Kenapaaa … Tuhaann … Menyisipkan rasa sedih yg begitu dalam pada sebagian hambaNya … Hingga tidak bisa d bagi dengan siapa pun kecuali denganNya ?? … Sampai akhir hayat …
Mungkiiinnn … Ini hanya mungkiiinn, karena porsi qt sebagai manusia adalah berbaik sangka padaNya … Sebagian hambaNya ini cukup baik mengenal Tuhannya … Hingga dengan cara ini lah mereka tetap berkomunikasi dan menjadi dekat …
Till meet You there …
Hmmm ??
You gave me the whole world … But i just want my world dear … Thats gonna make me happy …
~ ever heard ~
Besiiideee …
Everyone has their own world that make them happy in their own way … Isnt it ??? So join me there dear …
* ko ya kaya edisi cari jodoh yak ??? Wakakkakakakakakakkk *
i feel sad by few back days … since nge-drugzh …. xixixiixixi :p. gpp lah ya sedih …. this is kan friday night …. my friday night …. . hmmhh … bener2 dah ni ati …. akal sehat yg menerorkuwh (mananya yg sehat kalo neror? ???) dan akal ini pula lah yg menyelamatkankuwh … karena tidak ada yg bisa menenangkan kuwh saat ini kecuali pikirankuwh sendiri dan keajaiban dari Tuhan …. .
apalah otak ini berfikir begitu liar antara dunia dan akhirat … antara nafsu kuwh, kemanusiaankuwh, dan sejatikuwh sebagai hamba. … . berasa bisa memikirkan tentang semuanya. .. if you that smart enough. … you will know your ending point dear …. . but you cant reach that point. … and nothings wrong with that. .. it just because you are so human. … .
dear God. … do You know what the meaning emptiness for me? ?? when i believe in is nothing. .. and its happening. … . year by year. .. people by people. .. keep involving with those without i can understand and tolarate those. … where are You God? ?? pleaaseee. … dont look that busy. … need You so much here …. . please help me for this one. … i cant handle this. … i cant handle my heart. … Engkau lah pemilik hati … tolonglah tenangkan hati ini. … krna tiada satu kejadian pun tanpa persetujuanMu. .. tolonglah hafi Tuhan. … tolonglah. …
Nge-drugzh mode ON
Moga akal sehat ttp d depan
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Honesty1,
You know what … Sometimes it cross in my mind to cut my vein … While i think so wild bout God … I just want to stop it … I dont want to think that wild to my God … Because i cant handle it up … The risks …
Honestly2,
You know what … Gw pernah ga solat arround one month … One month after my mother passed away … Because am angry with God … Because God not give me back my mother … Because what i believe in God is nonsen … Because loosing my mother was the most painful thing in my life …
Honestly3,
Sometimes … Am so surprise that am not crazy for what i’ve been through … But ummghhh, orang gila mana yg ngaku gila ???? Xixixixxix
Honestly4,
Am not for giving peoples that already hurted me … am just trying to … But after i’ve that dream … I have a deal with God to release all that hatred … But ummghhh, who knows gonna happen next for exactly ???? Beside … Maybe am become one of most got happy when you all got sadness …
Honestly5,
If … I hv a chance to live again … I asked to be hafi … And get happiness with my world … And for my next world … I just want to meet my God …
Honestly6,
Whatever my family condition is … Am thankful for my parent that already rised me with good basic religion … whatever my spirit condition now …
Honestly7,
Am soooo introvert … Xixixiixixixxi
My dream before subuh … Describing my life next … About the core of my happiness in the middle of my world … Maybe its gonna be my next exam … The hard one … The core one … As always … Hehehhehehe … Wheeeww what a life …
The thing that make me pride is … God always examine in my believing core … The hardest … . But in the other side … Hikzhhh idup oh iduuuppp … Kok gini amat yaaakk … Wakakakakkakakak
Whatever my role on … Hidup itu harus bahagia … ( hm ??? Hahahaha i wrote down this … And i will examined on this … Xixixixixi )
am i a liar ??? yes … i am … . There is a thing that fake of mine … continuously ??? yes it is … in God times … it just umghh … yaa gitu deeehh … hehehhehe … 😀 … . But … still i want to share about lying … .
You know what … a liar is a smart person … because they keep everything in they head constantly and continuously … and its cool … . But somehow … its gonna be killed you finally … becauseeeee … you are a human … not machine … hehehhehe 😀 … . Still you can not keep all that long … isnt it ???? xiixixixix … . Just like a wise word said … ::
bukan berapa berat beban yang kau pikul … tetapi berapa lama kau memikulnya …
we are just human being anyway … and its nice tobe human …. at all …. 🙂
# naughty thought edition#
pernah gitu ya … there is a friend of mine … chit chat ngalor ngidul getohhh … and then we arrive in the marriage theme … . he said :: maybe you need go to the kiayi something to open your aura (regarding to get marriage soon)… . I answered as usual … . But my mind already have naughty thought … :
ga peke open2 aura ajaaaa … gw dah cakep geneehh … apalagi buka aura yaakk … glowing gw rasa …. dah kek bohlamm …. wakkakakkakkakak …
sometimes … you can not stop your mind going through …. xixiixixixi 😛
