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ummhh ,,, my friend ever said ,,, ” if you already dont like someone ,,, your words become sadistic ” ,,, hehehheheh ,,, .

I claim that i ,,, a person ,,, who choose good word for conversation ,,, and its become very important for me to use good words in any conversation ,,, . Yezh ,,, i do release bad words for few peoples in my life ,,, . So, if i did that ,,, its because ,,, you deserve for those words ,,, indeed ,,, . And ,,, if i did that ,,, based on a fact ,,, not just my moody ,,, .

am i sorry for those bad words that gave to others ??? am not ,,, . But i do sorry already hurt heart people ,,, . But believe me ,,, you already broke my heart first ,,, so, i know ,,, there is no one to deserve for that pain ,,, . Those bad words ,,, to make you see and understand ,,, what kind behavior you already done ,,,

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this morning ,,, pa bagus said ,,, ” its not good become kind people ,,, being foolish by others ,,, we just have more trouble with that ” ,,, i said ” no,,, its better being kind people ,,, its simply being kind people ,,, ” #kek orang bener ajah yah gw ,,, wkwkkwkwkkwkwkwk

Hmmpphh ,, i think ,,, i already discuss this matter in my milestone ,,, but i want to discuss it again ,,, .  I have ,,, being lied ,,, being foolish by others ,,, even i said to my sister ” why people did bad thing to me ??? what already i did to them ??? ” ,,,  hehehhehehe … .  Or maybe ,, all those bad story in my life it just karma for my self ,,, who knows right ,,, ??? . Hmmphh ,,, am not kind people ,, am a bad person ,,, . And from now and so on ,,, i will do bad things ko ,,, .

i have theory ,,, if someone being kind people ,,, God will take care of them with good destiny ,,, . I was do believe of that ,,, . But now,,, i dont think so ,,, because ,,, every man has their own life stories ,,, . And yezh ,,, i hv my own story also ,,, and it seems not to be kind people ,,, hehheheheh ,,,

BUT ,,, if i have word to say for others ,,, i think ,,, i will say ,,, :: just being kind people ,,, because ,,, maybe it will be hurt ,,, but ,,, its simply way to live ,,, 🙂

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Cinta yang menuntun pada kebaikan ,,, yang melembutkan hati ,,, yang meninggikan Tuhan ,,,

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xixixiix ,,, my first post in 2016 ,,, .

i like to write ,,, indeed ,,, because ,,, its releasing ,,, hehehhehe ,,, #dah kek kentut yezh ,,, xixiixixixi ,,,, .

Hey ,,, i got my leave paid by todayzh ,,, . Sekira2nya ,,, ceritanya ,,, abis liburan tahun baru ,,, yang ada nge babu di rumah ,,, wkwkkwkwk ,,, plus go to the banks for administrative things ,,, .

ummhh … feelin bad by tudeyzh ,,, . I just want to silent ,,, starting now ,,, . I already said that i fail ,,, and i fail ,,, hehhehehe … . Maybe ,,, it just because i dont want to fight ,,, hehheheh ,,, ah sudahlah ,,, i dont care ,,, dont care at all ,,, . Just want to silent to the world ,,, and sharing in this milestone ,,, hehhehehehe

ummhh ,,, in technical ,,, i want to reduce my over time since now ,,, i want to reduce my expense ,,, i want to reduce my breath ?? ahhahahha ,,, .Hhh ,,, i want to live simply ,,, no drama ,,, no politics ,,, just be me ,,, ,,, ,, ,,,

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I cant make it ,,, hehhehehehe ,,, i lost ,,, . 

What i pretend in this world ??? My faith ,,, . Who is the most precious in your life ?? aLLah ,,, . So ??? ,,, . But aLLah ,,, ,,, . Why God alwayzh gave me an exam that i will fail anyway ??? ,,, . Nothings so perfect for me yezh ,,,

I fail ,,, i lost ,,, i give up ,,, 

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Di pikir2,,, setelah berobat ke dr partiban entuh ,,, sakit kepala gw dah amat sangat jarang kambuh ,,, alhamdulillah banged yah ,,,
Diagnosis nya migrain kronizh ,,, yg dah gw derita since high school x yezzh ,,, dan bisa sembuh !!! Dear Lord !!!
Plus kudu ngerti triger migrain gw sendiri ,, jadi bisa tolerence kl dah ketemu hal2 yg bsa bikin migrain ,,,
And for sure ,,, thankzh to Lisa Yuliana yg dah maksa berobat ke doi pun ga d ajak naek ke petronas ,,, huh ,,, xixiixixixi

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MCU result 2015 ,,, well ,,, few things ,,, hehehheheh .

My Hb get lower ,,,, hehehhehe ,,, . Maybe related to my weight ??? wakakkakkakak ,,, . As a result ,,, i cant do blood donor ,,, ecapedeeehh ,,, . Right now  ??? am still working with my weight ,,, hehehhehehe ,,, . Xixixiixi ,,, how come yezh ,,, loosing my weight 5 Kg in 2-3 months ??? kekkekekekek … its cool ,,, . But lately ,, i think its already 49 Kg ,,, maybe !! wkwkwkkwkw ,,,, . LED ,,, higher ,,, . And who care ??? wkwkkwkwk . Epitel cell on my urine ,,, so high ,,, wkkwkwkwkwk ,,, . Glucose and cholesterol ??? lower !!! wkwkkwkwkwk ,,,

apalah apalah yezh ,,, dont care jugakk ,,, kekekkekekekkekkkk

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2015 ,,, what a year ,,, ,,, !!  did many bad things ,,, fail on my examination ,,, just get lost in life ,,, . I did umrah this year ,,, i got my promotion also ,,, and i have embem ,,, alhamdulillah ,,,  . How its feel ??? for all those happen ???? i feel ,,, lost ,,, hurt ,,, despicable ,,, . In this position ,,, in my lowest condition ,,, i want to raise my Lord ,,, to pray for my mother ,,, .

Hhhh ,,, i want to ,,, fix these mess ,,, but, i dont know the real issue is ,,,  i dont know ,,, . if i do the same ,,, i will fail again next ,,, am sure ,,, . Something wrong ,,, but i dont know what it is ,, i dont know ,,, why am so stupid yezh ,,, ???? . I just cant reach You ,,, why ???? whats wrong ???? is it because my relationship with my father ??? . i do ,, not make communication with him ,,, compare for what he did few years backward ,,, But i do not gave any bad things to him ,,, i watching him from distance ,,, from my side ,,,  i just not make communication with him. Is it because of this ??? this little things ??? little things that i thought am right compare for what he did to me ???? . or there is something else ??? . i dont know ,,, and am lost ,,, i cant think anymore ,,,

hmmhh ,,, xixiixixi ,,, right now ??? i still manipulate my mind for many bad things i hv done ,,, . I choose bad things this far ,,, just because i dont want to make bad thought to my Lord ,,, . My faith is so low ,,, .  I think i will start from beginning again ,, for everything ,,,

2016 ,,, i want to go back to the right path ,,, . Many technical can be done ,,, . Am so sure the result cant be guarantee ,, . It just am so tired ,,, and i cant be more far away from my Lord ,,, i cant ,,, . Outside the world ,,, in side of me ,,, it just me and You my Lord ,,, in the middle of us ??? there is my mom ,,, hehehhehe ,,, . Cant we just smile togather ???? 🙂

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