I think am dying … Hehe … Hhh … 🙂 masya aLLah … Love you my dear Lord …

padahal kan … ada Tuhan yang maha besar lagi maha agung … yang maha memberi lagi maha pemurah … yang maha menepati janji … yang maha pengasih lagi maha penyang … yang maha menentukan apa apa yang tidak mungkin bagi hamba menjadi mungkin bagiNya … …. … ….. …. .. . . .. . …. tapi qt tetap kudu realistis ya sebagai hamba ???  🙂

apa harus melepas sekarang ??? masih ada ga ikhlasnya … karena keyakinan akan DIA … yang bisa buat semuanya jadi mungkin … 🙂 … dan aq senang berharap padaNya …

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Alhamdulillah … A little enlightenment in my heart … . I dont know what happen for last week … My heart so dolful … For something that not clearly also … .

Now … Its feel like wake up from the dream … Quite clearly what i have to think … What i have to do … What i have to feel … . Even my life stories not that good … But please dont be like the last week … Its so killing me … .

sudahlah … Jangan bersedih terush … Mintakan upayakan bersabar … (Mario teguh)

Those years ??? Pheewww … . And my maagh recurrence on this early morning … Naah ini baru bener dan normal … Xixixixixii 😛

And my friend said :: “you are strong woman … . and I said :: ” no am not of course … I just a foolish woman… 🙂 “

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hehehhe … this is quite heavy dear Lord … . I have no idea to cover it … have no strength to face it … i just hiding from the shadow … and i can do now is closer to You … to hold me from the deepest fallen. Gw lebay !!! … . I just thought … maybe all i need is waiting my hormon getting normal again ??? hehehhehe *hopelessmodeON … lanjut tarik napas panjang*

Hey … March coming !!! … and am still single !! heeelloowwwhhh ??? wakakkakakakkkk . New Manager also attend by today … transfer from EDC … . Gonna make any changing ??? dunnowww dweeecchhh … but i dont think so sih …

Iygh … last night i have my 3rd dream about another matter … still yelling each other … and faced the weird person … . its weird … and i dont care … hehheheheheh … . They are nothing …

Ummgh … yesterday … a half hour before 4 pM … i have chit chat with my friend … and am so proud of him … . His salary not biger than mine … already have family … but have big achievement like have 4 houses … ???? and how bout me ???? keseringan gagal KOSDON … akhirannya utang yang di banyakin ?^$*!@$%(@^%@( …doweeennggg … huiikkzzhh … . kalo kata pepatah mah … dy tuh berakit2 kehulu, berenang2 ketepian … bersusah2 dahulu … bersenang2 kemudian. Nah kalo gw ??? bersenang2 dahulu … mati kemudian … !!! pheewwww … 🙁 . Good chitchat … mayan lah … make me realize to have big dicipline also … cemungud hafiiii … 🙂 . Si njar have told me once … you have to get married soon … so you can figure out the mean of KOSDON !!! … hahahhahahhaha … bener bener beneerr … .

alhamdulillah … have a heavy lunch at artha gading mall … . Meat ball plus rice … extra effort to finished one … alhasil, perut gw dah kek hamil 2 bulan dah … wakkakakakkakkk ..

xixiixix … badan dan hatikuwh meriang dangduutt … kapan kah ini akan berakhir ???? serasaaa ada diii … sikuai island … serasa ada di sekitar hotel basko padang pagi hari … serasa ada di phuket bersama teman2 … serasa ada di belitong … serasa baru masuk ajinomoto … serasa akan meninggalkan sesuatu … serasa ada di kamarkuwh malam hari … serasa berangkat kantor pagi2 … rasa rindu sesuatu …. rasa rindu suasana … rasa rindu seseorang … tapi entah apa di mana kapan siapa … . Xixixiixixix … ga jelas dotkom … serasa flash ke belakang … rasa yang gaaaaLLLlaaawww eeuuyyy … .

 
Already at my roomzh … Watching the TV … Gonna make some plans … Cleaning2 … Bengong bengong … Me tiiimmeeeee … ….. …… ….
 
Egh … I just remember … My friend asked by today “why you look so sad ???” . Egh ?? That question just distract my mind … Spt tersadar dr bengong gw … And i was thinking .. “Am i look so sad ?? But why i’ve to be happy ??? … . Hmmhh …

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melooowwnya hatikuwwhh … dunno why … or i knew exactly why it can be so bluuuuueesss ??? xixiixixixix 😛 . Headache … less slept … hard caugh all the nite … make my heart more bluueeesss … *hallah* hhehehehehe … . Actualy … am not that tired … all of these just make me ‘BENGONG’ … kosong … bolong … melompong … .

And this influensa fragrance make more something like dejavu in my days … … jadi lieeuuurrr eeuuyy … . PLUUSSS … have no eager to do anything especially to work … alias ga cemungud gituuhh … (mang pernah cemungud working in here ???) xiixixixix

People … human … why we can hurt each other ya ??? hehhehehehe … missed communication and maybe missed while Gen crated at the beginning becomes root of all of these yak ???? 😛 … . maybe no one would hurt someone else … if they were never felt being hurted … bokan begetoh ??? … ini kesakitan yang berlanjut dan berjamaah … 🙂

… have an usual lunch … alhamdulillah masih ada yang bisa di makan … masih ada duit wat bayar makan … seswatoe ya … 🙂

… while have to feel ‘this’ alone … can not share even for a word … only me and God … it just like fill up my brain … and deplete my heart … and occupy one with shadow like a ghost … Love You as always my Lord …

hey … am getting curious … how many woman older than 30’s still writing her daily ??? hmmhh ??? xiixixixixii 😛 … . I like to write … already since in school or maybe in junior high scho0l … continues till now … hehehhehe 😀

Hmhh … hv a litbit chitchat and My bro said :: yes … but not that much as yours, sist … … . Hmm ?? Ga seberat gw ?? Iya, ga seberat masalah gw … 🙂 .

yes … that much …

Markibooooo … Nite aaaaLLLLLL

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xixixiixix … this influensa make my life just like dejavu … . Already 2 days … it seems like attending in another places … where who when ??? dunno … . Ooowwhh … my body taste is not delicious … meriang dangduuutt gimanaaa gituuhh … siapin panggung donk … biar sekaliyan joged kitaagghhh … xiixixixixi . Cunsumed china herbal medicine and modern one … not make better … huikzh … well, maybe not getting worst … hehehhehe … . xxixiixix … batuk2 dan bersin2 kuwh … membuat lante 2 gonjang ganjing saking kencengnya … wakkakakkakakkk … lebaeee sore soreeee 😛

hmmhhh … finally i saw the person happy … alhamdulillah … God answered my pray … my last wish … . So, nothing left … time to go now … 🙂

laluuughhh … why that company not calling me yeeettt ????? hehehehhe … ngarepdotkom euuyyy … . its geting weird and weird … and weird being hereeee … . Oh Dear God … please raise me up from the stupidity … aamiinn … 🙂

whats update yak ??? xixixiixix .. dunno laah … ucink gaje gimanaaa gituuhhh … xixixiixix 😛 ..

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akhirnya bisa liat dy bahagia … terima kasih Tuhan Engkau kabulkan doa kuw … aq bahagia … its really time to go now  …

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