MiLestoNe

#in this side#
Kenapa ya ?? Kenapa gw begitu tak beruntung ??? Apa yg tlah gw lakukan ?? Apa yg salah ?? Gw slalu brusaha stay at the right track … Ya satu dua tiga kali melenceng mah jamak sebagai manusia … Selama berusaha kembali ke track yg bener … But why am not that lucky ??? Apa karna satu hal ini ??? Seperti perseteruan siang tadi ??? Am not proud for their fear face … am not proud for being right … . Still, i stand in the right place … Is it wrong to standing there dear Lord ??? Where i have to standing right ??? Seginipun sudah hancur tercabik … Berdiri d posisi ituh ??? Merelease apa yg gw pikir bener hanya untuk menyenangkan orang lain ??? Menambah kondisi2 bodoh lainnya ??? … Please dear Lord …

#in other side#
” you know … You are so lucky … So many peoples gave more attention to you without you asking for … And in many ways you hurt them with your un-concern in this matter ” . I said ” my heart still could felt all of the concerns … Really i do … Ya, am not looking for pembenaran dan tidak pula bisa disamaratakan … Am sorry for all of this … ”

#red line#
Am i that lucky ?? Am i dear Lord ??? Am i ??? Still, i felt so special for everything came to me … . That special … makes me remind in that early morning … When the truth came to me … Where the truth broken all of me into pieces … I just get a hug and kiss from my mother’s friend without any special reason for her to did that,. She was in her way to go home after solat subuh at mosque … and i on my way to go to the office … . she has just gave me a hug and a kiss like its just all i need when my whole world destroyed … Its big thing big hug big love for me. You, were never leave me … Not a second … Right dear Lord ???

Hmhhh … Markibooo … Menyiapkan diri tuk semua kemuakan besok …

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This pict … My pict one is very beautiful … Zixiixix

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Pengen suka muzik ah … Dah lama banged ga denger muzik apa lagi ngikutin yaakk … Banter dengerin musik setiap hari jumat jam 4 pM … Backsound for 2S … Xixixixixiix … Tapi musik apa yg kudu d denger yak ??? Secara kl denger muzik pala gw jadi much more to think … Hmmhh … Pastiiiii ada jenis muzik yg sesuwai ma guwaaaaaaaa ….

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once my friend asked :: if yo have no tomorrow … what will yo do ???
i said :: nothing, what ever will be ya will be lahh …

but more i think over … if i dont have tomorrow ??? gw akan bersujud di kaki emak gw … minta ampun untuk semua dosa dan salah gw ke beliau … karena ridho Tuhan ada di telapak kaki emak … tapi emak gw dah duluwan meninggal … jadi gimana donk ??? . And sure, asking for sorry to people that i already hurt. Because, when we die … urusan manusia tetap terbawa sampai hari perhitungan. Urusan sama Tuhan, berhubung Tuhan sangat pengasih dan penyayang, kemungkinan besar dimaafkan … hehhheheheh 😀 aamiinn … 🙂 . Next ??? Make some wills … a half of my insurance needs delivery to orphans organization … and a half others goes to my sister … . The last ??? my health organs needs tobe donated ??? hehehhehehe … .

but still … whatever will be ya will be lah … 🙂

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why i often dreaming about people that already dead ??? … coba tanya kenapah ??? … . Ever heard [CMIIW], while we slept … our spirit in the God’s hand till we woke up, and the dead soul … in the God’s hand also, waiting for the hisab’s day … . Sooooo … maybe, and absolutly this is just maybe … jadi somehow, qt kek gathering gitu loohh … xixiixiixixi … .

hmmhh … last night … i have a dream … we were betandang to our relatives house … and we were served by my cousin that already dead. As i can remember … the last thing i dream bout this, the person who came with me … dead … . They said … dream is flower of sleep … . If there is happen to us regularly ??? yaaa … bunganya jadi banyak … dah kek taman … jadi taman tedooorrr … wekekkekekkekekk … .

well whatever will be ya will be lah … am i have any power to hold one ???

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” jangan tiru si ijah … “

hehehhehe … a little surprising heard that words … . Stubborn one … just like me at all … . Out of my mind … . And why so much things that out of my mind … jadi ini mind siapa yang salah yak ??? huweeeeewww … . dear … in my mind am so sure that you are agree with this mind … am not guilty … . You know for sure … you are the one were reasonable to blame on … you knew that … . My thought … my acts … its all affecting of your acts … . If this condition already understood for all of us … , so whats happen next is about egoism … . And am out from this game … . Mind your business and i will mind one also … . Deal dear ????

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kind of normal conversation at office area …

co :: pulang cyinntt … malam jumat … (malam jumat dalam tanda kutip)
ce :: #senyam senyum … # ah, suamikuwh lagi tugas luar kota …
co :: wadduuhhh … sayang sekali … mau di gantiin ga ???
ce :: # ketawa ketiwi ajah … #

ummghh … its quite common conversation that heard at office area … . But once again … its not sound good in my ears, Dont you think its humiliate the woman ??? . Sometimes i said to the men … ” come oonn … be polite pelase … ” . But in other side … the women enjoying this conversation … . So, once again why i have to bother about ??? . Lah wong yang menurut gw di rendahkan aja ga merasa direndahkan … why i have to bothering ??? hehhehehe 😀

an adult conversation between men and women in office area become common things … . And still, its sounds not good kok for me … . Am not saying am that pure or (sok alim or sok suci lah) … but its not appropriate … . Maybe, this is just maybe, because am not getting married yet … so its sounds bad … . But deaaarrr ???? an adult conversation become a joke between men and women ??? … hmmhh … maybe no need to think more … just another skip thought to be …. hehheheheh

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kenapaaaa … ada orang yang begitu beruntung yaaa … padahal mereka ” not that good ” … but they just lucky … seperti semesta berpihak pada mereka … . Ummhhhh … pastiiii … mereka sudah melakukan hal yang begitu baik … yang membuat semesta mendukung mereka …

 

dan kenapaaaa … am not just that lucky … seperi semesta tidak ingin aku ” untung ” … . Ummmhhh … pasti aku telah melakukan hal buruk yang membuwat semesta tidak mendukungkuwh ….

 

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