am odd ,,

27 Februari 2016 By 0 In uMuM

ahahhaha ,,, am odd ,,, dont you think like that ??? xixiixixi ,,,

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i just have few clothes ,,, since old time ,,, . ahhahahah ,,,  i just dont know why, we have to spent our times to think about beautify our looking with clothes ,,, hehehheh am odd yezhh ,,, ??? xiixixi . So ,,, finally ,,, i just have few clothes in my wardrobe ,,, for 5-6 dayzh usage ,,, recuring ,,, xixiixixix . When my financial condition getting better ,,, i bought 1-2 more ,,, just as my needs ,,, ahhahahahah ,,, . More odd ,, all my clothes is i like to wear ,,, . When its defective ,,, i will bought the same one ,, #gubrakzh ,,,,, waakakkakakakka ,,, . Am not saying that fashion is ugly ,, no its not ,,, . Its beautiful ,,, for sure ,,, . But ,,, i think ,, i will not spent my time in that part ,, heheheheh ,,, aman lah yezh ,,,

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I dont like music ,,, . When more half peoples in this planet adore music ,,, basicly, i dont like music. Maybe its related to my migrain’s triger ,,, . But when i like music, its more because i like the lyric ,,, . Thus ,,, when i like one ,,, i will listening all the times ,, just that one ,,, over and over till i get sick ,,, wkkwkwkwkkw ,,, am odd yezh ,,, . But ,,, i like listening to the music when i get stressed ,,, . I need something more noise in my head to reduce my stressed ,,, . My friend said ,, i like music when i get fall in love ,, hahahhaha ,,, . Its not true ,,, . When i close with someone ,,, they gave me a music ,,, so i listening one ,,, #gw kan respect people ,,, wkakkakakka ,,, fair enough yezh ,,, xixiixixi ,,,

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eat ,,, . i dont like to eat ,,, . Maybe i already get gastritis since long time ago ,,, so eat activity is something that not like most ,,, begitulah ,,, . Even i dont know what the meaning of delicious is ,,, wkwkkwkw … . Makanan yang gw makan ,,, enak sih enak ,,,, terush ?? kalo dah kenyang juga akan menyakiti perut gw ,,, . My friend said ,, delicious is when you full enough you still want to eat one ,,, . Its mean ,, sambel terasi buwatan kaka guwa !! ahahhaha ,,, . When i got home ,, and found that sambel terasi ,,, i will eat one ,,, even i have gastritis even just eat with kerupuk ,,, ahahhahah ,,, . ever i get fat ,,, its because of pergaulan ,,, ahhahah ,,, .

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i cant speak up ,,, hehehhe … . Maybe its also related to my autisme ,,, #am sorry #nomention ,,, . Even i dont like to speak much ,,, heheheheh ,,, . In my though ,, why we are not just work with emails ,, no need to call and say wasting words ,,, heheheh am odd yezhh ,,, . BUT !!! i learning people ,,, they do thaatt ,,, speak all the timeee ,,, laughing togather ,,, having fun !!! ,,, so i do the same ,,, . But never can be like them ,,, hehehheh . Sometimes ,,, i feel ,,, my brain so misery when i have to bear up ,, with them who talk too much ,,, . When someone calls me that long without nothing that so important ,,, i just so suffer ,,, at the end of my brain ,,, i just want to hang up the phone ,,, . What i do when its happen ,, i just get my own imagination ,,, and its be in effect while my bozh talk too much ,, wakakkakakak ,,, i just cant stand up with it ,,, and i lost with my own thinking ,,, ahahhahhaha ,,,, kocak dah ,,, . But, i know that people need to release many words in their daily life ,,, . So maybe people release in lisan/oral ,, i release in words ,,, 🙂

 

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above are i dont like lists ,,, so what i like most ?? and what you look your self ??? i like to see nature ,,, its fill up something in me ,,, . i like to think about universe ,,, about God ,,, about entire of life ,,, why am here/life ,,, where i will be end ,,, is God real exist ,,, in what way we can believe about God ,,, ,,,, ,,,, and i thinking most about human behaviour ,,, I learn them ,,, . Am odd again yezh ???? xixixiix ,,, . ,,,, , , ,, , ,,  , i just think loh ,,, not doing ,,, wakkakakakkakakkk .

 

how i look my self ???  #in bahasa ,,, gw melihat diri gw sebagai wadah ,,, . dari sebelum gw ,,, Kebaikan dan keburukan masuk dalam diri ini ,, dan akan keluar anyway ,, karena hidup ini mengalir ,, seperti sebuah energi ,,, . Tidak ada yang permanent selama hidup di dunia ini ,,, tapi mungkin qt punya batasan masing2 ,,, . have you ever thinking next ,,, ketika ,, setelah kita mati ,,, dan qt sudah pada timingnya selesay  menghabiskan di surga ataw pun neraka ,,, it will took billion yearzh ,,, . laluh apah ??? . Apakah Tuhan akan meng cut of soul inih ? so we are just disappear ??? tidak berbekas ?? ataw qt akan hidup terush berlanjut ,,, . Can you imagine that ,,, jika itu terush berlanjut ,,, qt seperti hidup abadi ,,, . We are already exist ,,, . who knows yezh ,,, . Gw pernah nanya ke guru ngaji gw tentang itu ,,, decade yearzh ago ,,, . Dy bilang ,,, hanya Tuhan yang tahu  ,,, . Iyezh of course ,,, 🙂

So when one of my friend said ,,, that am strong woman ,,, i just thinking ,, it already set up by the Creator ,,, its not my energy tobe strong ,,, not at all ,,, and its not be permanent ,, .

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And truly ,, ,i just wondering to them ,, who said know me well ,, . In what way they know me well ??? hehehhe ,,, . Its need naked soul to meet my soul ,,,  😉

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Hmmhh ,, ya so so lah yezh ,,, enjoying one ,,, . Mudah2an Tuhan ridho atas qt ,,, . Pun pada intinya ,,, adalah believing qt ke Tuhan ,,, . Dan you know what ,,, gw akan dimintain pertanggungjawaban akan semua pemikiran gw kelak ,, hehehhehe #istighfar ,,,

 

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#edisi pension jadi artizh ,,,

27 Februari 2016 By 0 In uMuM

 

Gw ga butuh orang percaya ma gw ,,
Gw ga butuh confirmed kehdpn gw ke orang2 ,,,
Gw butuh me-reduce orang2 dan hal hal ga penting dalam idup guwa ,,
Terdengar sadizh ??
Gw cuman pengen idup simpLy ,,

Itu resolusi gw tahun2016,,,
Jika ada yg keberatan ,,, its become your issue not mine ,,
Hehehhehe
Pizh and love ,,,

#edisi pension jadi artizh ,,,

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Mizh ,,

24 Februari 2016 By 0 In uMuM

 

 ,, mizh You my Lord ,,, #mungkin karna sudah terlalu lama dan terlalu jauh dari Mu ,,,

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Berserah diri ,,,

22 Februari 2016 By 0 In uMuM

As generaly ,,, in my view ,,, we have the same thing ,,, berserah diri pada Tuhan ,,, which is i think its the critical thing as a servant of the Lord ,,, 

I wish ,,, this is the good way ,,, to reuniting in akhirat with good condition ,,, amiinn ,,,

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Its ,, a heart ,,

22 Februari 2016 By 0 In uMuM

Once ,,, my friend asked ,,,

What is the most important in you ?? 

And i said :: my brain ,,, then my eye ,,,

But now i realize that the most important in us is ,,, our heart ,,,

And the fact is ,, its already told by the prophet Muhammad SaW ,,, 

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i choose to be ,,,,

20 Februari 2016 By 0 In uMuM

nyetarbak ni ariii ,,, ngupi setelah semingguan ga ngupi cantik gegara magh kupret ,,, !! wkwkkwkwkkw ,,, . But you know what ,,, masa inet starbaknya rusaaakkkk ,,, ya eallaahh ,,, not that lucky yezh by tudeyzh ,,,, xixiixixixixi ,,,,

jarang ke setarbak siang2 gini ,,, dan ternyata ,,, begitu ramaayyy yezzhhh ,,, . heheheh karena gw former autis ,,, so its litbit something for me ,,, xixiixixixi ,, . And I see so many peoples here ,,, i just said to my self ,,, i choose to be good one ,,, hehehheheh ,,, because its simply way to live ,,, 🙂 . well,,, i will not be that good also ko ,,, its never be good enough ,,, wkwkkwkwkkw ,,, semua orang dah ada takarannya ,, ahahhahahhahah ,,, .

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allahu akbar ,,, how blessed my life is ,,, alhamdulillah ,,, #pun belon kaweeenn kaweennn ,, xiixixixixi ,,, . Btw, sebulan dua bulan terakhir ini gw sering naek embem ngantor ,,, aannddd its make me bokek yeezhh ,,, ahuhuuhuhuuhhu ,,, . Why ?? bukan masalah bengsin nyeeee ,,, tapi toll fee nyeeee ,,, /hari ampe 24 rb !!! buceedddd !!!! ,,, . Liwat toll, bikozh gw menghindari macet di area tomong ,,, jahanam banged tuh maced di situ ,, amid2 dah !!! ,,, . Nah kalo liwat tol ,,, sejam dah nyampe rumah ,,, ga pake ngebut (arround 80km/jam) ,,, jalanan muluzh ga silaturahmi ma motor ,,, enak kan yah ,,, wkkwkwkwkwk ,,, .

Tapiiii ,,, Setelah mendapat masukan dari nipiria sany esteh yang dah sangat sering gw bully ,,,, akhirnya gw memutuskan untuk :: berdamay dengan macetnya tomang ,,, . And all i need to starting that plan is ,,, buying murotal CD !!! wakakakkakakka ,,, . Aman lah yezh ,,, bizh ini gw ke gramed wat beli tuh cd ,,, xixiixixixixi ,,, . Hmmhh ,, you seee ??? life as simply is that ,,, yang kalo di baca asal ,, layf es simple is ded ,,, yang di bahasakan ke bahasa indonesia ,,, hidup itu semudah mati ,, xixixiixi ,,, #gw ngomong apa sih ???xiixiixiix ,,,

dah ah ,,, gw mo ke gramed ,, mo beli CD ,, lagian hape gw dah lobat gegara di bikin personal hotspot ke netbuk wat nyambung inet ,,, xiixixixixi

bhaayy ,,,, mwaacchh ,,,,

 

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rawat inap ,,,,

15 Februari 2016 By 0 In uMuM

kalo masuk ugd mah dah beberapa x ,,, tapiii kalo rawat inaappp keknya baru x ini dah ,,, xixixiixixi ,,,

image(4)kemaren tuhh malem masuk ugd dengan keluhan ,,, atit lambung ,,, . Uceeddd dahhhh ,,,, abis itu gw di tusuk sana sini ,,, setrezh dah ah ,,, . Ampe kuping di tusuk segala,,, bilangnya :: mo lihat timing pembekuan darah ,,, . Ya elllaahh ,,, ga sekaliyan di tindik ajah apa guwah ,,, terush pake in anting ,,, aman dah ,,, wkwkwkwkkwkw ,,, .

Dari hasil lab semuanya normal ,,, aman ,,, kecuali HB nya yang 11,3 . Akhirnya ,,, senen, 15.02.16 di endoskopih dah ,,, . This is my second time ,,, and its common ,,, hehehhehe ,,, . And i said for many times ,,, biyuzh itu menyenangkan ,,, ahhahahah ,,, . Sepertinya bisa menurunkan aktivitas otak gw yang dah low end juga seh ,,, wkkwkwkwkkw ,,, .

Dan seperti yang pernah gw bilang ,,, badan ini OKs bingid ,,, . Hasilnya ,,, gastritis antrum ,,, . Dokternya bilang ,,, ini common ,,, tidak bahaya ,,, bysanya karena bakteri ,,, tapi tetap menunggu hasil biopsi ,,, . Duluuuu waktu endoskopih pertama ,,, ada luka tapi ga ada bakteri ,,, . Endoskopih ke dua ,,, ga luka cuman radang ,,, tapi ada bakterinya ,,, . Lah iki piyee ,,, . Dan dokternya bilang OK ,,, nothing so serious ,,, . Heee ?? how come its OK yh ,, di saat gw dah ga bisa makan normal ,,, berat badan gw turun ,,, HB gw rendah dan gw kesakitan tiap hari ??? . Atooo mungkin itu semua cuman sugesti guwa yh ???? padahal gw adalah orang yang sangat easy going ,,, . Ataw mungkin ada hal lain yezh ??? I dont know ,, ,,

And i decided ,,, dont care ,,, . The doctor said ,,, am OK ,, so am OK ,,, . I become more confidence to do many activities ,,,  🙂  ,,, . Idup gw udah susah ,,, #pun gw ga ngerti di mana susah nya ,,,, Sooo, jangan di bikin lebih susah ,, wkkwkwkwk ,,, .

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and pppsstt,,, gw berhasil meyakinkan dokternya untuk memberikan gw resep obat tedor ,,, wkwkkwkwkw . Dokternya blg :: tapi jangan di minum sekaligus semua yah ,,, . wwkkwkwkkwkw ,,, yah saya inged2 deh dok ,,, wkkwkwkkw

 

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Ikiiii ,,, yg aneh guwa pa dokternya yezh ,,, . Keknya gw sih ,,, xixixiixix . Dah PD minta pulang cepet,, minta surat sakit sehari ini ajah ,,, dan somehow skrg gw dah 6L lageh ,, ah syeemm !!!

Tadi tuh spt bysa nyampe rumah langsung beberesh ,,, tetiba magh gw sakit lagi mpe keringet dingin dan rasa mo pingsan ,,, . Teriba juga gw sadar wat num obat ,,, wkkwkwkwkwkwkkw ,,, . Dan skrg msh lemezh ,,, . Mgkin tadi tuh kuat an efek dr 2 bottle inpuzh ,,, wkwkwkkwkwkwk

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Maagghhh ,,,,

14 Februari 2016 By 0 In uMuM

Maaghh kuwwhh ,,, soul matekuwh ,,, till death do us apart yezh ,,, heheheheh … .

Jumat pagi kemareann tuuhh ,,, breakfast di hutelzh ,,, gw num orange juzh ,,, . Weeewww ,,, acem !!! enak !! hehheheheheh ,,, . Nambah lah segelas lagi ,,, jadi lah 2 gelas num acem2 jus jeyuk di pagi hari ,,, xixiixixi ,,, . GPL alias ga pake lama ,,, menderita lah gw di perjalanan dari surabaya ke mjk ,,, . Pas Mtg di Mjk ??? makin parah ,,, pun udah num promagh dan kopi ,,, #LOH ??!!^%@^%@ ,,, . Alhasil ,,, rentek lah ni badan ,,, . Num er gula mpe 3 gelas di factory ,,, . Tiba di Jkt malamnya ,,, rasa dah ga mampu berdiri nunggu taksi ,, jadi ngemper ajah tuh di lante ,, mpe antrian teksong nya sepiygh ,,, . Nyampe rumah langsung istirahat ,,, . Bangun2 besoknya ,,, badan gw rasa abis di tabrak kontener ,,, lemezh letih lunglay lesu linglung ,,, #heee ??? ,,, . hehehhehehe ,,, . Dan sabtu gw hanya berbaring di rumah seharian ,,, xixiixixii 😀 ,,, .

Sodara dateng ,, kebetulan ada perlu ,,, terush bilang :: “tumben lu jah di rumah wiken2 ,, ” ,,, . Wakakkakakkakakk ,,, . Dan doi blg ,,, gw kurus banged ,,, . wkwkkwkwkwk ,,, iya yak ,,, turun 5-6 kilo ,,, gegara maagh terkutuk inih ,,, ya pastinya keliatan kuyuzh ,,, xixiixixixi . Tapi,,, gw tuh defaultnya kuyuzh kookk ,, kenapa mereka harus kaget yh ma kurus gw yang sekarang ??? xixixiixixi

Abis magribb ,,, gw jalan ke rs ,,, mo berobat juga akhirnya ,,, . Buceeddd ,,, dokternya banyak pasien x yak ,,, lama beeuutt ,,, . Nunggu mpe 2,5 jam ,,, . And you know what akhirannya  ???? gw di suruh pulang,,, tanpa obat ,,, meringis kesakitan ,,,, wkwkkwkwk ,,, . Muke gw muka ga mampu bayar apah yak ???? #dan emang ga bayar sih ,,, huwakakkakkakakakkakk ,,,, . #Di suruh balik lagi besok ,,,

Kalo ga salah tuuh ,,, tahuuunnn 2011 or 2012 yezh ,,, gw dah pernah endoskopih ,,, semacam usg lambung getoohh ,,, . Jadi di masukin kamera via kerongkongan ,,, wat ngeker lambung ,,, gw nya di bius total ,,, #ye ea laaahhhh ,,, . Saat itu siihh ,,, mang beberapa spot luka di lambung ,,, tapi ya sudahlah yah ,,, . So so lah yezhh ,,, xixiixii ,,, .

But gw emang ilfil abis ma ni penyakit ,,, . Ga ngerti mo di apain lagi ,,, gw ngalah ga num kupi (#ga numkupi daily maksutnya) ,,, tetep ajah kumat maagh nya ,,, . Jadi ??? qt lihat siapa yang menang ,,, ahahhahahah ,,, . Badan ini kuwat kooo ,,, paling yaaa drop doank kek kemarenan ntuh ,,, dan ya, beberapa kali kolepzh ,,, xixiixixixi ,,, . But ,,, ok inside ko ,,, . Kolepzh ituh hanya ,,, protes karena too much dan hanya butuh istirahat ,,,

Soo ,,, my dear gastritizh ,,, till death do us apart yezhh ,,,, BHAY !!!!

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LGBT ,,,

14 Februari 2016 By 0 In uMuM

Lagi nge heitzh bingidzh neh tema ,,, . Jadi mo ikutan koment amatiran dehh ,,, heheheh ,,, bole yaa ,,, ini kan rumah gw ,,, hehehheheh ,,,

LGBT ikuuu ,,, i think ,,, sensitive case loh ,,, . Bukan tidak ada mula dari prilaku menyimpang mereka, dan yezh ,,, itu “menular” ,,, dengan tidak baik ,,, . Di semua agama tidak ada yang mendukung LGBT ,,, . Tapiii ,,, mereka exizth dan ingin di akui keberadaan dan penyimpangannya ,,, . Hmmhh ,,, mana ada yang salah itu di benarkan ,,, . Gw pun yakin, mereka tidak ingin seperti ituh ,,, sekalipun keberadaan mereka diakui dan dilegalkan ,,, mereka pasti pengen hidup normal ,,, .

Jadiiii ,,, intinya ,,, gimana “menyembuhkan” disorientasi mereka bukan ??? yang pastiii ,, di hal ini gw ga akan bisa koment banyak ya karena  bukan ahlinya ,,, hehehhehe ,,, . yang pasti ,,, pendekatan yang lembut dan sensitive ,,, akan berhasil ,, !!

#just amatiran koment anyway ,,, maaf jika tidak berkenan ,,,

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