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To be honest ,,, aq ,,, ga ngerti ,,, kenapa Tuhan menciptakan neraka dengan kekejian/pembalasan yg tidak pernah terfikirkan oleh manusia ,,, Sebegitu salah kah manusia hingga harus d siksa sedemikian rupa ???

Oh dear Lord ,,, otak dan hati q pun tak mampu berfikir dan merasa ada manusia yg mampu berfikir Tuhan yang maha Esa itu beranak ,, sungguh keji pemikiran dan pernyataan seperti itu ,,,  juga manusia yg menantang kekuatan dan ke esa an Mu Tuhan ,,,

Kami manusia begitu lemah ,,, tak ada satu kekuatan pun yg mampu menyentuhMu Tuhan ,,, Kau pun tahu itu ,,, bahwa Kau tidak terkalahkan ,,, lalu kenapa harus terganggu dengan prilaku manusia dan menghukumnya sedemikian rupa ??? ,,, 

Dan still ,, aq tidak mengerti kenapa neraka d ciptakan ,,, ??

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Mungkin tulisan ini sebagai seperti penyangkalan akan masuknya gw ke neraka kelak ,,, #istighfar ,,, dosa mana sih yg belon gw lakuin ,,, #istighfar ,,, but i ,,, get back ,,, for now ,,, i dont know few times ahead ,,,  i just dont understand ,,  . and how about many peoples out there ??? ,,,

Update 06.03.16 ::

,,, mungkin karena ,,, memang its not allowed even for a little ,,, even just a line in your mind ,,, to ingkar to aLLah ,,, . Its not allowed ,,, . Why ??? i dont know ,,, its back to basic answer ,,, we are just servant ,,, hamba ,,, .

Hehehhhehe ,,,, if i have more enlightenment ,, i will share one ,,, 🙂

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Once again ,,, Pekerjaan kuwh sekarang ini adalah tukang sampah ,,, i dont care what people think about this ,, all i know is ,, this is what i have to do right now ,,, aannddd am happy for what am doing now ,,, 🙂

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ahahhaha ,,, am odd ,,, dont you think like that ??? xixiixixi ,,,

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i just have few clothes ,,, since old time ,,, . ahhahahah ,,,  i just dont know why, we have to spent our times to think about beautify our looking with clothes ,,, hehehheh am odd yezhh ,,, ??? xiixixi . So ,,, finally ,,, i just have few clothes in my wardrobe ,,, for 5-6 dayzh usage ,,, recuring ,,, xixiixixix . When my financial condition getting better ,,, i bought 1-2 more ,,, just as my needs ,,, ahhahahahah ,,, . More odd ,, all my clothes is i like to wear ,,, . When its defective ,,, i will bought the same one ,, #gubrakzh ,,,,, waakakkakakakka ,,, . Am not saying that fashion is ugly ,, no its not ,,, . Its beautiful ,,, for sure ,,, . But ,,, i think ,, i will not spent my time in that part ,, heheheheh ,,, aman lah yezh ,,,

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I dont like music ,,, . When more half peoples in this planet adore music ,,, basicly, i dont like music. Maybe its related to my migrain’s triger ,,, . But when i like music, its more because i like the lyric ,,, . Thus ,,, when i like one ,,, i will listening all the times ,, just that one ,,, over and over till i get sick ,,, wkkwkwkwkkw ,,, am odd yezh ,,, . But ,,, i like listening to the music when i get stressed ,,, . I need something more noise in my head to reduce my stressed ,,, . My friend said ,, i like music when i get fall in love ,, hahahhaha ,,, . Its not true ,,, . When i close with someone ,,, they gave me a music ,,, so i listening one ,,, #gw kan respect people ,,, wkakkakakka ,,, fair enough yezh ,,, xixiixixi ,,,

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eat ,,, . i dont like to eat ,,, . Maybe i already get gastritis since long time ago ,,, so eat activity is something that not like most ,,, begitulah ,,, . Even i dont know what the meaning of delicious is ,,, wkwkkwkw … . Makanan yang gw makan ,,, enak sih enak ,,,, terush ?? kalo dah kenyang juga akan menyakiti perut gw ,,, . My friend said ,, delicious is when you full enough you still want to eat one ,,, . Its mean ,, sambel terasi buwatan kaka guwa !! ahahhaha ,,, . When i got home ,, and found that sambel terasi ,,, i will eat one ,,, even i have gastritis even just eat with kerupuk ,,, ahahhahah ,,, . ever i get fat ,,, its because of pergaulan ,,, ahhahah ,,, .

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i cant speak up ,,, hehehhe … . Maybe its also related to my autisme ,,, #am sorry #nomention ,,, . Even i dont like to speak much ,,, heheheheh ,,, . In my though ,, why we are not just work with emails ,, no need to call and say wasting words ,,, heheheh am odd yezhh ,,, . BUT !!! i learning people ,,, they do thaatt ,,, speak all the timeee ,,, laughing togather ,,, having fun !!! ,,, so i do the same ,,, . But never can be like them ,,, hehehheh . Sometimes ,,, i feel ,,, my brain so misery when i have to bear up ,, with them who talk too much ,,, . When someone calls me that long without nothing that so important ,,, i just so suffer ,,, at the end of my brain ,,, i just want to hang up the phone ,,, . What i do when its happen ,, i just get my own imagination ,,, and its be in effect while my bozh talk too much ,, wakakkakakak ,,, i just cant stand up with it ,,, and i lost with my own thinking ,,, ahahhahhaha ,,,, kocak dah ,,, . But, i know that people need to release many words in their daily life ,,, . So maybe people release in lisan/oral ,, i release in words ,,, 🙂

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above are i dont like lists ,,, so what i like most ?? and what you look your self ??? i like to see nature ,,, its fill up something in me ,,, . i like to think about universe ,,, about God ,,, about entire of life ,,, why am here/life ,,, where i will be end ,,, is God real exist ,,, in what way we can believe about God ,,, ,,,, ,,,, and i thinking most about human behaviour ,,, I learn them ,,, . Am odd again yezh ???? xixixiix ,,, . ,,,, , , ,, , ,,  , i just think loh ,,, not doing ,,, wakkakakakkakakkk .

how i look my self ???  #in bahasa ,,, gw melihat diri gw sebagai wadah ,,, . dari sebelum gw ,,, Kebaikan dan keburukan masuk dalam diri ini ,, dan akan keluar anyway ,, karena hidup ini mengalir ,, seperti sebuah energi ,,, . Tidak ada yang permanent selama hidup di dunia ini ,,, tapi mungkin qt punya batasan masing2 ,,, . have you ever thinking next ,,, ketika ,, setelah kita mati ,,, dan qt sudah pada timingnya selesay  menghabiskan di surga ataw pun neraka ,,, it will took billion yearzh ,,, . laluh apah ??? . Apakah Tuhan akan meng cut of soul inih ? so we are just disappear ??? tidak berbekas ?? ataw qt akan hidup terush berlanjut ,,, . Can you imagine that ,,, jika itu terush berlanjut ,,, qt seperti hidup abadi ,,, . We are already exist ,,, . who knows yezh ,,, . Gw pernah nanya ke guru ngaji gw tentang itu ,,, decade yearzh ago ,,, . Dy bilang ,,, hanya Tuhan yang tahu  ,,, . Iyezh of course ,,, 🙂

So when one of my friend said ,,, that am strong woman ,,, i just thinking ,, it already set up by the Creator ,,, its not my energy tobe strong ,,, not at all ,,, and its not be permanent ,, .

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And truly ,, ,i just wondering to them ,, who said know me well ,, . In what way they know me well ??? hehehhe ,,, . Its need naked soul to meet my soul ,,,  😉

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Hmmhh ,, ya so so lah yezh ,,, enjoying one ,,, . Mudah2an Tuhan ridho atas qt ,,, . Pun pada intinya ,,, adalah believing qt ke Tuhan ,,, . Dan you know what ,,, gw akan dimintain pertanggungjawaban akan semua pemikiran gw kelak ,, hehehhehe #istighfar ,,,

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Gw ga butuh orang percaya ma gw ,,
Gw ga butuh confirmed kehdpn gw ke orang2 ,,,
Gw butuh me-reduce orang2 dan hal hal ga penting dalam idup guwa ,,
Terdengar sadizh ??
Gw cuman pengen idup simpLy ,,

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 ,, mizh You my Lord ,,, #mungkin karna sudah terlalu lama dan terlalu jauh dari Mu ,,,

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As generaly ,,, in my view ,,, we have the same thing ,,, berserah diri pada Tuhan ,,, which is i think its the critical thing as a servant of the Lord ,,, 

I wish ,,, this is the good way ,,, to reuniting in akhirat with good condition ,,, amiinn ,,,

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Once ,,, my friend asked ,,,

What is the most important in you ?? 

And i said :: my brain ,,, then my eye ,,,

But now i realize that the most important in us is ,,, our heart ,,,

And the fact is ,, its already told by the prophet Muhammad SaW ,,, 

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nyetarbak ni ariii ,,, ngupi setelah semingguan ga ngupi cantik gegara magh kupret ,,, !! wkwkkwkwkkw ,,, . But you know what ,,, masa inet starbaknya rusaaakkkk ,,, ya eallaahh ,,, not that lucky yezh by tudeyzh ,,,, xixiixixixixi ,,,,

jarang ke setarbak siang2 gini ,,, dan ternyata ,,, begitu ramaayyy yezzhhh ,,, . heheheh karena gw former autis ,,, so its litbit something for me ,,, xixiixixixi ,, . And I see so many peoples here ,,, i just said to my self ,,, i choose to be good one ,,, hehehheheh ,,, because its simply way to live ,,, 🙂 . well,,, i will not be that good also ko ,,, its never be good enough ,,, wkwkkwkwkkw ,,, semua orang dah ada takarannya ,, ahahhahahhahah ,,, .

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allahu akbar ,,, how blessed my life is ,,, alhamdulillah ,,, #pun belon kaweeenn kaweennn ,, xiixixixixi ,,, . Btw, sebulan dua bulan terakhir ini gw sering naek embem ngantor ,,, aannddd its make me bokek yeezhh ,,, ahuhuuhuhuuhhu ,,, . Why ?? bukan masalah bengsin nyeeee ,,, tapi toll fee nyeeee ,,, /hari ampe 24 rb !!! buceedddd !!!! ,,, . Liwat toll, bikozh gw menghindari macet di area tomong ,,, jahanam banged tuh maced di situ ,, amid2 dah !!! ,,, . Nah kalo liwat tol ,,, sejam dah nyampe rumah ,,, ga pake ngebut (arround 80km/jam) ,,, jalanan muluzh ga silaturahmi ma motor ,,, enak kan yah ,,, wkkwkwkwkwk ,,, .

Tapiiii ,,, Setelah mendapat masukan dari nipiria sany esteh yang dah sangat sering gw bully ,,,, akhirnya gw memutuskan untuk :: berdamay dengan macetnya tomang ,,, . And all i need to starting that plan is ,,, buying murotal CD !!! wakakakkakakka ,,, . Aman lah yezh ,,, bizh ini gw ke gramed wat beli tuh cd ,,, xixiixixixixi ,,, . Hmmhh ,, you seee ??? life as simply is that ,,, yang kalo di baca asal ,, layf es simple is ded ,,, yang di bahasakan ke bahasa indonesia ,,, hidup itu semudah mati ,, xixixiixi ,,, #gw ngomong apa sih ???xiixiixiix ,,,

dah ah ,,, gw mo ke gramed ,, mo beli CD ,, lagian hape gw dah lobat gegara di bikin personal hotspot ke netbuk wat nyambung inet ,,, xiixixixixi

bhaayy ,,,, mwaacchh ,,,,

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