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05062016 ba’da Magrib ,,,

Its Ramadhan ,,, alhamdulillah ,,, masya aLLah ,, gw bener2 terharu ,,, . Masih nyampe umur gw di bulan ini ,,, di bulan yang aLLah SWT limpahkan rahmat berkah ampunan dan ridhoNya ,,, masya aLLah ,,, . Ramadhan x ini bener2 terasa nikmat ,,,

Masih pulak di beri kesempatan wat silaturahmi ke sodara2 sebelum pwasa ,,, wat maap2an ,,, wat nanya kabar ,,, wat cerita ceriti ,,, wat cipika cipiki ,,, xiixixixi ,,, . Oh My dear Lord ,,, kenapa itu apa ini ??? terasa sangat nikmat sekali ,,, alhamdulillah ,,, . and somehow ,,, i feel in their phase ,, xiixixixi 😛

although ,,, as many years passed ,,, can get the first shaum also next idul fitri day ,,, ehhehehehe ,,, stilll ,, am so excited ,,, . Masya aLLah ,,, aLLahu Akbar ,,, terpujiLah aLLah SWT Tuhan Semesta aLam ,,, 🙂 🙂 🙂

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today i just not in the good mood ,,, so  i went to the coffee shop this morning ,,, xiixixix ,,, ngupi syahntiikkkzzhh ,,, boost up my strength and my mood ,, ahhahaha ,,, after ,,, so weak by yesterday ,,, i just so exhausted ,,, dear lord ,,,

now here i am ,,, ,, ,,, 🙂  🙂   🙂 ,,, really need my milestone ,,, to ,, ummhh ,,, what i hv to say ,,, defrag ??? aahahhahhaha ,,, . My friends ,, said ,, in many ways ,,, they need to share uneg2 to others ,,, . When she said that ,, voice in my brain said ,,  ” i just need my milestone ,, ” ,,, xixixixixi ,,, alhamdulillah yezh ,, my live just is simply is that ,,, .

so what happen to the world ??? ,,, xixiixix ,,,

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Official ,,, well ,,, last JuNe 1st, announced about promotion and transfer staff manager and expatriat ,,, . And ,,, me ?? none on the list ,,, xixiixix ,,, . Ahhhh ,,, sayang sekali ,,, padahal gw ngincer VP loh ,,, wkwkkwkwk #mang ada ???? xixixiixix 😛 ,,, .

Well ,,, really ,, if i have a chance to out from there ,,, i will do that ,,, . Too bad ,, it seems ,, rejeki gw di sonoh ,,, 🙂 ,, sooo ,,, enjoy one ,,, . Its already 10 years working at aji ,,, alhamdulillah for everything ,,, . Suka duka ,,, di nikmatin ,,, .

They said ,,, none of employee will resign with family reason except they not agreed with their bozh ,, . Kesiyan ye jadi bozh ,,, di arep2 susahnya ,,, wakakakkak ,,, . Yaaa tergantung juga sih bozhnya bener pa enggag ,,, xixiixixix ,,,

Me ,,, ?? sudah pada tahap penikmat taqdir ,,, 🙂 ,, #secara mentok juga mo kemana2 ga bisa ,,, wakakkakakakkkk ,,, #so iyezh banged bahasanya penikmat taqdir ,,, wkwkkwkwkwk . Yup ,,, pun am not smart enough and not good for talking talking ,,, where i work placed ,,, i can gave my best contribution ,,, so no issue for my work ,,, exceeeppptt ,,, aaahhhahahahhha ,,, .

Hmmmh  ,,, Just do goods ,,, as alwayzh ,,, as it proportionally ,,, fair enough ,,, xixiixixixixiix ,,,

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Weeww ,,, tomorrow Ramadhan’s come ,,, . Everything about goodness,, its just reminding bout aLLah and they who i love ,,, masya aLLah ,, .

I dont know ,,, apakah Tuhan aLLah akan mengampuni semua dosa yang di belakang ,, yang gw lakukan dengan sadar ,,, #istighfar ,,, . But its me ,, orang yang selalu berusaha berusaha dan berusaha apa pun yang terjadi ,,, berharap berharap dan berharap ,,, semoaga tuhan aLLah mahu mengampuni semua dosa2 gw ,,, aamiinn ,, .

tomorrow ramadhan ,,, masya allah ,,, 🙂

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it is ,,, none others will care that sincere to you ,,, no ,,, . But its no matter somehow ,,, because this world build from the principle of interdependence anyway ,,, . But i do believe it will one to three people around will sincere to you ,,, 🙂 ,,, . Do i found them ??? #smiling ,,, . Thus ,,, this is the world ,, not static ,,, sometimes they are ,, some times they are not ,,, nor do i ,,, so enjoy one ,,, . Beside ,,, this is not about me anymore ,,, but you ,, 🙂

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ten times !!! ,,, praise the Lord ,,, alhamdulillah ,,, segala puji bagi aLLah, tuhan semesta alam,,, 🙂

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sabtu kemaren,,, tetiba abis magrib just want to donor ,,, . And just go to PMI ,,, . Nothing to loose like always ,,, seperti ngikutin ujian setiap tesnya ,,, . Dari tes Hb, deg2an ma hasilnya ,,, tes dokter/tensi juga deg2an hasilnya ,,, . Basahin bibir gw terush, biar mereka ga liat kekeringan melanda gw ,,, . Pasang muka secerah mungkin, biar mereka ga bisa liat wajah pucet guwe ,,, . Dan praise the Lord ,,, lulus ,,, .!!! ahhahahahha ,,, .

Dokternya mpe nanya :: beratnya 48 ??? #muka ga yakin ma gw ,,, . Gw mpe gelagapan blg :: ditimbangan itu 47 koma kok ,,, wakakkakakkakak ,,, .

setelah semua tes lulus ?? seperti bysa ,,, ketakutan besar gw ya pas donornya ,,, ahahhaha ,,, itu bukan hal mudah wat guwe untuk mengalihkan pikiran2 takut gw ,,, wwkkwkwkwk ,,, .

Alhamdulillah ,,, kelar !!

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dulu ,,, donor wat gw ,,, ( pas jaman jaya2nya bisa donor ) ,,, sesuwatu yang “mudah” ,,, hanya perlu lewatin tahap donor/diambil darahnya yg scari muvie banged wat gw ,,, bis itu kelar ,,, .

Kemaren ??? sebelum tes2 itu ,, gw memandang takjub ma mereka yang bisa donor dengan mudahnya ,,, its a bless you know ,, #i said in my heart ,,, .

dan yeaayy ,,, i made it ,,, alhamdulillah ,,, 🙂

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Next ,,, august ,,, yang kesebelas ,,, 🙂 ,,, insha allah ,,,

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Hmmhh ,,, its end of May ,,, oh ,, no, its still tomorrow ,,, end of May ,,, xixiixixixi ,,, . Its a ,,, feel ,,, what can i say in words ,,, hmhh ,,, “too long” ,,, ??? hehheheh ,,, what a weird person i am ,,, 🙂

eh ??? what day is it today ??? 30May ??? ,,, i think today ,,, it will be change ,,, its about you ,,, all of you ,,, me ?? it doesnt matter ,,, 🙂  ,,,

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i mizh my mom ,,, still ,,, i just want to make sure that she is ok there ,,, . Sampe gw punya kesempatan masuk surga ??? #amiinn ,,, , ga akan gw masuk sampe emak gw masuk duluwan ,,, ga peduli apa kata duniya sekali pun ,, xiixixixi ,,, .

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do i still pray / hope for other badness ??? ,, nop ,,, since that day ,,, . i do really really really believe ,,, that God arrange everything in every single details ,,, . nothing to worried about ,, just hope and pray that ,,, we are approximated to the good faith ,,,

Gimana caranya sih jadi orang baik ??? i just wondering sangat ,,, . I know exactly,, being good person is just a gift ,,, gift from God that you have good heart ,,, . You know what the good heart is ??? good heart is even you cant think about hurting others ,,, good heart is even you are destroyed by the world you cant notice one, its just you still believe in the goodness ,,, . And i know exactly am not have that heart ,,, even i try so much ,,, am not a good person ,,, . But you know what the lucky being me is ?? being fool ??? that i will just try and try and try and try ,,, and believe i will make it someday ,,, wakkakakkakaka ,,, . Ya ya ya ,,, its me ,,, totally me ,,, a person who will always hoping/believing ,,, event it wouldn’t be come true ,,, . Yup, its me ,,, !!!!

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today ?? my thought is just jumping from one point to another ones ,,, gaje ,,, . And at the end of the day ,,, i just loosing what point i will jump to more ,,, . This variable ,,, is just too wide for me maybe ,,, so i just feel lost ,,, i cant focus ,,, .

talking2 about focus ,,, i told you ,,, i can see the future ,,, with out any help from my dream ,,, . a little ,,, but i know it will be come ,,, . This condition ,,, just like was i kid ,,, i just knew ,,, because i can see the relation ,, but, i need tobe focus ,,, .

and from this point ,,, i just want to more and more and more become silent then i used to be ,,, . Having time to watch and see everything ,,, . Because, now ,, its all about you ,,, 🙂

do i care ??? i dont think so ,,, i just ,,, silent ,,, and watching ,,, 🙂

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many “stories” are passed ,,, #terdiam ,,, lama ,,, . Nothings wrong ,,, nothings wrong being me ,, being others ,, nothings wrong with God stories ,,, nothing wrong with all of this ,, . Am in the track now ,,, 🙂

regret then ??? ,,, could be ,,, may be ,,, i just can think the possibilities ,,, not my feels then ,,, . Once again ,,, from now, its all about you ,,, 🙂

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#me time ,,,

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do good things ,,, right now ,, as we can ,,, Mungkin ,,, ada masanya ,,, nanti semua orang tetiba jadi baik semua ,,, dan lo bingung mo berbuwat baik ma sapah ,,, secara semua orang dah pada baik ,,, wakkakakkakak ,,,

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hadjjjee ,,, dear Lord ,,, so not in the good mood by this wiken ,,, ahuhuhuuhhu ,,, . Mungkin gw mo dapet ,,, #dapet jodoh maksutnya ,,, wkwkkwkw ,,, aamiinn ,,, .

in office ,,, gw begitu muak liat orang2 yang ,,, ahh begitu lah ,,, saling menyalahkan saling tuduh ,,, saling menjatuhkan ,,, saling show up ,,, saling cari selamet (# mang selamet lagi kemana seh ,,, ??? di cariin molo ,,, ) ,,, dan ada yang menyukai situasi ini ,,, menyukai orang2 seperti ini ,,, . Gw pernah ko di arena tersebut (#and still ,,) ,,, gw mengerti jika ada orang yang menyukai situasi ini ,,, karena memang ini menggairahkan in some way ,,, seru ,,, seperti berpacu dengan duniya ,,, (#duniya barbar kalo menurut gw sih ,,, )

Sekarang ,,, gw ga pengen ajah involve ma ini semua ,,, . Hal ini bener2 membuwat gw ga tertarik ,,,  boleh walk out ga seh ,,, hehehhehehe ,,, . Boleh ga gw mengambil dan menjalani hal2 yang membuwat gw tertarik sajah ,,, ??? ,,, xixiixixixi ,,,

dan belom lagi ,,, diiiii my section ?? ahahhaha ,,, few peoples already told me the same things ,,, hehehehhe ,,, . In my view ??? you already lucky have us have me, that not impose you badly ,,, . I do sorry if make you feel not that worth ,,, but i think, it just for high efficiency in works ,,, thats it ,,, . well, maybe if its me in your position,  i will feel the same also ,,, but please try to understand my reason ,,, . I think, i already do good to you Sir ,,, sharing anything that related to the jobs and issues ,,, . Just dont worry about me ,,, dont feel threatened with me ,,, please be not ,,, . Am free soul ,,, this world is not my purpose ,,, please, do your own ,,, 🙂

thus ,,, that another bozh ??? masya aLLah yezh ,,, setahun lagi ,,, di tahan2in yezh fi ,,, . Toh pada akhirnya ,,, dy yang akan cabzh ,,, eventually ,,, jika bisa di percepat ,,, alhamdulillah sangat ,,, wkkwkwkwkkwkw ,,, .

Bukan gw jahat ,,, ini  kan wat kebaikan bersama ,,,  . Gw ngerti lah ma typical orang perfectionist kek gt ,,, banyak nahannya ma kelakuwan orang2 yang ga sejalan ,,, . Nah ,,, dari pada darting terush struk ??? mending cepet2 pindah dan cari lingkungan yang sesuway ,,, yang kalo di ajak ngomong ya cepet nyambung ,,, wkwkkwkwkwkkwkwkw ,,, . kurang baek apa cobak guwa ???? ,,,, #muka jaiL ,,,, ahhahahahhahah

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setan/iblis ,,, sudah berpengalaman ribuan tahun semenjak adam – hawa exist, dalam menggoda manusia ,,, . Pengalaman ribuan tahun compare gw yang baru 35 tahun idup ,,, kalah banyak pastinya ,,, ahahhahahah ,,, .

Dan dalam perjalanan 4-5 bulan belakangan ini ,,, am not success ,,, kesuksesan gw adalah ,,, no matter what ,, gw tetap berusaha ,,, . Gw mulay dari hal kecil, dan mungkin gagal ,,, . I said to my self :: try again, mungkin berikutnya berhasil ,,, . Dan itu gw lakukan terush menerush ,,, . Padahal itu baru dari segi teknikaL ,,, belum quality ,,, . Hehehhehe ,,, just ,,, do it ,,, over and over ,,, i will find my way next ,,,

insha aLLah ,,, 🙂

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Gw ituh bukan orang baik ,, but somehow alhamdulillah sangat ,, gw d kelilingi oleh orang orang baik ,,, Semoga guwa masih d beri kesempatan menjadi baik dan bermanfaat wat mereka ,, aamiinn ,,,

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yezh ,, yezh ,, yezh ,,, in my condition and situation right now ,,, am become more perfectionist and i just cant think more for them that hv bad behavior to others ,,, it just ,,, big why question ,,,, . It does ,,, you cant please every one ,,, even you cant always do warm things ,, it just ,,, do not harm/hurt anyone ,,, is it something so difficult to do ??? ,,, . If you cant do that ,,, just be quiet ,,,

i just have one explanation remining ,,, only them who have high education will follow with good manner ,,, others ?? great mother behind ,,, thats it ,,, !!

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Nabi Muhammad saw ,, menyuapi makan pada  orang buta yahudi yang selalu memakinya ,,, mempercepat bacaan sholatnya karena tau ada makmum yang sudah sepuh ,,, dan masih banyak contoh betapa beliaw menghormati manusia lain dengan manner begitu baik ,,, . #ah beli buku tentang rasul lagi ah ,,, mo refresh ,,, xixiixixiix

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ada ,,, pernah ,, masanya ,,, gw ” dikhianati ” oleh keyakinan gw sendiri ,,, dan gw tetap memegangnya seperti gw memegang bara api ,, if  i hv to burn with that ,,, so burn !!! ,,, At the end of the hell  though ,, I’ll be back ,,, for You ,,, and for those i love ,,, insha aLLah ,,,

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