I cant handle my mind ,,, cant be that cool ,,, cant be mature ,,, . Right now ,,, its just me and this pain ,,, . Eventhogh everyone said good one to release ,,, but its my pain ,,, i wish i dont have one ,,, . But i have to carry this one till rest of my life ,,, how pathetic dear hafi ,,,
Dear mind ,,,
Dear mind ,,, please be nice for this time ,,, . Tolong jangan berpikir begitu liar ,,, . Itu aq ,,, yg memilih membakar dirikuw di neraka ,,, tolong jangan salahkan Tuhankuwh ,,, Dia sudah sangat begitu baik padakuwh ,,, . Biarkanlah aq hidup dengan prasangka baik pada Tuhankuw ,,,
Minggoe, 23.08.2015
pengen kaweeennn … #loohh … ahahhahahahha … .
What a BT sunday morning …. pagi2 dah ada yang ngajakin ribut ajehh … heran dah … . Btw, Itu mubil, belon gw coba2 ajah … hehehhe .. lum ada platnya … jadi rada sungkan … #hallah … . Nanti di sangka pamer lagi … #emang iya seh … wkwkwkwkkwk … . Ahhh … apa juga yang mo di pamerin … . Lum di coba ya karena gw ga bisa nyetir … wakakkakakkakakak … . Bisa sih bisa #gaya nisida, tapi ga bisa parkirin lagi entar … wakakkakakka … .
Ngomong2 ttg nisida, tuh orang semenjak kembalinya dari negeri gajah dalam rangka cutiy panjang …, makin aneh ajeh … . Ya marah2 mulu … ya suka ga jelas … ya suka plin plan … nah .. bingung dah kitah … . Jangan sampe ajah Log dept di benci semua dept … wakkakakakkak … .
ummh … qt tuh paling gampang ya nyalain orang, atas hal buruk yang terjadi ma qt .. . Pun memang demikian adanya …, yezh pun demikian adanya … . Dan ituuu akan terush terjadi/teringad terush sepanjang hayat jika tidak ikhlas. I dont understand … why it can be ya … while whole things in our life is because our own choices … anyeh anyeh anyehhh … . One thing for sure its because … we are not cool enough to face it .. to face that our decision is wrong … not ready for the consequence … and the easiest way to do is blame others … . hehehehheeheh … . And if blaming others become our best action to do .. so blame God for what happen in our life … should it be ??? . If not, please be relax … . Ahhh .. this post pointing to my self directly … . Who never ikhlas anyway … maybe till death comes … . Next, why death can be our big reminding yes ?? xixiixixixi … . Because its become our big reality to face … heehhehehe … . Signys end of the world already clearly … and still am not getting married yet … oh dear lord … pengen kaweeeen … hehehehhehe … 😀 …. .. .. . ….. .
Yesterday … watching fantastic 4 movies … and as scientist said that every things in this world … has pattern … agreeeee … . Cant you see … every thing in this world has their own pattern … even for the speed of car in tolls … ahahhahaha … . unfortunately … just smart one who can read it more … wakkakakakkakakak … . And more further ahead … there is God who plan everything … in very beautiful ways … . I always adore such us these things … . Always falling in love with aLLah … but always … break God’s rule … without that big guilty feeling … how come yezh … ??? kam haw donk …. . Semuwa yang di larang … adalah kebutuhan … dan keenakan … wakkakakak … #qt lagi bahas apa seh … ???? …. xixixiixix . ahh … what am gonna be next yah … in God’s view … ???
damn !! i luv sunday … while i can explore my mind … drinking coffee … and writing … ahahhahahah ………… . Like it so much …. . Hopefully i can get another job that more challenging … . Kellezh otak masih mampu kerjak dan belajar … ahahhhahah … .
Indah ,,,
Tuhan ,,, wiken ini terlalu indah ,,, terlalu bahagia ,,, Kaw gantikan smua yg berlalu ,,, walu hanya sepenggal waktu ,,, buwatkuwh menangis ,,, karena akhrnya aq bisa merasakan kebahagiaan yg sederhana ,,, mungkin setelah ini ,,, ada kepedihan yg tidak terperi ,,, karena hidup ,,, berputar ,,,
17 Agustus 2015
Merdeka !!!! alhamdulillah …
Indonesiakuwh merayakan ulang tahun kemerdekaan yang ke 70 !!! weeeww … moga merdeka terush … lebih bermoral … lebih mandiri … lebih sejahtera …. aamiinnn …. .
cerita apa yaaaaa … ummhh … ????
as official … nisida already remind me not to using alay words in official mails … ahahhahahah …. . doi also remind me us, not to landing at desk … less than 7 aM … he using words “penurunan nilay moral” …. . Keknya qt asusila banged yak … !! kok ya doi tau gitu loh ??? wakakkakakkakakkak … . Terush … doi not permitt us to extend stay in surabaya for one night more … padahal yee … this all about working … but in the other side, he allowed others to genba for represing purpose … di situ saya mula merasa harus kurus !!! wakkakakkakakkakk … . Belon lagi, some rumors … doi berantem di sales mtg nasional…. . Oh dear kadept, jangan ampe dept qt di benci dept2 lain yezzzhh … ahhahahahhahah …. .
dear lord … thank you for the happiness … even always doubt in my thought … but … am so grateful for everything in my life … alhamdulillah … . Mohon jadikanlah kami hambaMu yang selalu bersyukur bersujud dan memperbaikii ibadah kami padaMu duhay Tuhan yang maha indah … aamiinnn … .
jadi pengen nge-gym … niatnya ngecilin perut … tapi kira2 sempet ga yaaa … secara … tiap ari ceritanya sok lembur gituuh … . Tapi juga meni mahal ikut celfit … ga kelas keknya ma gw mah … tapi itu dah paket untung keknya …. . belom lagi cicilan2 lainnya … hallah jadi curcol biaya di mari … wakkakakakkakk …. . We’ll see deh yezzhh …
hadeehhh … kenapa kalo abis num kopi malah antuukkzzhhh … tidaaaakkkk … aahahhahahha … . Dan kapankah guwa kaweeennn ??? mari bertanya pada kapan ….
Menanti,,,
Selintas terfikir ,,, ternyataaaa di tiap harinyaaa ,, gw selalu menanti keajaiban Tuhan datang ,,, in every single dayzh ,,, sampai hari ini ,,, dan mungkin sampai nanti ,,, sampai ajal datang ,,, hehehehe
Konyol ?? Sepertinya iya ,,, tp rasanya cuman ini yg bsa gw lakukan ,,, berharap baik ,,, ahhh semana sih gw bisa usaha yak ,,, otak ngepas,,, badan kecil,,, tenaga lemah ,,, sakit ,,, naive ,,, xixiixix paduwan yg buruk yezh ,,,
Ahh sudahlah ,,, jika tidak hari ini ,,, mgkin besok ,,,
MiNgGoe, 9Agustus2015
ucink … mplueee … atuukkk … ahuhuuhuhuhuh … . hehehehe …. so not comfortable … because i know this is gonna be through quite long as usual … hikzh … lama dah kalo dah atuukk … . Maybe i have to consume high dose at first to reduce this cough… .
ummhh … so many needs (needs ?? ahahhahah) lately … bangkrutzh euuyy … . xixiixixix …. utang sana sini … riba sana sini … bahagia sana sini also … xixiixixix … . Damn !!! i love my life !!! pun ga ada apa2 di idup gw … . Di situ saya mulay merasa pening !! … ahahhahahahah … .
you know what … i always like smell of this starbucks … . Everything seems in me .. xixiixixi lebay dikit yezh … secara i already came here since 8 years ago ???? ahahhahhaha …. . this coffee … this food .. and this milestone … its my life … my happiness …. ahahhaha … lebay bing go x ini … gp lah yezh ….
lately … i just thinking … am i going have a child … ???? i dont know, i dont like kids either … . But, as a woman … they said its kind of naluri keibuan. And lately … i just think … i want have a daughter … . She is must be pretty … and her name is cattleya … . I dont know how to raise a child … am not a good person … not a good girl … so how i teach her ???? xixiixixixi … . Pun i know, everything in this world goes by qodh and qadr … 🙂 . and … lately …. i think about family … that i never had …, litbit sad … . But, how come i become sad for something that long times never exist in my life ??? xiixixiixiix … . Its called human yezh …. 🙂
hey,,, my embem dah dateeennggg …. rabu kemaren, 05.08.2015. Red one !! ahahahhahaha … . But, stnk and plat nomornya baru akan jadi sebulan setengah lageee .. bujug buneeeenngg … . gpp lah yezh pake plat abal2 … xixixiixixi .. kalo mpe puri doank an mah hallaallll … wkwkkwkwkwkwkkw … . Mudah2an jodohnya lama ma gw c embem yezzzhh …. aamiinn …
uummhh … and my relationship with God aLLah … become bad and bad … hikzh …. . In what way yaaa to get closer with God ??? … pheeeeww …. . #istighfar
Perfectionist ,,,
Gw itu veteran perfectionist ,,, ahahahhahahahah ,,, !!! Gw tau tujuan dan detail gw ,,, . Sampai pd akhrnya gw tw kapasitas gw ,,, dan kapasitas Tuhan yg tidak terbatas dan tidak terprediksi ,,, . Jadiiii ,,, wat apa idup d bawa susah ,,, jika sudah ada yg menjaminnya ??? Xiixixixixix . Next question bagi orang2 yg mo mikir lebih ,,, . Makluuummm ,,, darah perfectionist masih mengalir d tubuhkuwh ,,, xixixiixix 😛
Coklat ,,,
Quizh ::Jikaaa ,,, xan terdampar d swatu pulaw terpenciL ,,, dan menemukan sebuwah kotak ,,, qm berharap apa isi dalam kotak ituh ??
Orang2 akan jawab :: jin , pintu doremon , cogan , dll. Gw ??? Jawaban gw ??? COKLAT ,,, ahahahaha
Kalo kata temen gw,,, berarti gw tipikal yg menikmati idup bingid ,,, . Sampe skrg pun jwbn gw ga berubah ,,, coklat. Kenapah ????
Ummmhh ,,, entahlah ,,, terdampar itu bukan hal yg enak ,,, jadi harus ada rasa manis nya ,,, iyah, coklat ,,,, . Wkwkwkwkwk se simple ituh ,,, ( ato emang krna gw PE A ?&:).:¥|*\>!\¥|•~> ) wkwkkwkwkwkwkwkwkkwkwkw
