Eventually have to go anyway … Padahaaaalll i was have a beautiful dream about that … Well, somes happy somes sad … Prepare to packing soon … 🙂
Sunday, Jan 12 2014
long time no write … hehehhehehe … . Thay busy ??? ummghh … yes kind of … . But … maybe its more have no theme to write … 🙂 .
yes … a litbit busy for last few months … many over times for woking in office … . Try to catch people that already few steps ahead, with my low speed gegara sibuk bersiin sarang laba2 secaraaaa yeeee …. kelamaan otak kagag dipake mikir … hehheheheh … . And while they seen me have many times to spent out of working hour … they said … ” widiiyyghhh lembur teruuusshhh menjelang april … ” . Hahahahhahahah … untill they said that … its never ever cross in my mind … . hey … i just kind of perfectionist one … who wants the job can catch in my hand … understood all of that part in every detail of … . My brain needs that … . My brain not needs that “april” … . But my pocket needs money seeehh … wakakkakakkakakkakakkakkkk … .
And, there is a friend helping me to make some helping sheet using excel formula … without am asking for … alhamdulillah … . Actually … am a technical person also … but have no time to do that … . So, he helps me to made one … . Many thanks ya cyiinntt … 🙂
Thus … ariel metong loh cyinntt … . He ! who … has instructin to killed many palestine people in refuge … . He ! who already in ‘coma’ condition for more than 7 years … mati kagag idup kagag . Waaawww !!! … . I just cant imagine what will he faced then … after he died … . Well, i cant imagine also for mine seehh … huiikkzzhh … kek dah bener aja yak gw ngurusin dosa orang … huwaaaaaa …
in 32 my age … still in vikisisasih … i see my dreams stories through others … . Some makes me sad … some makes me happy … . My heart for all of you dear friends … may happiness upon as … now and forever … for every God stories will come … 🙂
Hmmhh … really need a place … to live … to smile … tobe happy …
Tonight …
Ya aLLah … Tiada lagi yg kami inginkan malam ini selain ampunanMu … Kebahagiaan orang2 tua kami yg telah dahulu pulang … Juga keturunan yg sholeh dan sholehah penerus kehidupan d bumi ini … Kabulkanlah doa2 kami duhai Zat yg maha pengasih lagi maha penyayang … Aamiinn …
berad …
M :: sometimes gw berfikir apa yang berat dan makin berat dalam hidup gw … hingga gw begitu lelah menanggungnya ??
F :: jodoh ???
M :: bukan … orang pada bilang ke gw berad masalah jodo … tapi tottaly gw ga merasa berad being single … asal gw happy …
M :: entahlah … ga ngerti #masih belum bisa sharing ke orang#
F :: qt senasib tapi beda angkatan …
M :: jiahhahahhaha wakakkakakkakak
hmmmhh …
tiap manusia harusnya mengerti … gw harusnya mengerti dan menyadari … tidak ada yang abadi … bahwa qt berasal dari Tuhan dan akan kembali pada Tuhan untuk mempertanggungjawabkan semuanya … semua atas kehendakNya dan seizinNya … memuliakan, mengagungkan namaNya …
tersisa …
dan mereka kembali pada tujuan awalnya setelah menghancurkan yang lain … kini yang tertinggal adalah … puing2 kehancuran yang besar … they do care ??? no of course … no one can safe you except yourself … definitely … so, if you can not safe your self … then who can ??? just waiting the end …
perfectionist …
dan saya kembali menyadari … bahwa saya seorang perfectionist … ketika mereka tetap menghormati pemikiran dan keputusan saya … tanpa ada penghakiman apapun … kami melangkah dalam kedewasaan …
Saturday, Dec 28, 2013
This morning … while i got nyabu … in my clean mind and heart … seeing all those sorrows … that cant be share with anyone … in the end of my mind … i just say to my self …
nothing will be forever … and nothings will not paid … all of this will ended … and will be paid with happiness somehow … because i know how my heart going through all of this … alhamdulillah …
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akhir2 ini … gw lagi doyan nonton acara rachel zoe something di universal channel kalo ga salah egh bukan dink … entah di chanel apah … . So its about daily life of her … who has profession as stylist of famous people in usa sonoh … . So she is arrange stylist for aston kutcher ana gateway something and marie claire team channel and so on … . Also … i just following some news about DJ something… in news they reported so cool as DJ … because they can guide many people all night long with great music … .
Xixixiixxi … i quite amaze with those package … stylish profession and DJ … . xixiixixix … out of my mind … hehehhehehe. Ya ya ya … anggaplah gw dusuuunnn … lah wong ga pernah liad yg seperti ituuuhhh … xiixixi … sejalan karena gw orangnya ga fashionable and dont really like music joga … hehehheheh … . I just thinking … how hedon that world … hehhehehe … am sorry i have to use that word … . It just … why people spent lot of time of they life … for something like being crazy at night and seeing glamour at dailies ???? in what based they do that ??? hehheehhe … am sorry again … i dont understand those things … . Maybe … due am seeing this show intensly … maybe i will like one ??? hahahahhahahhahaha ….
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hiiiyyghhh … since thursday … my neck kecengklak … salah gaya iygh !!! egh, salah bantal orang duluw bilang mah … . Friday night i went to tukang urut at joglo … . She use kind of gold stone … people said it called telor naga … xixixiixi … keknya itu batu seperti menarik/katalist/mentralisir sesuatu … . Sakit guwa ??? mayan ilang … tapi ga ilang semuanya … huikzhhh … . Dan pagi ini bangun still with my kecengklak neck … ahuhuuhhu … what should i do with all of this ??? . Rasanya tuh kek gw lagiiiiiiii manggul beras 50 kilo di pundak … kek orang2 di pasar gituuhh … huikzzhhh … beraaaattttt …. heellpp …..
my got …
maybe i should try to trust my got … hahhahhahaha . Because many times its become true … xixiixixix . I just dont want to believe that becaauuseeee …
first – its not make my sense of course … . But if we want to think more … about view few steps ahead its all about combination of many points that create some image/view …, dont you think like that ???? .
Second – i dont want to su’uzon to peoples … . But, once again, if you want to think more … they will do one … just so less people will do with heart … one from many . If you want to hus nuzhon … just make one to God … trust me for this one … xiixixixix .
Third – Its … i … i think its not right to trust any got … because … hanya nabi Muhammad yang bisa melihat ke depan … . Lainnya ??? hanyalah berita dari jin yang mencuri kabar dari langit … dan di bocorkan kepada manusia … bisa jadi benar bisa jadi salah … but its not the point … the point is we are not allowed to trust any kind of jin … dont we ???? . But, if we are not allowed to trust any kind of jin … so why we have a got ??? hahhahhahahahha …
sooooo … what will i do now ??? believe one ??? or not believe ???? xixiixxixi 😛
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and i just wondering … in one vision about sakratul maut … why i have to seen that ??? is it remind me to through that with my awareness ??? in what kind of way ???? hmmmhh … ???
