 🙂 . Be silent ,, is one for sure ,, 🙂 ,,, hehehehhehe ,,, 🙂

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enough with discussing around my official things ,, xixiixix ,,, . Sing penting ,, cicilan mbem kebayar ,, serpizh mbem mbit juga lancar ,,, bayaar listrik pulsa bengzin juga lancar ,,, aamiiinn ,,, #kok banyak yezh ,,, ??? xiixixixix ,,, 🙂 ,,,

as long as i can work properly ,, with my strength ,,, ( and brain ??? ,, wkkwkwkw ) ,, and the most important is ,, still can pray with peace in office hour ,,, xixiixixix ,,, i think its enough for me ,,, 🙂 ,,, . Since long time ago ,,, am not ambitious person kok ,,, heheheheheh ,,, 🙂

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may happiness ,, upon all of you ,,, aaminnn ,, 🙂

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i took leave paid by tudeyzh ,,, . Why ?? #beside my cough ??? ,, karena guwe males maksimal ,,, males ma lingkungan kerjak nya ,, males ma para bozhnya ,, males ma semuwa lah ,,, . Sumpeh ,, gw suntug maksimal ,,, . Maybe ,, for the next few weeks ahead ,, i will talk to white bozh ,, to ask a chance for transfer ( out ) ,, wwkwkwkkwkwkw ,,, rasa expatriat ajeee ,, xixiixixix ,,, .

and i fill up this day with ,,, thinking ??? wkkwkwkkw ,, . Thinking ,, writing ,, watching ,, sleeping ,,, drinking ,, eating ,,, and all ings possibilities in this world ,, wkkwkwkwkwkwk ,,, . One mistake for tudeyzh ,,, get sun bath ,,, ??? helloohh fiii ??? wkkwkwkwkwk ,, begok amad dah ah ,,, . But am getting better all the times ,, so i want to do ,, starting to do ,, all crazy things again ,,, ahahahhahah ,,, . Now ,, in the right way ,,, #bisa fi ??? wkwwkwkkwkw ,,, . Hopefully ,,, .

No ,, its not because i want to be some one else ,, . It just ,, human being ,, as naturally ,, will do better time by times ,,, maybe ,,, ixiixixixix ,,, . We are not robot ,, we can not stuck in one point ,,, 🙂 ,,, . Even though we are not set up that fluctuation ,, we will do fluctuate anyway ,,

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somehow ,,, having chit chat with our ex partner in Logistic Dept ,,, . He said ,,, his check around 17 jt ,,, with attachment to convince me ,,, xixiixixix ,,, . Lucky him ,, rejeki orang yezh beda2 ,,, padahal menurut banyak orang kala itu ,, doi not that smart ,,, . I just thinking ,,, am i can work that much in others comp ??? with my heath condition ???? ,,, . But i said to my self ,, gw dah sihat ,, sebaiknya gw melakukan hal yang baik ,,, yg spectakuler ,, what ever it is ,,, dont you think like that ,, ??? ,, and nothing can stop me ,,, eaaaaaaaaa ,,, xiixixixiix ,,, #ya kaliiikk ,,, xiixixixixi ,,,

Jika ingin melakukan hal besar ,,, harus dengan triger things yang besar pulak ,,, . Unfortunately ,, triger gw ,,, not that big ,,, dan guwe heran kenapa bisa kek gitu ??? knapa yah ??? kenapa gw ga tertarik that much ma duniya ini ??? kenapaa ???. Semuwa yang gw kejar ,, it just ,,, about ,,, sincerity ,,, . Why ,, ??? Why ,,, ??? ,, masya allah yezh ,,, . Memang beda2 orang ,, beda2 passion ,,, but ,,, ahh sudahlah ,, fi ,,, . Do everything that makes you comfort with ,,,  >> tuhhh kaann ,,, salah inih ,, wat duniyawik pipel ,, .  Hmmhh ,, entahlah ,,, entahlah ,,,

anyway ,,, tetep cemungudzh yezh fi ,,,, 🙂

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Shall we go humzh now ,, ??? hehehehhe ,,,

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,,, do good things ,, every singLe day ,,, no need to caLcuLate the efficiency of each ,,,

 

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you know what ,,, i think ,, most of my eat time ,,, its because of others ,,, . Not much that i ate based on my own desire to eat ,,, xixiixixix ,,, . maybe ,, maybe ,, when my mom got passed away ,,, she had pray to the Lord ,, to make sure that i ate in many times ,,, xiixixixixi ,,, wkwkkwkwkwkwk ,,,, . #duugghh maaakkk ,, bukannya doa in wat cepet kaweeemmm ,,, xiixixixi 😀 ,,, ehheheheheh ,, pizh maakk ,, rest in pizh there yeezzhh ,,, ehehehheheh ,,,,

sedih loh kalo gw di suruh2 makan gituh ,,, mana ga liat2 lagi nyuruh makan ma makanan yang ga guwe suka ,,, sueeee ,,, sediiihhh nya tuh di siiniiii ,,, . gw bakal makan ko kalo dah laper ,, ahuhuhuhu ,, kenapa mesti di teror wat makan sih ,,, . Sayangnya ,, bedanya ,, kalo orang gw teror wat makan ,, orang2 pada demen ,,, helloohhh ??? kalah banyak kan guwe ,,, xiixixiixi ,,,

and yezh ,, not much i like those foods ,,, . Ga banyak makanan enak versi guwe ,,, . Pernah ,, mbak uweee insist ,, kalo sosis pagi nya enak ,, . Pas guwe coba ??? ya ,, segitu dah rasa sosis ,, mang enaknya di mana ??? ,, wkkwkwkwkwk ,,, hopeless dah doi ,,, xiixixixi ,,, .

btw ,,, pernah terpikirkan ga ,,, sapa yang menemukan santen pertama kalik ??? . Dari buwah kelapa ,, ada yang mudeng ,, untuk marut dan mengambil sari santennya wat di masak ,,, . Santen ituh gurih loh ,, enak ,,, dalam takarannya ,,, . gw jarang juga sih makan makanann bersanten ,,, xiixixixixi ,,,

anyway ,, semoga semuwa orang bisa makan dengan bahagiya yezhh ,, xiixixix ,, aamiinn ,, 🙂

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February comes ,,, its ,,, a ,, february ,, xixixiix ,,, . Still with the same hafi ,, same office environment ,, same jobs ,, same daily routine ,, same income ,, same outcome ,, xixiixixi ,, . what the difference is ,, ??? ,, . Ummhh ,,, i dont know ,, nothing i guess ,, ??? xiixixixi ,,

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duluw ,, some years ago ,, xiixix ,, per berapa bulan pasti gw notes ini itu ,, karena mo jalan jalan ,,, or pergi out of town lah ,, semuwa yg mo di bawa gw atur ,, secara baju gw saat itu ( dan saat ini ,,, wkwkkwkw ) ,, ya itu2 ajah ,,, ga cukup kalo set up mendadak ,, wkkwkwkwk ,,, . Sekarang ??? males pegi2 an ,, cepet capek ,, . Some times ,, gw pikir ,, ini bukan karena gw sakit ,, tapi karena semangat guwe yang memudar ,, eaaaa ,,,, xixixiixix ,,,

dah tuwak yezh guwe ,, dah ga cocok kegiatan fisik yg aktip2 ,, xixiixixix ,,, dah saatnya menikmati idup ,,, mengurangi aktipitas / kegiatan2 yang ngurangin umur ,, misal :: nanggepin yang ga penting2 ,,, marah2 ma orang ,, kesel sendiri ,, kesel bareng2 ,, sakit kepalak ga jelas ,, wkkwkwkkwkw ,,, . dah waktunya jalan2 mahal ,, gratisan ,, cardio nya shoping di mall ,,, tinggal tunjuk terush di beliin ,, tanpa merasa bersalah ma apa pun dan sypa pun ,, wkkwkwkwkkw ,,,

terush metong ,, terush masuk sorga dehh ,, aamiinn,,, xixiixixixixi  ,,, 😛 ,,,

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dont forget to be happy my dearzh ,,, 🙂

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its a ,,, nice enough wiken for me ,,, 🙂 ,,, in fact ,,, its full nice ,, eaaa ,,, hehehhe ,,, alhamdulillah ,,, . And ,, after this nice wiken ,, whats next ,, ?? ehheheheh ,,, .

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what i hv to share about me ? my life is just ,,, average to below ,, ahhahahah ,,, nothings interesting in my life ,, nothing ,, xixiixxi ,, . Official ,, friends ,, mate ,,, xixiixix ,, am not that cheerful person ,, that can be accepted in around ,,, hehehhehehe ,,, .

Writing down is just kind of activity that reduce my brain activity ,,, and sharing thought that maybe can be use for others ,,, . If my brain activity not that high anymore ,, what could i share more ??? ,, eaaaa,,,, xiixixiixix ,,,

i still remember ,,, many years backward ,, when i hard to sleep ( now is still sih ,, xixiixixix ) ,,, . My head just spinning around thinking many things ,,, but i need to sleep ,,, . Many ways to do to make me sleep ,, but its not work out that much ,,, . One thing that i still remember and become my  habit then is ,,, i zikr many times before i got sleep ,,, . Its makes my head get focus ( to the Lord ) ,,, and finally ,, sliiippiii ,,, ihiiyy ,,, .

Now ,, after many years passed through ,,, what happen in my life ?? with all of those thinking ,,, ??? . My life is just “average” ,,, hehehhehe ,, but am so grateful so much ,,, . thus ,,, i remember a movie about a woman in middle east ,,, that have big effort to become FBI agen ,,, . There is a statement that woman said ” what do you want to become ?? a wife ? a sister ?? a daughter for entire your life ??? ” ,,, .

its like a question to me ,, who have below – average life ,, ahahhahahhaha ,,, . You know what ??? maybe ,,, for sure ,,,

,,, its about your thought ,, about what you are believe in ,,, about what way you decide to follow on ,,,

And for me ,,, i do believe in aLLah swt ,,, . So ,, its OK be a wife a daughter a sister ,, for entire my life ,, as long as aLLah bless me ,, my life ,,, . What is your goal exactly ??. If i hv a chance to have a great life more ,, being an agen ??? ahahhaha ,, yeah ,, its Ok ,, my life is about aLLah’s bless ,,, .

Apparently ,,, my life is just low ,, xiixixix ,,, with high grateful ,,, . Segini ajah banyak sekali dosa yang gue lakukan ,, dan entah bagaymana guwe memohon ampun padaNya ,,, . Masya aLLah ,,, .

,,, I do respect this life ,,, i do respect people ,,, insha aLLah ,,,

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now ,, its me ,,,  entire of me ,,, 🙂

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