Dear God …
#istighfar# … How supposed i close to You ??? I tried many ways … And i felt fail … . Where are You God ??? . Yes … I can feel Your love … Your existency through this body through this nature … But where are You ??? . And i remember … You said :: while My servant asked bout Me … Said I close … That close more than your artery. But where are You ???In this phase … Where i can think anymore … I just think that all i need to do is felt being human … . Taste the sin … Taste the good … Taste the trouble taste the succeed … Taste it … Taste bein human. And i think … I already taste all of that … Now what next dear God ?? . My head my brain cant cover that thigzh, big things any more…
Dear God …
Actually i just want to share my dailes … . I … Cant figure out for what i heard by today also i seen … . And actually am scared … . We always pray for be protected from any bad things … But, why we are not praying for eliminated that bad things ??? . Because bad and good is always exist till the end … Isnt it ??? .One positive things that i cant resume … I always asked You … Why it can be like this God ??? Now, maybe i know the answer … You protecting me from somethings that i dont want to involving on … . Ummghhh … Still i dont understand for another one … .
Ahh … Curcolkuwh malam malam sebelum bobo … Kilas balik seharian … . Hmmhh … Sangat ingin sampai d atap java … Berenang d ranukumbolo … #smiling# … . Maybe its gonna be my last … But i know … I can make it … .
And whats next ???
Zzzhhhhh ….
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