24 Desember 2013
By hafi
In uMuM
Hmmhh … hehehhee … for the uncounting times … i said … am tired … with all of this. Life become more harder … . Ummghh … i dont know … maybe its not … but seems have no time for rest … poor my heart … 🙂
Its not finish in my mind about pengadu domba persons … thus come story about magic something … thus ??? about … hhh … what i have to say about this … just already shared one with my sister. So many bad stories about all of this … that it cant be handled with my head … .
The point is … i just be betrayed with i believe in … no matter who did it to me … . This is about what i believe in and its distruct …
Unfinished story about pengadu domba person … i dont know why they did that … . Everyone had their own purpose isnt it ??? . Next stories … My friend ever said … when they got trouble in life … they went to orang alim … to see what human cant see … . Is it right ??? . Is it musrik ??? i dont know for sure … because that orang alim, using Quran for all of that amalan … . Heee ?? I dont know lah … . Maybe … when i got down … there are no people advice me to come to orang alim something … so i have no reference at all about this … hehehehe … #joke an yang garing#
And am tired … and i dont know why i felt so tired … . Maybe … i act like orang yg sok suci … yang sok menjaga semuanya dalam kondisi baik … . Mungkin seharusnya tidak begitu ??? mungkin seharusnya mencicipi menjadi pengadu domba … mungkin mencicipi sesuatu yang berbau magic … mungkin sebaiknya menyakiti seseorang … . Ataw pada dasarnya gw sudah seperti itu tanpa gw sadari dan gw menjadi sok alim ???? 🙁 . Gw pernah menjadi buruk … sometimes i want to cut my vein when i remembered those dark times … Masya allah … .
Just need tobe focus … and so hard to do one … . Plus … an office life that i have to through on 8 hours a day … Keknya kerja energinya bokan mikir wat kerja tapi wat nahan amarah … masya aLLah … . I said to my sister … ” tit, kalo gw ga kerja lagi … gw masih bole minta makan di sini kan … gw kerja ko nanti di rumah, bersih2 ngepel nerika … xixixiixixi …. ” … and my sister just said … ” capek lo ya … kudu kawen segera … ” halllahhh … hahhahahhahah
… aLLah … am so tired … tired … belumlah lepas dengan orang yg menurut hafi jahat … harus pula berhadapan dengan magic … hambaMu ini bukan orang alim yang ibadahnya bisa menahan semua bentuk magic … Udah bagus sholat bisa lengkep ya aLLah … hikzhh … siapalah hafi ya aLLah … Duhai Zat yang maha Agung … mohon bimbinglah kami dalam jalanMu yang lurus … Lindungilah kami ya aLLah yang maha baik dari semua niat buruk dan keburukan … ampuuunn ya aLLah … amppuunnn … astaghfirullahaladziimmm ...
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22 Desember 2013
By hafi
In harikuw
aM,
This murnin … i heard my mom calling me from the down stair … . So clearly … that voice called me … . hehehehheheh … its make me woke up . Hmmhh … and realize everything in seconds … .
Today … starting the another theme heavy day till one week ahead … . We are just tryin tobe a good human … ( i wish i can laugh togather with my mom in this condition ) and i think … we will do if she be here … hahhahahhaha … … …. and i know what advice will come … xiixixixixi .
anyok nyareeeppp … dah ituuuu … siyap siyaapp … (kalo jadiii .. ujan cyinntt )
pM,
something wrong with my head … . But i think its not wrong … but good … hahahhahhaha … . And these peoples … hmmhh … whatever you say lah … sebutlah diri kalian baik diri kaliyan alim diri kaliyan suci … toh saiyagh tak berhak juga menjudge siapa pun buruk … xixixiixixi … . Till meet all of you there dears … ……. .. … .
Aahhh … sudahlah … lagi2 terusik ma polah orang2 inih … stay focus hafiiii … biarlah mereka menjadi mereka … apa pun bentuknya … jika tidak mampu merubah, selamatkanlah dirimuw dolow … . Would you please … ??? .. . Biarlah dunia menganggapmuw aneehh … just stay focus … 🙂
soooo … whats next ???
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21 Desember 2013
By hafi
In uMuM
cerita hari ini …. …
ummi :: kak … nanti kl umi lahiran kaka mau di joglo apa di sini ama tante ??
kaka :: kalo maen bole ke joglo … tapi kalo tinggal, di sini aja ama tante …
ummi :: tapi tante kerja … pegi pagi trush pulangnya malem … nanti kaka gmna ???
kaka :: ummhh … ga papa … mo di sini aja ama tante …
aw aw aw … co cwiiiitt … my heart melted … xixiixixix … . Dan nemu poto kayla pas masih keciiilll … … xixixixi luthu naaa . Moga jadi anak yang baik ya ka … tidak hanya cantik fisik … insya allah juga cantik hati … moga kelak bermanfaat bagi keluarga dan masyarakat … hidup berkah dunia dan akhirat … aamiinn … 🙂
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21 Desember 2013
By hafi
In uMuM
hmmhhhh … utak atik netbukzh nemu poto enih malem2 … jadi teringad dikerjain orang saat ituuhh … and they still said they were good … hehehheeh … Tuhan punya cerita !! … 🙂
And kaka asked :: tante kok fotonya begitu ???
I said :: iya, tante lagi sedih …
Kaka :: tante sedih kenapa ???
Me :: … … … …
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21 Desember 2013
By hafi
In uMuM
hmmhh … bis buka table2 cicilan … wakakkakkaka … susah dah kl da kebutuhan mendadak geneh … and no cash as usual … . 1 point yang gw pelajari adalah :: mending minjem ke bank dari pada ke orang yang ga jelas kredibilitas (hatinya). 2 point adalah :: jangan samppeee ter-ngutang wat makan … susah bayarnya cozh jadi darah jadi daging … xixixixixi …
ahh … rejeki mah dah ada yang ngatuuurrr … #edisi menghibur diri mode ON# .. lanjut liad2 table cicilan … 😛 sambil nyiapin sajen biar dapet arisan !! wakakkakakkakakkka
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21 Desember 2013
By hafi
In harikuw
heewwhhh … what a headache tonight … . Hows my day ??? just slept all day … bengong … cant go anywhere joga … empty … haiizzhh … .
feel so bt by today … . but this feel not disturb me at all joga seeehhh … just … ummghh … missed all peoples that already passed away … . They are already happy in there … . Me ?? even death came to me … there is no guarantee that i will come back in good … . Just pray and pray and all of those prays become my hope … .
Di thinking thinking … i quite passion loh facing this life … my life … my stories … xixiixixi … thanks God am not going crazy for all of that … ( or already ???? jiahhahahah ) … . Out there … they said many good things … they said they good … but what they did ??? hurt them self and others ?? … . So tired sometimes with all of this … .
But you know what … am so thankful that am facing with all of these peoples … . It makes me relize do not like them … . Nah … it means … people will see me also in the that perspective … seeing my bad side and relize not tobe like that … . Hopefuly it can erase my sins ??? hehehhehehe …. #edisi mikir lagi ucink#
Lapppppeerrr … but all my relatives that who met me said … am fat !!! ahuhuuhuhuhuhuhuhu … . But not make me stop eating joga sehhh … wakakkakakkakkk
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15 Desember 2013
By hafi
In uMuM
there is one thing in my life … that totally i dont understand in my logical thinking … yes, am give up thinking bout that … even i cant figure out in good … usually … my brain can thing in few perspective … but not for this one … gelep !!! seperti sesuatu yang tak bermula dan tak berujung akhir … just bum !!! its inside of me … and can not get it rid of also … So … that i can do is … bring it on with me … till its gone … as i dont know when and how it comes … Nothing Change …
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15 Desember 2013
By hafi
In uMuM
Of course, Tuhan memberikan mencukupi kebutuhan gw yang lain … dengan begitu berlimpah … alhamdulillah …
Sometimes gw berfikir … kenapa Tuhan tidak mengabulkan doa2 guwe … bahkan malah diberi kebalikannya. Dilain pihak, dari sepenglihatan gw, Tuhan mengabulkan banyak doa pada hamba2Nya dengan mudahnya, baik yang menurut gw itu orang alim ataupun yang bejad sekalipun. Jadi mungkin tidak ada variable khusus untuk dikabulkan doa qt.
Apa ada salah dalam diri gw ??? hingga Tuhan seperti tidak mau menjawab doa2 gw ??? men-distruct pikir dan prinsip gw ??? Jikalaw Tuhan suka hambaNya, tentu Dia akan mengabulkan doa2nya bukan ??? menjadikannya hidup ini mudah bagi hambaNya ???. .
Jadiiii … ini semua tentang misteri illahi … bukan begitu ????
Tapiiiiii … Tuhan juga tidak menjadikannya mudah buat nabi Muhammad SAW, hidup nabi qt itu penuh dengan susah bukan ??? dari kecil hingga akhir hayatnya ??? (ya iyya laaahh … bawahin ummat akhir jaman)
Bahkaaaannn … ketika nabi berdoa sangat pada Tuhan untuk menyelamatkan pamannya yang bukan muslim di akhirat kelak, tidak dikabulkan aLLah. aLLah hanya meringankan hukumannya di neraka … . Its must be soo hurt for him … isnt it ??? Tapi bukan berarti nabi ngambek ma aLLah … . Tetap sadar posisi dan focus ma tujuan … itu yang dilakukan nabi Muhammad SAW …
Hmmhh … till meet you there …
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15 Desember 2013
By hafi
In uMuM
Result of this year MCU ??? great !!! Just one star that not important to discuss one … related to eosonofil something …hehehhehe . Everything under control … Colesterol Glucose asam urat and so on … . Gaster disorder ?? not much grievance for now … . Alhamdulillah sehat yak … .
Di pikir2 … gw hinihh … infrastrukturnya yang sedikit missed … others ??? quite well … . Infrastucture means … my bone have a little bit scoliosis … and my heart have a little bit trouble … . Others ???? am quite well healthty … .
I just thinking more … what i have to do with this healthy body ?? hummhh ???? donor is one of most … hehehhehe 😀
— —- —- — —– —– — — – — – — Funny conversation …
#pagi2 jam 7an, di saat gw antara ada dan tiada gegara capek dan kurang bok setelah delay flight semalem#
ncang husni :: jah, bintang gw sembilan …
gw :: #berusaha mengerti ini tentang apa, untungnya cepet mudeng lagi ngomongin hasil MCU#
gw :: waduuuuuhhh … susah tuh ncanng kalo mo saran rubah pola hidup sehat … jadi sarannya banyakin ibadah ajah dah ncang …
wakakkakakkakakakkakakkakakkkk
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