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Strength Management ,,, . So ,,, because ,, couple months ago ,,, i just getting weak ,,, and i dont have more strength to do more activities ,,, so ,,, i think i hv to adjust my self to this situation ,,, right ,, ??? .

Alhamdulillah sangat ,,, i can do official activities ,,, with out major issues till now ,,, . Alhamdulillah ,,, . So ,, next ,,, it cant be merge washing mbem and mbit in one day ,,, . Even ,,, i think i cant washing mbem anymore till everything getting better ,,, ahhahahhahha ,,, . So far that i can do my self for mbem is ,,, sedot debu tiap minggu ,, ahhahahahahhaha ,,, . Itu ajah dah bikin tepar ,,, langsung tekapar setelahnya ,,, .

jadi inged ,,, baru setengah nyuci mbem ,,, udah kunang2 ,,, setelahnya ??? . Butuh tidur 4-5 jam untuk memulihkan tenaga gw ,,, . wakkakakkakakka ,,, . Nyedot debu mbem ?? butuh waktu tidur 1-2 jam setelah nya untuk recovery ,,, . Nyedot debu ma bersih2 di dalamnya ,, lap lap ,,, biar mbem tetep bersih ,,, xiixixixiix ,,, .

Mungkiinn ,,, kalo gw lagi bosen obo di rumah ,,, dan pengen obo di ugd ,,, bisa ajah seh nyuci mbit ,, terush nyuci mbem ,,, terush ke ugd deehh ,, wkkwkwkwk ,,, . Apezh ,,,

The point is ,,, dont do big physically activity in one day ,,, . deal ??? yezh ,,, !!

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ahahhahah ,,, gw kekurusan ,,, kurus banged nged nged nged ,,, . once again ,,, decrease around 9 Kg on 1 year i guess ,,, ???? ,, . My friends decrease  5 Kg just on around 2 months ???? so i think am good ,,, right ??? hehehhehe ,,, .

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gw mo banyak makan ,,, tapi gimna caranya yak ??? . Makan molo ??? kek ga ada kerjaan laen ajah ,,, . Mpit bilang :: kan lo insome ,,, ya kerjaan malam lo makan ajah ,,, . Lah ??? kenapa ga terpikirkan ma gw ??? wkwkkwkwk ,, . Jadi makan itu seperti sebuah task ,, dan sekarang more tasks to do ,, ,wkwkwkwkwk ,,, .

oh ,,, jangan bahas why oh why nya yezh ,,, . I dont like to eat ,, . i dont know what categories of delicious is ,,, . Makanan enak ,, ??? ,,, ya enak ,,, . Lah terush ??? ahahhahahha ,,, . Makan itu secukupnya ,,, berlebihan itu akan menyakitimuwh ,,, . wkwkkwkwkwk ,,, .

Hadeeehh ,,, kek ga ada kerjaan ajah makan molo yak ,, . Tapi keknya harus gituh ,,, meluangkan waktu lebih untuk ,,, makan ??? ,,, . Okey ,,, i’ll do that ,,,

Now ,,, how ??? . get eat 3 times a day ???  like that ??? oh my God ,, its difficult thing to do ,, . hhh ,,, lets do it fi ,,, 🙂

moga makin gemukan dikit yah ,,, hehehehehhe ,,, 🙂

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gw ,,, ini ,,, pendosa ,, . maybe around 10 years ,,, dosa gw maksimal bingid ,,, . I did teknikal dosa ,,, . Iyah, teknikal dosa ,,, its technically . hhh ,,, i cant think all of that now ,,, . It just ,,, masa muda gw ,,, kegilaan gw ,, hasrat gw ,,, kealphaan gw ,, kelemahan gw ,,, kenaivan gw ,,, . Gw ,,, ga mo inged lagi semua tentang itu ,,, . Hhh ,,, gw jugaa ,,, berharap ,,, berdoa ,,, semoga aLLah mau mengampuni semua yang lalu ,,,

in my age now ,,, yup, mungkin ini tentang kedewasaan ,,, tentang bagaimana saraf2 manusia sudah terbentuk lebih baik dalam mengambil keputusan ,,, #thats why we call it adult ,,, , there is no passion again in those sins ,,, hehehehheeh ,,, . Ga menemukan lagi kesenangan duniyawi ituh ,,, . Jadi ,,, lebih bisa berfikir dan memutuskan tujuan dan langkah yang perlu di ambil untuk mencapai tujuan ituh ,,, . Yah ,,, mungkin bisa di bilang gw telat ,,, . Tapi seperti rasul bilang ,, before 40, masih ada kesempatan ,,, . Bahkan sebelum ajal nyampe di tenggorokan ,,, masih ada kesempatan untuk bertobat dan memperbaiki diri ,,, . Mungkin memang semua ada masanya yh ,,, .

hhh ,,, tiap orang punya jalan hidup masing2 ,,, . Am i gonna pay for those sins ??? i will ,,, anyway ,,, karena aLLah maha adiL ,,, . But ,,, gw sangat berharap aLLah mahu mengampuni gw ,,, karena aLLah ,,, maha pengampun lagi maha penyayang ,,, . DIA tidak berkekurangan juga tidak dilebihkan dengan dosa dan pahala yang gw buwat ,,, semoga aLLah mengampuni yang lalu ,,, aaminnn ya aLLah ,,,

hhh ,,, time is tiktok ,,, . And now i dont care what passed already through ,,, . It just how i fix my life now ,,, . Its not worth it ,,, ???  is it will be recur ??? thats is i will be doing many sins again ,,, ??? maybe ,,, i think ,,, because this is life ,,, and i dont know what my future will bring ,,, . I dont care ,,, . i dont care at all for those forecast ,,, . aLL i know ,,, i just want to do the right things ,,, right now ,,, little by little on every single step in my life ,,, .

Dan ,, jika kelak ,,,  hidup gw dihadapkan lagi pada pilihan dosa ,, semoga pengalaman 10 tahun ini ,,, akan memberi gw dasar berfikir dan memutuskan untuk tidak memilih lagi jalan yang buruk ,,, aamiinn ya aLLah ,,,  KepadaMu lah kami berlindung dari yang buruk ,,, insha aLLah ,,,

yup ,,, like that ,,, ,, ,,,,,,, ,,

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oh aLLah ,,, dengan semua pikir liarkuwh ,,, dengan semua kemanusiaankuwh ,,, banyak teknikal dosa besar yang aq lakukan ,,, tapi aq tidak pernah berkhianat padaMu ,,, tidak pernah ,,, !!! ,,, dan tidak akan ,,, insha aLLah ,,, . Aq pernah begitu marah padaMu ,,, semoga Engkaw mahu mengampunikuwh ,,, aamiinn ,,, karena Engkaw lah maha pengasih pengampun lagi maha penyayang ,,, .

Terima kasih ya aLLah ,,, Engkaw masih mau memberikan kuwh waktu #walu tinggal sesaat ,,, untuk bertobat ,,, . Terima kasih ya aLLah ,,, Engkaw mahu melindungi keturunan ibu bapak kami dari dosa yang berkepanjangan ,,, . Semoga Engkaw mengumpulkan kami kelak dalam kebaikan ,,,, amminn ,,, . Segala puji bagiMu ,,, Tuhan semesta alam ,,, ,,, ,,, ,,,

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mereka ,,,, aq ,,, merekaa ,,, begitu beruntung ,,, mempunya mind yang begitu “jiNak” ,,, . Aq ,,, mind kuwh ,, begitu liar ,,, its Ok thinking wild bout this world ,,, but sometimes ,,, it soo ,, wild thinking about the God ,,, dari mana permulaannya ,, seperti apa ,,, harus bagaimana ,,, kenapa aq harus mematuhiNya ,, and so on ,, . damn ,,, why i hv to think such like that ,,, and sometimes i cant control it ,, just thinking ,, thinking ,,,  and thinking ,,, .

Hey ,, and its never finished ,,, . aLL i can do so far is augment zikr to aLLah ,,, #maybe it can useful to others with the same issue with me ,,, . Zikr not answer many question in this head ,,, just blocking my mind not become more wild ,,, . its hard effort you knowh ,,,

you guyzh ,,, should be thankful not have experience like i do ,,, . You ,, just have default heart and mind to obey aLLah ,,, with out many question to ask ,, its wonderful ,,,

in the other side ,,, many thinking ,, make me have lot of datas in my head ,,, . And you know what ,, my dream ,, believe it or not ,, also become data one ,,, . all of that become puzzle in my head ,, Its not logical ,,, but if you understand what i try to say ,,, $^@^%++&$^*@^@!^)

few things ,,, already happened ,,, gonna be happen ,,, many things ,,, already in my mind ,,, it just so random ,,, .

Whatever it is ,,, semoga aLLah yang maha pengasih lagi maha penyayang ,,, memberikan berkah rahmat dan ampunan kepada qt semua ,,, amiinn ya aLLah ,,,

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weeeww ,,, me time after tight weekdayzh yezh ,,, . Go home over 8 pM almost everydays ,,, . Over time for last month is sooo ,, high ,,, more than 3 millions ,,, helloohhh ,,,  am afraid be banned next ,,, ihihihiihih ,,, . so so lah yezh ,,, .

its one week left to apezh position on JuLy ,,, ahuhuhuuhuh ,, tega bingid ,,, . Lucky me i will starting after eid mubarok hulideyzh ,,, ehehehhehhe ,, . Have no words more to express how bete i am ,,, huikzh ,,, damn ,,, damn ,,, 🙁  ,,, . Mu bijimana lagih ,,, hhhh ,,,

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just a little share ,,, when the news comes ,,, he is on master degree study ,, . And its make me interested ,,, because ,,, he must be smart man ,,, . Like i said ,,, i always like smart one ,,, because i will have partner to brainstorming ,,, hehehheheh ,,, #peoples needs are differently each others ,,, right ,,, ??? ,,, hehehhehe 🙂 ,,,

ya ya ya ya ,,, i just follow the God story to me ,,, its must be beautiful ,,, insha allah ,, . Because ,, since i was a kid ,,, i already falling in love with the Lord ,,, insha allah ,,, 🙂 . For the bad story in my life ,,, ????  hehehhehe ,,, i already passed it ,, . i betrayed ,,, i ask forgiven ,,, may God want to forgive me ,,, insha allah ,,, aamiinn ,,,

have a kid ??? its my responsible to guide them to knowing aLLah ,,, . Its my responsible ,,, . Whats world become ,,, they have to afraid to aLLah ,,, they have to obey aLLah ,,, i can describe and explain many things to them ,,, but sure ,,, every single soul have their own destiny ,,, 🙂

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yeaayy ,,, alhamdulillah for this ramadhan ,,, alhamdulillah so much ,,, . 10 dayzh left ,,, and already said ,,, the important dayzh in ramadhan ,,, hehheheheh ,,, .

not even success for tahajud juga seh ,,, related to my insom ,,, but ,,, am grateful for every single second time ,,, every breath ,,, every step ,,, every effort of my worship ,,, alhamdulillah ,,, 🙂 🙂 🙂

my weight ??? ahahahhaha ,,, as forecast ,,, 44-45 ,,, kikikikikikikikkk ,,, . it seems ,,, i dont have time to eat unless ,, in maghrib time when break the fasting ,,,, #sounds lebay yezh ,,, hehehehhe ,,, . Yup ,, am so skinny now ,,, xixiixixi ,,, reaLLy skiiny to look ,,, hehehheheh 😀

was ,,, i still have eager to fix one ,, but now ,,, i dont have eager to fix anything that physically things ,,, not interested ajah ,,,, ga penting ,,, xixiixixi ,, 😛 ,,,

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Sekali lagi ,,, dari ujung Jahannam pun ,,, aq akan kembali pada Mu ya aLLah ,,, aq harus bertemu dengan Mu ,,, Tuhan ku ,,, Tuhan semesta alam ,,, insha aLLah ,,, aamiinn ,,,

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My room ini enak bingid ,, loh ,,, !! ,,,

heheheheh ,,, . Ga sempit2 amat ,, tempat tidur enak ada bad cover yang nyaman ,, adem ada AC ,,, tipih kabeL ,,, kulkas dengan minuman dingin di dalamnya  ,,, ada wi fi juga ,,, xixiixixi ,,, dah kek room hotel mini lah ,,, xixiixix alhamdulillah yezh ,,, .

betah ?? kadang betah ,,, kadang enggag ,,, sometimes bisa seharian di kamar ,, sometimes setelah 2 jam kudu cabut/out melihat view lain dari kamar inih ,,, .

Berantakan ?? pastinya ,,, . Untungnya ada c mbak yang ngebenerin tiap pagi ,,, xixiixixixi ,,, .

anyway ,,, gw suka kamar inih ,, alhamdulillah ,,, 🙂

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yeeaayy ,,,, writing ,,, alhamdulillah ,,, 🙂

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sometimes ,, jika melihat manusia yang begitu banyak ,,, otak gw membayangkan mereka ,, dan gw ,,, telanjang bersama ,,, di padang ma’shar ,,, dan apakah yang membedakan qt kelak saat itu ,, ??? ,,, masya aLLah ,,

dan hey ,,, ini bukan tentang aq ,,, qm ,,, ataw qt ,,, ini semua tentang aLLah ,,, #tidak kah qm mengerti/melihat hal itu ,,, ???

itu ,,, terlihat ,,, tapiii ,,, agag jauh ,, dan ummhh ,,, sulit untuk di jangkaw dengan motorik ,, #apa sih ,,, hehehhehe ,,, . But its true ,,, . Semoga ,, semoga ,,, semogaaa ,,, aLLah SWT berkenan memaafkan ,, mengampuni ,, memelihara ,,, mengasihi ,,, menyelamatkan qt kelak ,,, amiinn ya aLLah ,,

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what a week ,,, alhamdulillah can through this week as well ,,, baik dalam hal pwasa ,,, maupun dalam pekerjaan ,,, . And ,,, umh ,,, i feel so happy ,, with out any extra ordinay duniyawi things comes ,,, .

Happiness is a gift ,,,

xixiiix ,,, in my condition ,,, so many things can be grateful for ,,, . Many things ,,, 🙂 ,, trust me ,,, . And some how ,,, i can ,, we can ,,, more understand about the world rather than others ,,, 🙂 ,, . Am so amaze with them who fight for their basic humanity and still can smile to the world ,,, also try to give equal tolerance and contribution to others ,,, amazing ,,, war byasaaahhh ,,,  🙂 ,,,

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,,, its already saturday ,,, times flieesssss ,,, oh dear Looorddd ,,, . Btw, gw bingung ,,, kenapa orang demen nek mobil di jakarta tercintah inih ??? heran heran heran ,,, . Pun ga macet ,,, keknya masih enakan nek motor ,,, bisa ngebut2an dan lebih “ringan” ,,, keujanan ??? ahhh itu bukan halangan ,,, xiixxiixix ,,, . But i really damn not understand why people like to drive with car in jakarta ,,, . Maybe next i will drive with car more often ,,, to understand why ,,, hehehhehehe 😛

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