#masih edisi insome ,,
,,, butuh seseorang ,,, yang guwe bisa bertukar dan sharing pemikiran guwe apa adanya ,,, tanpa harus pretend menjadi orang lain ,,, just being me ,,, not just for listening ,,, but someone that really understand what am thinking about me ,,, about the world ,,, about the universe ,,, about the Lord ,,, some one with the same thought with me bout those ,,, some one who not pretend to be some one else ,,,
Just be our self ,,, entirely ,,,
#masih edisi insome ,,,
,,, orang yg bsa tahajud tuh keren bingid ,,, seting an otaknya keyeeenn ,,, hard set up ,, xixixixixiixix ,,,
,,, guwe ??? ,,, obo ajah around jam 11-12 ,,, ya kalik bisa bangun jam 3 an wat tahajud ,,, bisa sih bisa ,,, kalo ramadhan doank ,, wkkwkwkwkw,,, karena eager nya tinggi kalo pas ramadhan ,,, nah kalo 11 bulan laennya ?? ,,, huikzzhh ,,,
Bangun sih bangun ,,, tapi ko yo mallleessssss banged wat tahajud ,,, ga rela waktu tidur gw yg around 5 jam ituh ke distruct ,,, ampun yezh ,,, . Seandaynya gw bsa obo lebih cepat mgkin gw akan bangun dini hari ,,, matgay ,, dan tahajud ,,, tapiiiii ya kalik bisa obo jam 9-10 ,, hari gni aje ni mata masih seger buger kek berger keblinger ,,, wkwkkwkwkwkkwwke ,,,
Dooghhh males bener mo turun ke bawah dan num obat ,,, pdhal da antibiotiknya ,, bodo ah ,,, sekaliyan besok pagi ajah ,,, xiixixixixixi
hay ,, hay ,,, hay ,, its chineeee new year ,,,, #eh dah kemaren yah ,, xiiixixi ,, . And its rainy all dayzh since yesterday till tudeyzh ,, ??? ,, xixixixi ,,, #alamat jemuran mukenah ga kering dah nih ,,, xiixixix ,,, .
#Like alwayzh ,, sunday murning ,,, nongkih cantikzh at warung kupih ,, xixiixixix ,,, .
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ummhhh ,, not in the good mood ,,, . It just ,,, feel ,, full ,, . Yezh ,, “full” i think is the fit verb to describe me right now ,,, . it just ,,, i feel already all in my life ,,, ( ya ya ya ,, exclude getting married for sure ,,, wkkwkwkwk ,, ) ,,, . Having good stuff ,,, good food ,,, that i dont need those either ,,, done ,, .
Having crazy life ,, cray travel ,,, crazy expense ,,, done ,, . Having try to have good faith ,,, good worship ,,, good thought ,,, done ,,, . Having good life also facing death issue ,,, done ,,, . Having good luck and bad luck ,,, done ,,, . And now ,, i dont have passion again in those things ,,, ,, ,, .
Is it ,, not good enough with those craziness and the goodness ,,,till i hv to in this phase ??? . What in my mind now is ,,, setan is trying to make me un-focus like now ,, wasting my time to think ,, not necessary to think ,,, . But ,,, other thought said that ,, its common to feel like this ,, because am human being anyway ,,, . So ,, whats next ,,, ??? masya allah yezh ,,, masya allah ,,,
,,, and ,, i just want still to love You my Lord ,,, for the past ,,, now ,,, next ,, and for ever ,,,
#yup,,, maybe those craziness and the goodness ,, are not enough ,, not yet ,,,
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duugghh ,,, pengen mpuuupp ,, xixiixix ,,, #tobe continued ,,
ihiyy ,, done activities by tudeyzh ,, with high cost for sure ,, and pain leg ,,, wkkwkwkkwkw ,,, . and this afternoon ,, my leg cover by koyo ,,, wkkwkkwkwk ,, faaktor Uuuuu ,,, wkkwkwkkw ,,, . What ever lah yezh ,,, xixiixix ,,, .
When i get back ,, i continuing with clean up the house ,,, and then got some food ,, . And then my father came ,, and give me some speech ,,, that i hv to shalat berjamaah di masjid kalo wiken ,,, terush ibadah sampe waktu dhuha datang ,,, karena pahalanya sama dengan ibadah haji dan umrah yang sempurna ,,, . Kelar makan, baru kelar dah tuh ceramah ,, kwkwkkwkwkw ,,, . But you know what ,, i think its a good thing ,,, belum tentu ayah2 lain di keluwarga lain ,,, memberikan hal yang sperti ini pada anaknya ,, dont you think like that ???? ,,, . #duuughh ,,, gw faktor U banged yezh sekarang ,, wkkwkwkkwkwkwkkwkw ,,,,
annd ,, my dreamzh ,,, its seems gloomy will come to kembangan ,,, 😐 ,,, to me ,,, 🙂 ,,, .
,,, pun ,,, puunnn ,,, kaw memang benar secara facta ,,, dan mereka memang bodoh / salah secara facta ,,, tetaplah berusaha d tiap waktumuwh fi ,,, untuk tidak sombong dan tinggi hati ,,,
Cukuplah gundahmuwh sampay pada pemikiranmuwh sajah ,,, tetaplah hargai mereka ,,, because you know very well ,,,very very well ,,, what impact will come to you ,,, the Lord trained you many times for this one ,,, almost for entire your life ,,, masya allah ,,,
And am so afraid ,,,
trying have a shaum by tudeyzh ,, after many dayzh off ,,, heheheh ,, . Alhamdulillah its work out ,,, !!! ,, . Ucink lemezh ucet ,, but am survive ,, #lebay dikit boleh lah yezh ,,, ixixiixixi ,, .
what a blessed day ,, when white bozh is off ,, when not disturbing with jobs’s issues ,,, when can pray/sholat in peace ,, when can go home earlier ,,, when having food on the dining table ,, when have wifi around ,,, having good drinkz in refrigerator ,,, hacing AC in the roomzh ,,, “Nikmat Tuhan mana lagi yang kamu dustakan ,, ??” ,,, oh My Lord ,,, please help me to alwayzh grateful for everything comes in to my life ,, aamiinn ,, 🙂 ,, masya aLLah ,,,
yup ,, alhamdulillah for tudeyzh ,, 🙂
izin curcol pliiiiiss ,,, xiixixixi ,,, . Nulis nge-share ngarol ngidul bole yaaaaa ,, this is me timme ,, this is my happiness ,,, ihiiiyy ,,, 🙂 🙂 🙂
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once ,,, my friend said with hopeless tone ,,, ” God not answering my pray ” ,,, . Why am feel hurt to hear that ??? ,,, . ,, In many years ,, i hv the same thought ,,, but its not right ,,, its not right ,, at all ,,, . Why we have to complain in one side ,,, but not looking for another sides ,, that aLLah gave us ,, more and more and more ,,, #istighfar ,,, masya allah yezh ,,, .
,,, Hidup memang bukan mudah ,,, tapi bukan berarti tidak bisa bersyukur dan berbahagia ,, 🙂 ,,, May aLLah ,,, SWT ,, gave us ,, sincerity to all of God’s stories for our life yezh dear ,,, 🙂
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is it Islam’s rule is not compatible for this era ?? ,,, you know what ,, some times ,, till now ,, i still hv the same thought ,,, imagine ,,, dear Lord ,, #masya aLLah ,,, #istighfar,,, .
If you so ,, you wanna said that ,, aLLah’s rule is not perfect ,,, . Its not right ,, its not right ,,, .,, just think ,, we are stuck in our dailies routine ,, we are not that smart ,, we are not thinking and caring for one earth ,,, we are just ,, low human ,, . And how come we can said aLLah’s rule is not compatible for this era ??? ,, what already you deep think about life and came out with that statement ,, ??? .
i just ,, it just ,, with my ignorance ,,, i choose islam’s rule for my life guidance ,,, . So ,, when my thought said ,, islam’s rule is not compatible with this era ,, i just said to my self ,, :: its me who can’t ( yet) follow the right way ,,, 😉 ,,, . finally ,, its about your faith ,, your believing ,,, .
May aLLah ,,, SWT ,, guide us ,, on the blessed way ,, alwayzh ,,, aamiin ,,, 🙂
once again ,, for me ,,, at the end ,, its all about aLLah’s ,,, . And this is about our believing ,,, . If we are not on the same way ,, nothings more to be discuss ,, , i think ,,, . bagiku agamaku ,, dan bagimu agama mu ,, 🙂 ,,, . Bahkan yang sudah segama pun ,, belum tentu sama pemikiran ,, 🙂 ,,, . So ,, let it be ,,, with our own believing ,,, 🙂 ,,,
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O iya ,,, last friday night ,, guwe pesbuk walking ,,, and i found a post ,, hadits ,, with contain :: Maafkan lah kesalahan saudara muwh ,, agar aLLah swt memaafkan kesalahan muwh kelak di akhirat ,,, #kurleb yezh hadisnya bilang kek gitu ,,,
uwwwooowww ,, what a big challenge for me yezh ,, . Di otak gw ,, :: tuh orang masih bisa di bilang manusia apa kagag yak ??? apa kabar di bilang sodara ??? wkkwkwkkwkw ,,, . But ,,, having forgiveness from my Lord ,, is the most important for me ( and around ) than anything else in this world ,,, . So ,, ??? ,, ,, ,, , ,,,,,, ,,,,, #nothing coincidence in this world ,,,
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Duugghh ,, tulisan guwe di ataas dah kek orang bener ajah yak ,, wkkwkwkkwkw ,,,
why most of my time now its seem just for rest ?? wkkwkwkkw ,,, and still feel not enough ,, wkkwkwkkw ,,, . Hadjeee ,,, ga bener ikiiii ,,, . Need more doping to do more activities ,, wkkwkwkwkkw ,,, . Semana duniya akan berlangsung ,, keep focus ,, #hardnote ,, keep hard focus to aLLah swt yezh fi ,,, . Hal ini begitu penting ,, ! ,,
Cemungudzh hafiiii ,,,, !!! 🙂
,, guwe ga butuh dan ga peduli ,,,, dy ngomong apa ke temen2 sekitar guwe ,,, urusan guwe ma dy ,,, hanya tinggal dengan Tuhan d akhirat kelak ,,,
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Sebegok2nya guwe inih ,,, gw perhitungan d otak ,,, . Yg ga masuk perhitungan gw adalah :: gw ga nyangka ada orang yg begitu jahatnya ,,, d sekitar guwe ,,, . Gw juga bergelimang dosa ,,, hhhh ,, tapi tidak yg seperti ituh ,,,
ihiiyy ,,, what an apezh wikenzh ,, xixiixixix ,,, maybe it is because i seen that person on friday night ,,, its make my life for whole this wikenzh is apezh again ,, wkkwkwkw ,,, #baper amad guwe ,,, xiixixixix ,,,, . But ,,, so so lah ,,, alhamdulillah anyway for this wiken ,,, ehheheheh ,, 🙂 ,, .
In fact ,,, till now ,, am really really really ,,, upset ,, if i did wrong or careless ,,, am not make that big tolerance for my self ,,, . So when i did mistake ,, am very angry to my self ,, xiixixixi ,,, . It is need an additional effort to make my head understand ,, that something right ahead ,,, xixixixi ,,, . Nasib jadi orang perfectionist ,,, 😛 ,,, . Hey ,, this scope ,,, include ,, exercise in my life ,,, acceptance ,,, 🙂
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So ,, what happen in the world ,,, ??? ,, an official ??? ,,, Oh dear Lord ,, sumpeeeh ,,, i just getting bored with those jobs ,,, masya allah ,,, . I think ,, its the pattern for me deeeh ,,, after around 3 years in the same jobs ,, its just getting bored ,,, . Ummhh ,,, but ,, hh ,, i dont know lah ,,, i dont have that passion in work again ,,, ahuhuuhuhuh ,,, . and as consequence ,, my perform for this job ,, will be decrease ,,, its natural ,,, oh migod ,, what should i do ,,, ?? ahuhuuhuh ,,, .
maybe ,,, i should take a piknik ,,, wkkwkwkwkkwwkw
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few times ago ,, i just met mbak Wati ,, our ex ART ,,, . She is just cry when see me ,,, . She said ,, :: liat anak seumuran dek ijah ,, langsung ke inged anak saya ,,, #sambil ngusep air matanya ,,, . Hikzhh ,, gw jadi ikutan sedih ,,, . I just cant say a word ,, semoga Tuhan memberikan keikhlasan wat mbak wati ,,, dan keluwarga ,,, aamminn ,,, .
Gw ,,, sedikit mengerti ,, tentang apa ituh cobaan yang di alamin mbak wati ,,, . Its like ,, her world is broken into nothing ,,, . Bener2 butuh kasih sayang Tuhan untuk menghikhlaskan semuwa taqdir ituh ,, masya aLLah ,,, . And makes me think ,, mbak wati adalah calon penghuni syurga ,,, . Cobaan ituh ,, so deep ,, akan ada balasannya yang baik ,, pasti ,, semoga yah ,, ammiinn ,, 🙂
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ummhh ,,, so berantakan inside ,, . Fixed again one by one ,, . Be smart person in front of aLLah swt yezh fi ,,, 🙂 ,,, . Insha aLLah ,,, aamiinn ,, 🙂
wwkwkkwkwkwk ,,, few people told me that am anti main stream person ,, mo kek ape nih duniya ,, gw lempeng ajeee jalan ,,, eaaaa ,,, . I think ,, they make something mock to me ??? wkkwkwkw ,,, maybe ,, maybe not ,, xiixixixi ,,, .
from my side ,,, am not anti main stream person ,, but i do not following that duniyawik style indeed ,, well in less lah ,,, hehhehehe ,,, 😀 ,,, . Yaaa apa yang mo di ikutin ,,, ga ada modal juga wat ngikutin gaya duniyawik inih ,,, jadi ya seadanya guwe ,,, hehehehe ,,, .
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in my head ,,, anyway ,,, about anti main stream ,, it just ,,, based on what the basic person believing ,, dont you think like that ?? .
What ever it is ,, from what will coming into their life or their thought ,,, people will compare with their base ,,, if not appropriate ,,, they will not following ,, and vice versa ,,, . Just as simply as that ,,,
so ,,, its so really important to have good basic for sure ,,, . For muslim ,, we already have base for life ,, ,, 😉
