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gw itu suseee makaaann … dan temen2 gw itu galakzh bener nyuruh gw makan … salah banyaknya ::

mpid :: enaknya ni anak gw konciin di ruangan yang full makanan !! ga boleh keluar sebelum abis tuh makanan d ruangan. — bujug daaahh  !!! kebayang gg si lu … gw keluar2 kek apaann ??? wakakkakakakakakkkkk —

 

lisa :: qt iket kaki tangannya … gotong sampe kantin … suruh makan !!! — lo kata gw kambing guling cuy !!! wakakakkakakakkk —

 

tika :: makan lu !!! gw jejelin piring2nya neeehhh !!! — laaahh ??? jejelin mah makannyaaaa !!!! masa piringnya ???? *tepok pantat cogan* wakkakakkakkkkk —

 

others :: ga perlu d ingetin makan kan ya ??? kan kalo laper pasti cari makanan sendiri kan ya ??? — jiaaahhhahahhah … dah kek hewaan aje gw, kalo laper pasti cari mangsah. Tapi tuLL banged !! gw suka gaya lo bro !!! wakkakakkakkkkk —

 

ahihihihihihihi … temen2 gw gahar2 yeeee …. luvyumuuaaaccchh …

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hidup d dunia ini … mu tua mu muda, mu kaya mu miskin, mu cakep mu jelek, mu muslim non muslim, mu di kota di pelosok … ujian akan datang bagaimanapun … dan qt akan mati pada akhirnya …

yang membedakan adalah bagaimana qt bisa tetap di jalan yang lurus … jalan yang diridhoi aLLah swt …

itu suatu kepastian … (hafikuw)

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my little boy … finally went to heaven … on Wednesday, 29 February 2012. after almost 2 weeks on icu … and after his father whisper to him … that all of us had ikhlas for him …, finally he went to heaven. aLL we (family and doctors) did … had gave the best as human … and aLLah gave the best for us. No more tears … no more pain … no more fear … masya aLLah.

So … he got some infection on his body … that already attack his lung, pancreas, liver and his digestion. DBD also attack him in that periode. Doctors had already give up coz they did gave maximum effort and medicine … but dede not getting cured anyway. Ya, he is strong as a kid … and finally aLLah call him back.

i can still remember his behaviour … very active … headstone … cute … . I’ve told him :: dede ko nakal si ??? sini tante cubit dulu … . eee dynya nurut … pasrah mendekatkan dirinya ke gw untuk d cubit sambil senyam senyum (ya tentu gw gg cubit beneran kaleeeeee). hhh … aLLah segalanya … 🙂 . He is already ‘safe’ of course … , now are we gonna ‘safe’ also ??? insya allah … aamiiinnnnnn ….

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btw eniwey basweeeeeeyyy … menurut ajaran islam, anak kecil yang meninggal terlebih dahulu … tentu akan masuk surga karena memang belum berdosa … dan kelak di hari akhirat … dy akan mencari ayah ibunya untuk masuk surga bareng.  Kelak d akhirat, di hari hisab, si dede … cari2 abi ma umi nya … sambil ajak masuk surga … Jadi mungkin kira2 ilustrasinya begini ::  abbbiiii … ummmiiiii …. manaaaa ??? ayyooo masssuukkkk bareng dedeeee … .

Yang jadi pertanyaan besarnya adalah :: APAKAH DY AKAN MENCARI TANTENYA yang sangat perlu d selamatkan ini ???? :: tanteeee tanteeee … ayo ikutan dede masuuukk …. ada umi ada abi ada kaka . xixixiixixxii 😛 … . Ngayal itu emang indah yah !!! 😛

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few times ago … i’ve some discussion with my friend … about … what based our decisions made, heart or brain ??? . I said loudly :: brain of course !!! … but they said :: heart … . And coincidence … on MTGW show, where as having same discussion told that our decisions based on our heart. jiaaaaahhh … am i wrong ????

Well … true or false, it become relative seeehh …. xiixxiixixi *ngeleshdotkom*. But it make me more thinking about that. Everyone who close enough with me … always told me that :: fiii … use ur heart … not alwayzh using ur brain.  and i think :: huwaaaattt ??!!!! live without brain ???  how come ???? it became big messy at all … ??? . Lohhh ?? am i right, isnt it  ???? xixiixixixi 😛

and more discussion … myfriend who have knowledge bout that told me … logicer – thinker – usually having tendency to materialistic. Because these people much more using their brain … so much more decision they have made based on loss and profit from financial/material side.  Yaaa .. surely … if we look from this side … a lot of people like this … and less or more, we are like this … dont we ??? jadi ya sah2 aja lah …

finally … in the middle of my daily life routine …  i relized that everything in this life is about my heart … and decision have already  made based on my heart also … . Although using my brain in many ways and much more things … but all of thats is about my heart … .

Yup … this is all about you … ur heart … . that something having big influence for whole ur life in this world … and the after life i think … .

Shahih Bukhari dan Muslim disebutkan bahwasanya Nabi saw bersabda :: “Ketahuilah sesungguhnya di dalam tubuh manusia ada    segumpal darah, apabila dia baik maka baiklah seluruh    tubuhnya, dan apabila dia rusak, maka rusaklah seluruh tubuhnya. Ketahuilah bahwa segumpal darah itu ialah hati  “

,,,  m . a . s . y . a     a . L . L . a h  ,,,

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what i have to wrote yaaakkkkk ???? gone but not gone … here but not here … hurt … but glad … everything is … reality … . and it will be grinded to the dust … like i said before …  so let it be … ya, let it be … . And what remains ?? … * ya the dust hafiiii … bijimana seeehhh.  U can keep … u can throw away … u can mixed it with others to become somethin … u can eat it also ??? jiahahahhahah…. *

hmmhh … after having gathering with my friend last malming … my problems were nothing at all comparing to others. In fact … its not a problem … just a litbit another attractive stories in my life … 🙂 . 

… an Earth still spinning arround … and i still dancing with the fate … how lovely … alhamdulillah …

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i was remembered …  since at elementary school … when i got a case … math case i think … i just knew the answer … but i have some difficulty to describe in details …  details make me crazy … . Time goes by … even i was practices in details at school and collage …  still have difficult to describe in details … hihihihi 😛 . But much from decision i made based on details … and much more  mistake from that !! jiahahhahahhahahah …

just like now … for what happening lately … i just knew … . Every single event spinning around in my head … and ‘klik’ … i just knew … . some times i follow this ‘klik’ … but much more am not … .  because it doesnt make sense … since i cant explain in details … . i just want to be realistic … .

they said … people like me as visual thinker… . Sometimes … i cant think more bigger than my capacity … . i cant imagine what a leader capacity to have … they should GB memory to think … and gave details to others … . and many peoples smart out there … they should to use that brain in kindness … . weelll … banyak yang harusnya terjadi di dunia ini tidak terjadi … and thats why this world came so fun !!! jiahahhahahhaha

anyway … its still quite fun !!  🙂

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i’ve just been thinking … last year at the same month (february) … i got some enlightement from aLLah … but maybe i just so fool at that momment …  and finally the stories goes for one year a head. 

One year later … right on february 2012 … the enlightement was shown again. And now … am smarter enough to handle my heart especially … to do the right things … to focus for the end of goal … .

… Now … just sit back … get popcorn to eat … and watch for the next sceen …

Karma will happend anyway … good karma and bad one … . May aLLah gave forgiven for all of us … amiiinn … . Be brave … always take refuge in aLLah protection … keep move on and smiling hafikuw … 🙂

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ya, gw da masalah dengan yang  namanya kematian … tapi mudah2an smua  mndewasakan … masya allah …

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sodara gw pernah blg :: kehilangan anak jauh lebih menyakitkan drpd kehilangan orang tua … .

Gw berfikir … gw, kehilangan emak 3 tahun lalu… itu rasa sakitnya seperti separuh jiwa lo d tarik paksa keluar… dipisahkan paksa … dan ampe skrg, sakitnya masih terasa … . How could it be the pain when we lost our child ???

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Duluw ada teman yg pernah brtanya ke gw :: jika saya mati … apa akan ramai yg melayat saya ?? Apa akan bnyk yg menangisi saya ??? .

Gw jawab :: ini bukan tentang ramai ato tidak yg melayat … ini tentang apakah qt akan selamat d akhirat kelak apa tidak… .

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Tahun lalu … ketika seorang teman ‘pergi’ … i feel so sad to death and feel guilty so much, hingga gw brtanya ke temen gw :: did i kill someone ???

Teman gw mnjawab :: apa hafi merasa lebih brkuasa dari Tuhan, hingga merasa berhak menentukan hidup mati seseorang ???

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Tahun ini … ketika teman gw kehilangan ibunya … and he feel guilty at all … dy brtanya ma gw :: did i kill my mom ???

Gw jawab :: ada hadis … ketika seseorang mu d ambil nyawanya … malaikat maut sudah ‘menandai’nya 40 hri sebelumnya … . Dan semua yg trjadi akhr2 ini adalah spontanitas. Terlihat sekali ini semua cerita Tuhan … jadi qt harus ikhlas ma cerita Tuhan …

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Dan hari ini … teman gw pergi … sad … but no tears drop (kecuali when i wrote a post bout ours in my blog with privatemodeON) … . aLLah segalanya … aLLah penentu every single substance in this world … . Jika DIA berkehendak hidup, maka hiduplah orang trsebut … jika DIA brkehendak mati … tak ada yg bisa menghalangiNYA.

Semoga yang d tinggalkan ikhlas dan sabar untuk semua cerita Tuhan … dan semoga alamarhum mndapat tempat terindah di sisiNYA … juga untuk qt semua kelak … amiinn ya aLLah …

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