Minggoe, 24May2015

minggoe … minggoe kuwh … . Me time kuwh … with my dmf kuwh .. alhamdulillah kuwwhh … . its alwayzh nice can go here and enjoying my fave coffee … .

ternyatagh !! …  its not took that long for me … maybe arround 1 week … ???? … . Feels quite good right now … . Btw, kenapa kalo abis num coffee sekarang tuh malah ngantukzh yeezzhhh … haiizzhh … .

akhir2 ini banyak orang baik dalam level masing2, meninggal duniya loh ,,, apakah kaliyan tidak memperhatikan nya ??? … Mungkin kiyamad sudah dekat … . jadi … jika qt masih hidup sampai dengan saat ini … qt bukan termasuk golongan orang yang baik ???? wkwkwkkwkwkwk … #nyodorin kaca … menurut nganaaa …. ????

 

Heeehh … lots of stories last few months … . I want to share what in my thoughts right now … ::

one voice in my head said :: sapa suruh maen di duniya, tanggung sendiri akibatnya .... .

xixixixixi … iyah iyah iyah … . Duniya ini begitu nikmat … lagi pula gw butuh … abis enak sih … #qt lagi ngomongin apaan seh ?? wakkakakakkakk … . hmmhh … its so exhausted … high speed … feelin so instant … up and down so fast … . Cooll … but its so exhausted … . am i get being “kapok” … . Hehehhehe … no i am not … 😛 … . Hey … this is where i lived … nikmatilah … 🙂

 

why nothings goes right in my life ????

ummhhh … iyesss … there are nothing goes right in my lifes … wakkakakakkak … . But, its all about God stories … . So, the question is :: Why God makes nothings goes in my life ??? . wakakkakakkak … . Damn !! i Love my Lord … . What ever will be ya will be lah … . Mungkin gw ga akan pernah jadi alim … ga akan pernah jadi hamba yang baik … . But you know one thing that i believe till right now … I’ll meet my Lord one day … seeing the face … seeing my creator … in good condition at the end … 🙂 aamiinn … .

 

Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing
and rightdoing there is a field.
I’ll meet you there.

When the soul lies down in that grass
the world is too full to talk about.
Rumi

ini kata2 keyen abis yeezzhhh … . keyen bingid bingid dan bingiiiddd … . Ahhh … ada fase … di mana hubungan manusia dan tuhannya hanya sebatas … believing ada yg maha besar di luar sana … ada yang sebatas takut dosa dan mengharapkan pahala tanpa perduli esensi Tuhan itu sendiri … ada yang pada begitu mencinta Tuhan sampai tidak peduli apa itu surga dan neraka … .

Dan yang diajaran Rasul Muhammad adalah sebuah peradaban manusia … . Baginda bisa saja menjadi sufiers … tapi rasul ditaqdirkan sebagai messenger … untuk membangun peradaban manusia yang lebih baik. Itu berhasil … dan akan hancur anyway … . Karena tidak ada yang kekal di duniya ini yes … .

Dan apakah xan bisa melihat keindahan nya di situ ?? keindahan Tuhan akan semua yang terjadi di duniya ini ???

itu orang yeeee … cari gara2 banged idupnya … . Make CC kk guwa yang mana tagihannya masuk cc guwa … sebanyak 25juta an … . Bikin gw gejala struk aja tuh orang. Mana tracknya dy suka ga bayar lagi … apezh dah … . Bentar lagi gw struk beneran keknya … #elus2 dada … apa elus2 bule aja ??? wakkakakakkakakkk …
 

 

 

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Nyekar …

last thursday ??? i visited to my Moms graveyard … nyekar kalo bahasa dimari mah … . It just cross in my mind ajah, when i passed that area in the murning in my way to office … . So, i turn back and went to my momzh grave yard. The gate still locked, but i can open it … . And bikozh its already long time not visiting my mom, so … make me confuse for a while where i hv to find the gravestone. But, just need ngeker dikit, and whollaa … found one !! … hehehhehe … .

Mizh her so much … . hhh … maybe because in that moment, i am facing big matter  … so i went to her grave … just wanna sharing what so heavy in this heart … . hehehheheheh …. . Siting praying crying … may aLLah meet us next yezh mom … . You with your happiness … and i with my happiness … aamiinn … 🙂 … Love you mom … 🙂

we are not that close … but somehow … loosing her … become so painfull …. . So i update in my socmed … “karena qt satu jiwa” … . I dont know exactly with others when their loosing their mom … but i can still feel it .. when i  loosing her … seperti satu jiwa yang ditarik/dipisahkan dengan paksa … . dan ituuuu … amat sangat banged bingid menyakitkan !!! indeeeddd !!! … . Entah, apa ada yang lebih menyakitkan dari pada ituh …. ???? … .

But somehow yeezzhhh … about my status in socmed … people connecting to my old story … about irsal ?? wakkakakak … . Kenapa jadi dikaitkan ke doi yak ??? hadeehhh … aya2 waeeee …. .

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Garden,,,

,,, d atas benar dan salah ,,, ada taman yang indah ,,, and i’ll meet you there ,,, <katanya rumi kl ga salah>

 

udpate 24.05.2015, di cariin lisyul full version nya ::

kenapa kata2 ini begitu keyen yeezzhh …

Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing
and rightdoing there is a field.
I’ll meet you there.

When the soul lies down in that grass
the world is too full to talk about.
Rumi

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Sedikit lagi,,,

,,, beberapa jam lagi ,,, dan lewati hr mggu dengan baik ,,, setelah itu qm akan berhasil fi ,,, bertahan ,, !! ,,, smoga ini jalan yg baik ,,,

Aq tidak pernah bsa merubah dirikuwh ,,, aq tidak berkuasa atas dirikuwh ,,, tp aLLah lah yg berkuasa atas dirikuwh ,,, semua yg terjadi atas dirikuwh sampai dgn detik ini adalah atas peruntahNya ,,,
so ,,, ikhlas lah ,,, ini tentangNya ,,, bukan tentangkuwh ,,,

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Selasa,, 19.may.2015

Yang satu maksa yang satu marah ,,, pusing pala babik #edisi pms keknya ,,,

Its tuesday ,,, cemungudhhh demiiii semua cicilan yang adagh ya hafiiiiikuuuwwhhh ,,, . I think i need do something that crazy to boostup my mind ,,, . Ga jelas apa yg ada d otak nih ,,, kek ada pikir yg ga selese ,,, tp ga tw apah ,,, . And people arround me act like weird from my side ,,, make me so un patient yesss ,,,, . Dear Lord ,,, . So, mari makan molen ,,,,

#after make coffee ,,, . Hmmhh ,,, using my brain ,,, analyze those ,,, why i hv to bother anyway yesss ,,, wkwkkwkwke ,,, . So so lah yeesss ,,, kerp focus on red nissan march yessss ,,, hahhahahahaha

Kenapa nothings goes right in my life yezh ???? ,,,, ,,,, ,,,,,

Hey qm ,,, apa kabarmuwh d sanah ???  Its have been long time bingid ternyata yeezhhh fiiiii ,,, pengennya pegi jauuhhh ,,, sejauh mungkiiinnnn ,,,, hmmmhhh ,,,,

Be strong hafiiiiii ,,, be your self ,,, 🙂

Jika orang bebas berfikir liar tentang aq ,,, itu masalah mereka ato masalahkuwh yeess ,,, ah, itu masalah mereka ,,, i hv my own to think ,,, to do ,,, (seperti apa yezh hafikuwh ,,???) ,,, xixiixixix

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Zenin, 18.05.2015

,,, sakit palak babik !!! #edisi bete ,,,

 

hadeeehhh … whats wrong with tudeyzh yeesss ??? so NOT in the good mood … . BETE abizh !! … .

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Bandung, 1-2.May.2015

 
#latepost
#regarding to lisyul’s parwell … see you again in bandung lisyuuulll 🙂

 

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Perpanjang STNK

#latepost

Ceritanya hari sabtu,  09.May.2015 ,,, gw nge bengkeL … dan di semua kesibukan sosialita gw … guwa baru sadar tuk perpanjang stnk … langsunglah gw cek ed tuh stnk …. oh NO !! ternyata berlaku s.d 10.May.2015 (hari minggu). Haizhh … !!  alhasil berniad kuwat tuk perpanjang stnk di hari senin, 11.05.2015.

IMG_2683Setahun lalu, gw juga perpanjang stnk pake drive thru di samsat daan mogot. Yang dipersiapkan adalah :: STNK asli KTP asli BPKB aseli dan kendaraan aselih. Sampe TKP jam 07:00 aM. Bukanya jam )8;00 aM. Gw liad pengumuman persyaratan nya … ” ahh aman dah, semua dah gw bawa” … . Pas dah mo deket loket, baru mudeng … keknya ada yang harus di bayar dah … . Haizzhh … ga lucu kan,,, lama2 ngantri, ga bawa duit harus ngantri dari awal … wkwkkwkwk . Untung ada duit di tas … cukup wat bayar tuh perpanjangan. Ga lama kelar dah … gampang dan mudah … 🙂

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Sunday, 17.May.2015

well,,, actually i have me time yess ??? … #blink blink …. #sturbucks coffee in the murning … #alhamdulillah …

ummhh … quite emotional by last few dayzgh … . Having un-planed escape by friday … xixiixixixi … . I alwayzh like that journey somehow … . Well … i have gd conversation yesterday with him … . Can sharing sensitive stories in our live … reminding many things in my lives … good and bad … and evidently i already old yess ??? hahahhahahah … and having short time also to live … .

Him ??? he is my guilty pleasure in my waiting time … . Nice, so funny, smart … make me like a princess … and yes, he wants to hear me more than others … . Because, … sometimes we dont need any suggestion or something … sometimes we just need tobe listened … . One thing that i still remember at first we met maybe … he said ::  di balik semua kemandirian qm … qm itu ce manja ma orang yang qm sayang … dan qm type ce setia … aq bisa liat itu di mata qm. Hahahhaha … like a man yeess … 🙂 …

my conclusion is … we just live once … just enjoying one !!  indeed  !!!

and what happen in my world ??? apa yah ???  am afraid to die ,, not just like an old time … now … i … in sins … . Many bad things that i have done. i in my own crisis … went to mecca and get umroh not solving my problems anyway … . Maybe there is something wrong in my thought … in my mind set … . But one thing for sure !!! i alwayzh love You my dear Lord … indeed !! indeeed ,,,, . Let me be a human with all my sins … but still You are my Lord … no matter what … . Please forgive me for my all humanity … . Good and bad, side by side … this is the world …. !!!

hmmhh … some times i just thought … many things is not right in my life  … and its become my life stories …. . Sometimes its make me down … but, who care anyway yess ??? in the other side … am glad its me who through this one … maybe it wouldnt be the same with others … . So let it be … let it be my stories … for all already wrote down for me … .  Lalui .. nikmati … syukuri … 🙂

 

 

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