hehehehheh … miss my emak … padahal … we are not that close … hehehhehe . Sure … i met her many times in my dream … but still miss her anyway … . Hmmhh … still i want to make her happy … if i could … if God allowed … everything bout God stories … aamiinn … 🙂
i have fulfill my year with completed theme holiday … . Beautiful beach … amazing mountain … wonderful culture … . Alhamdulillah ya aLLah … segala puji bagiMu tuhan semesta alam. Alhamdulillah … . Ummgghh … have no plan for this ending year . Just wanna tobe humzh … 🙂 enjoying me time and jakarta !!! secara dah bangkrut juga sehh … hehheheheheh 😀
derawan island … whaaww … its beautiful islands … . There is a lake that jelly fish no harm live … . am fallin in love when knew this island at first. Buuutttt … high cost to get there … padahal masih indonesia yak … xixixixi … :P. And i promise to my self … i will be there one day … i dont know when and how … hahahhahhahah
so i thought it would be wonderful if i go there as honeymoon … jiahhahahahhaha … (padahal lakinya belon adeee ) … . So … the costs also will bear by my man … xixixiixix … . Itu juga kalo laki gw kaya … nah kalo kawin miskin ??? hahhahahhaha . Soooo lucky … dreaming is free still … and free tax alsooo … so keep it on …. hahhahahhaha
Finally, my friend asked me to join to derawan island trip next year … . Mereka expecting gw ikoeeettt gituuuhh … xixiixixix … . Jadi tersandung guwa … kakkakakkakakkk … . padahal mah … asking me to join because there is quota to fill up to go there … hehehehheh … . Kudu 5 orang minimal kalo ga salah … biar murah meriah bahagia ceritanya … . and i agreeeeeeee of course …
Soooo ??? mudah2an ada rejeki yaaa biar bisa ke derawan next year … aamiinn … . After derawan ??? raja ampat indeeeddd … !!!
you know what … i always think … well … actually i have this thought from my relative … . He told me that God is maha pengasih dan maha penyayang dan maha pengampun … so … it have big chance that your sin will forgiven … . i heard that at that time … and am so hypnotized … its TRUE !!! hehheheheh
until this evening … after many years … i realized that its not true … . We have to change our perception to the God … . We have to scared to the God … . Scared that our sin will not forgiven … . I think … we must like that … as human … . Dont you think like that ???
xixixixix … lucu deeehh … i have a dream last night … . i found my man … he is just like my dream about man … loving each other … happyness … and so on … . But some how … we can not be togather … . Why ??? because he is not a moslem … . and he stright in his believing … . Bwahahhahahahahahahhaha …
Imagine … if that happen in my real world … bwahhahahahhaha … . ga kebayang daaahhh … gw jatuh cinta gw mempunyai cinta yang sempurna … tapi ga bisa bersama karena beda keyakinan … wakkakakkaka telek banged dah … . Sumpriittt kalo mpe kejadian di dunia nyataaaa … waaawww !!! Tuhan selalu memberi cobaan pada core keyakinan guwa … . Untungnya cuman ngimpiiiihhhh …. xixiixixixixixi
Cool … At Track ranu pani ranu kumbolo …
Taken by njar … Lagi kebeled mpip … Tetep exist … Finally ??? Mpip d track di jagain njar ujung satu dan cathrina d ujung lainnya … Hahhahahaha
Dari mana datangnya kecewa ?? Dari adanya harapan … Dari mana datangnya harapan ?? Dari adanya pikiran baik … Dari mana datangnya pikiran baik ??? Dari hubungan yang baik … Dari mana datangnya hubungan baik ??? Dari adanya kepercayaan … Dari mana datangnya kepercayaan ?? Dari hati …
Xixixixixi … Gw asal ngalor ngidul aja … Berawal dari ketidaksukaan gw ma seseorang … . Kenapa hidup begitu berat ??? Karena ada nilay yg di jaga … Dan itu memang berat ko menjaga nilay baik dalam kehidupan … Hard one …
sowan and listening life stories from elderly is one of most excited things to do loh … . Knowing other side perception from someone that already known about life with their life experiences … . There are always new thought that i brought home … 🙂
my sowan result by today is :: lively well … halalan thoyiban … . Apalagi nanti dah jadi ortu … harta jadi daging jadi darah ke anak … mempengaruhi turunan …. Gpp sedikit harta yang penting halal dan berkah … .
hmmhh … extremely true yak … . Directly i think to my father … that already hard to earn halalan money to his family … . He was refused any kind of something that not related to his job … try hard not using bank interest … and others that makes his family keep in clean … hehehhehe . Its something to thankful to the God and to him … indeed … .
i was try to be like him. Saving my money in syariah bank … using syariah life insurance … . Bunga bank tetaplah bunga bank … dan bunga bank adalah riba … dan riba tetaplah riba. Memang di perbankan syariah pun tak lepas dari bunga bank … tapi mengurangi lah. Juga di sertai niat tuk tetap bersih dari riba. Pun intinya tetap pada mematuhi aturan Tuhan.
WAS i think … i already much effort to earn this money … so i dont want this money burn me in the hell … with using conventional banking and so on … . When using credit card, i try hard not make any interest in each transaction. But sodara sodara sebangsa setanah aer yaaaa … Life getting hard … extremely hard … soooo ?? bank interest is something inevitable. Dear Loordddd … .
Now, i have go back in the right path … cleaning my self … may aLLah for give all of us … aaamiinn … 🙂
Btw, sedari kecil gw dah sangat menyadari … materi tidak bisa menjamin kebahagiaan … tapi oh tapi … kekurangan materi pun bisa menjerumuskan manusia pada keburukan …
my friend … just got alim lately … . She often said ” lihat nanti di akhirat ” … . Well, i said bout that many times also sehh … but not directly to people because … it wouldnt be the same perception i think … .
i just think … while we said about akhirat … we need high believing bout that. When i said bout akhirat, i know i dont have that high believing. Why ?? because … if … we mean it about akhirat … we will change our perception about this world … will change many things … in our thought our speak our acts … etc.
am trying to fix one … what already broken on me … its so easy blaming on them … but still, its me who can fix all of this mess … . am i gonna be succeed ??? i dont know … really i dont . I just know have to in the right path … with our religion as based … .
Hard way to fix this big mess … but yah, one by one lah … starting with i can do easyly … 🙂 hehhehehhehe …
once i have conversation with my friends … is it better flying high … have the beauty in the sky … great experiences … then somehow you had hit and falling down … without cant stand up again … ooorrr … you are just in your place right now … just got low to average experience and can not falling down because you are never flying high ???
variance answers … but still … most of us choose the 1st option. am i regret for flying high ??? flying high that makes me broken into pieces ?? … flying high that makes me waste my time ??? flying high that makes me loosing so much ???
no am not … hehehheheh 😀 i have the beauty… i have the pain … i have scratch in my soul … . is all of that makes me good ??? sure … indeed … absolutely … IF … just if i staying in goodness … no matter how …
do you agree with me ??? 🙂
