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very very very dont know what happen to me ,, my mood really rolling coaster nged nged nged ngedddd ,,, very very bete to the max ,, aseli parah inih ,,, . Gw bener2 pengen meninggalkan kehidupan gw ,, bener2 pengen hal baru so bad ,, .

berapa doa gw panjatkan ,, berapa istighfar gw ucapkan ,, berapa musics gw dengarkan ,,, berapa ceramah gw dengarkan ,,, berapa pattern daily life gw jalanin ,,, still, can not makes me chill ,,, allahu akbar ,, . gw bener2 punya kehidupan yg baik ,, but ,,, i want more ,, i want some different ,,, ya allah ,, #istighfar ,,, . yg gw jaga till this time ,, adalah tetap terush di jalanNya ,, insya allah amiin ,,

gw ga bsa discuss for some topics that i interested to ,, cause my friends ,, ga sefrekwensi ajah ,,, and i dont hv any friend or community to discuss one also ,, . Should i find any community that as frekewensi with me as well ?? but gw so introvert ,,, xiiixixixi ,,, .

gw jg bener2 malezh “melihat” yg sehrusnya ga gw lihat ,, . Gw pengen melihat apa yg mang seharusnya gw lihat ,,, . #bingung kan pada an ,, wkkwkwkkkw ,, . literelih melihat yezh ,,, aka gitu lah ,,, . #istighfar lagiii ,,, .

what happen tumiiiiiii ???
gw xuman pengen semuwa brjalan “semestinya” ,,,
#mgkin ,, maksutnya ,, spt yg gw mw ,,,
#istighfar ,,,

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seandaynya ,,, tangan gw menulis, secepat otak gw mikir ,,

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jadiiiiiii ,,, kemarenan tuuhh ,, hafikuw sendirian di rumah kemvangan ,, dan seharian ,, . Seneng ajah ,,, ganti2 swasanah ,,, new xperience jugak ,, sepih ,, doing home works ,, am happy ,, . Mayan bikin fresh mind loh anyway ,,, .

pagi nya ,, gw lihat langit ,,, and i said to my self ,, :: today is sooo perfect ,,, . Terlalu sayang untuk di lalui dengan kekerasan dan kedisiplinan ,, . So i enjoy my wiken ,, wkkwkwkwk ,, alhamdulillah ,, . bangun2 di senen pagi ,, ituh beneran refresh loh ,, . Otak rasa abis “livuran” kemanaaa gituu ,, kwkwkkwkwk ,, . Pun akhirnya kudu menghadapi senen di sunter ,, eyaaaaaaaaa ,,, wkkwkwkwkkwk

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i said ,,, i can be anything that i wanna be ,, then ,, once its achieved then i will get slow down nor quick ,,, . I through many things in life ,, bad and good ,, and its feel same at the end ,, . Eh ga sama dink ,, !! ,, . Technically ,, it would be kind of same ??? but wat ketenangan ,,, memang jauh beda sik ,, . Tenang ituh di jalan aLLah swt ,, no matter what ,, . Di jalan 1 nya lagi ,, ya rush ajah ,,, . But we need to konw exactly the end is ,,, dont we ,, ???

Tudey ,,, i think ,, this life is not about trying matter of life ,, but ,, through life with good ,,, . Its almost same yezh ,,, ??? ,, . Gw pikir ,, idup itu bukan wat coba2 ,, tp coba2 gw with good sik, then pada akhirnya gw isi waktu dgn good juga kan ??? ,,, .

at this stage ,,,
still ,, konklusyen gw terhadap hidup adalah :: sabar !! ,, .
sabar dalam kebaikan ,,

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#gyukaku lagiii ,,
#kaMizh, 25.11.2021
#the girlzh ,,

dh lama ga makan gyukaku ,, ga makan rakuzh ,, aka so far makan seadanya ,, tapi terush gendazth gayzh !! kwkwkwkkwk ,, . Jadiiii ,, kemarenan rasa di perkosa duniyawik ,,, !! kwkwkwkwk aneh yh !!! ,,, . Tapiiii ,, makan gyukaku ituuhh ,, mang enak dan kl yg doyan daging2an ,, very2 untung loh ,, !! kekekekkekekek ,,

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mall hari gini tuh rame nged yezh ,, for sure lah yezh ,, after pandemit 1.5 taon men ,, !! kekekekkek ,, . Gw most of ke mall masih daily sik ,, wat wfm dan olga ,,, di wikdeyzh ,, jadi more sepih for sure ,,, . ituh ajah kl wfm aseli ngetem di strbx or coffeeshop or others lah ,, abis itu olga ,, abis itu pulang ,, ga maen2 di mall juga guwaaa ,, kekkekekekek ,,

nah ,, kl wiken ,, dh ga napsu ajah ke wiken wat eye shoping gitu ,,, kl gada plan specific ,, better d rumah ajah ,, wkkwkwkwkkw ,,, . Apaah yaahh ,,, ??? kozh kek gini ,, :: mw apa di mall ?? makanan ?? ada d rumah ?? makanan asin manis gurih ,, es krim roti kentang kupi ,, smuwa ada di rumah ,,, . trush ngapa beli d mall ?? kwkwkkwkwkwk ,,,,

alhamdulillah ya allah ,,,
alhamdulillah ,,,

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TGIF tudeeeyy ,,, rusuh nged idup guwaaa ,,, . ya emang bysaknya rusuh juga sik ,,, xixiixixix ,,,,

Mtg dari Jam 8 aM, kelar jam 10.30 ,,, lanjut lippo wat parkir mbem ,,, . Bis ituuu ,,, jalan kaki ke puri mall krna ada keperluwan ,,, . Sholat ,, terush jalan kakik lagi ke rspi ,,, mayan tuh dh dpt 2.5 km !!! kwkwkwkwk . Padahal mah terniyat wat IRIT jendral ,, aka biar ga mahal banyak bayar parkir !! kwkwkwkwk

ke RSPI wat priksain lutut gw ,,, . Kmren sik dh di rontgen, tp ga nemu issuenya ,, akhirnya kudu MRI ,,, . Maklumlah rspi gayzzhh ,,, gw mencri ajeee ,, kudu sitiseken ,, bujung buneng ,, !! kwkwkkwkw ,, . Duluw sik dh pernah MRI ,, tp lupak2 inged ,,, dan tw sik MRI ituh berisik nged ,, . Tadi mpe di kasih penyumbat kuping double ,,, .

Ternyata lamaa ,,, setengah jam lebih loh ,,, . And gw mpe ketiduran ,, !! wkkwkwkkw bayangpun ,,, !! gw bisa tidur di swasana spt ituh ,,, kekkekekekekkeke ,, . kelar MRI, langsung jalan lagi ke lippo, wat mtg mpe jam set.5 ,,, xiixixixixixiixixixi ,,,

moga hasilnya baik2 ,,
amiiinn ,,,

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Update hasil MRI ::
masih sprt yg lalu ,,, ligamennya masih robek ,, dan tulang rawannya aus dh grade 4 ,, aka yg trparah ,, . Jadiiiii ,,, kondisi dengkul kiri gw is “bonyok” ,,, . Teknikelih ,,, lutut bisa begini ,, karena kecelakaan or benturan keras ,,, . and when it was happened hafikuw ?? i dont know ,, wkkwkwkwkw ,, !!! …. .

yaaahh ,,, di jalanin sajah ,,, ga rasa susah juga hati sik ,, . Di kasih obat bla bla bla ,, yaaa ,,, so so laah ,, ekkekekekekkk ,,

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kadang klo liat orang2 makin ke sini ,,, ada yg mengidolakan orang2 gitu ,, misal kek BTS yg fanzh nya keknya dah seantero jagad raya ,,, or chit chat with friends blg orang ini begitu keren ,, begitu ini dan begitu itu ,,, . Dalam banyak hal pmbahasan ,, am not agree with them ,, kekekkekek ,,

even for ma self ,, when i saw others ,,, i do and bikam my default slalu br+ thinking ma orang2 ,, but wat meng-idolakan ??? no ,, i think ,, . apa yh ,, klo ada orang yg di say bagus by around gw ,,, gw mikir :: apa yg bisa di ambil + dari dy dalam mendekatkan diri gw ke aLLah swt ?? almost nothing ,, .

but ,,, ya sudah lah yezh ,, ga ngaruh juga apa yg gw pikir dan apa yg orang pikir ,,, ga nemu juga ,, xiixixixiix ,,

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on my journey ,, my life adventures ,, for last around 11 years ,, i know ,, i can be anything that what i want to be ,,, . I can be good ,, i can be bad ,,, . If i want it ,, then i make it ,,,

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lucky me ,, its normal desire for me as human being ,,, . Nothing that so xtreem ,,, . Yaaa ,, its good ,, its bad ,, and roll up over and over ,, . Well thats life anyway ,, isnt it ,, ???

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until ,, its run out the energy to make one ,, because i know ,, once i made it ,, then i quick or get slow down ,,, . Its just like law of satisfaction ,, .

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hhh ,,, alhamdulillah ,, for everything that aLLah swt gave to me ,, . Masya allah ,, !!! ,,, . alhamdulillah ,, . Thus, still am run this life ,, however ,, ? ..

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