Hmmhh … hehehhee … for the uncounting times … i said … am tired … with all of this. Life become more harder … . Ummghh … i dont know … maybe its not … but seems have no time for rest … poor my heart … 🙂
Its not finish in my mind about pengadu domba persons … thus come story about magic something … thus ??? about … hhh … what i have to say about this … just already shared one with my sister. So many bad stories about all of this … that it cant be handled with my head … .
The point is … i just be betrayed with i believe in … no matter who did it to me … . This is about what i believe in and its distruct …
Unfinished story about pengadu domba person … i dont know why they did that … . Everyone had their own purpose isnt it ??? . Next stories … My friend ever said … when they got trouble in life … they went to orang alim … to see what human cant see … . Is it right ??? . Is it musrik ??? i dont know for sure … because that orang alim, using Quran for all of that amalan … . Heee ?? I dont know lah … . Maybe … when i got down … there are no people advice me to come to orang alim something … so i have no reference at all about this … hehehehe … #joke an yang garing#
And am tired … and i dont know why i felt so tired … . Maybe … i act like orang yg sok suci … yang sok menjaga semuanya dalam kondisi baik … . Mungkin seharusnya tidak begitu ??? mungkin seharusnya mencicipi menjadi pengadu domba … mungkin mencicipi sesuatu yang berbau magic … mungkin sebaiknya menyakiti seseorang … . Ataw pada dasarnya gw sudah seperti itu tanpa gw sadari dan gw menjadi sok alim ???? 🙁 . Gw pernah menjadi buruk … sometimes i want to cut my vein when i remembered those dark times … Masya allah … .
Just need tobe focus … and so hard to do one … . Plus … an office life that i have to through on 8 hours a day … Keknya kerja energinya bokan mikir wat kerja tapi wat nahan amarah … masya aLLah … . I said to my sister … ” tit, kalo gw ga kerja lagi … gw masih bole minta makan di sini kan … gw kerja ko nanti di rumah, bersih2 ngepel nerika … xixixiixixi …. ” … and my sister just said … ” capek lo ya … kudu kawen segera … ” halllahhh … hahhahahhahah
… aLLah … am so tired … tired … belumlah lepas dengan orang yg menurut hafi jahat … harus pula berhadapan dengan magic … hambaMu ini bukan orang alim yang ibadahnya bisa menahan semua bentuk magic … Udah bagus sholat bisa lengkep ya aLLah … hikzhh … siapalah hafi ya aLLah … Duhai Zat yang maha Agung … mohon bimbinglah kami dalam jalanMu yang lurus … Lindungilah kami ya aLLah yang maha baik dari semua niat buruk dan keburukan … ampuuunn ya aLLah … amppuunnn … astaghfirullahaladziimmm ...
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