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Somehow ,,, am so exciting for tudey ,, because of tudey is farewell party for some japanese team ,, .
Truely ,, its not about them ,, its not about the party ,,, its not about the food ,,, wkkwkwkwk . Its about litbit pike in my life graph ,,, . Xixixiixix ,, konyolzh ,, but its true ,,, .
And now ,, after the party ,,, its feel hampa again ,,, ???
Dan begitu lah ,,,
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jaman sekarang tuh ,, jamannya VLog ,, cam blog ,, tapi ini pideyo ,,, . Keknya di Miley ga bisa yak ,, aka bakal berat gitu loh ,,, . Secara maks upload ajah ,, 2 MB ,, . Terakhir saksezh upload sih yang bumerang dari IG itu loh ,, . Ntr cobak ah ,, wkkwkwkwk ,,,
Miley ini kan ,, ajangnya gw berekspresi ,, . Mungkin at the end hanya Miley ,, . FB dah de-active. IG, juga entah mpe kapan bakal active ,, . xixiixixi ,, . Intinya sih ,,, gw berusaha mengurangi rasa/sifat “pamer” ke muka umum ,, . Memang ,, jika qt upload something good ,, it will be good ,, heheheheh ,, . But, let me try from the zero to ten #apa sih ,, wkkwkwkkwk ,, . Well, another little training to my self sih ,, . Insya allah bisa ,, 🙂
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dosa guwe tuh pan yezh ,, selangit yezh ,,, . But ,, in my mind ,,
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first, aLLah swt akan mengampuni dosa gw ,, karena aLLah swt maha pengampun ,,, karena aLLah swt maha pengasih dan penyayang ,, karena kasih sayang aLLah swt mendahului murka Nya ,, karena gw bener2 tobat ko ,, insya allah ,, amiinn ,, 🙂
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Gw tuh ,,, inget kisahnya sahabat Rasul, Umar bin Khatab. Beliyaw ituh ,, dosanya ampun2an kan yak ,, . Tukang bunuh orang, tukang mabok, galak ,, emosian ,, serem lah pokoknya ,, . Mungkin kalo di compare jaman now ,, cam mafia kartel narkoba international gitu x yak ,, .
but ,, !! doi insyaf ,, doi masuk islam ,,, doi jadi ,, manusiyak ,, yang insya allah di jamin syurganya ,,, .
Naah ,, doi ajah di ampuni ,, gw kan ga sekejam doi ,, insya allah juga di ampuni ,,, heheheh ,, amiiinn ,, 🙂
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Namunn ,,, syurga itu tinggi jendral !!! ,, . Mungkin ,, dosa2 masa lalu bisa di ampuni ,, tapi ,, mungkin qt terjerembab ke neraka ,, karena dosa kecil yg tidak qt aware ,, . Masya allah yezh ,, huikzh ,,, .
Semoga aLLah swt ingatkan, maafkan, ampuni ,, .
Semoga bisa kembali dalam keadaan suci, dalam keadaan di ridhai aLLah swt ,, amiinn ,, huikzh ,,,
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Capek kerjak ,,, #pdhal jam 7 aM juga belom ??? . Pengen jadi AM ajah ,,, gw tuh ga cucok meyong jd SM ,,, . Duh ,,, #istighfar
#pd dasarnya ,,, gw dh ga doyan kerjak d mari sih ,, jd semuwa d salah2in ,, jiyakakakakkakak ??
Kadang pengen maju ke pa bozh ,,, mo jadi AM ajah ,,, janji gw akan ttp kerjak maksimal ko mpe jam 4 ,, kekekekkekek ,, . Tapi apalah apalah yezh ,,, mntak pindah/mutasi udah, rejected ,,, . Trush skrg mntak jadi AM ??? ,, apa yg ada d pikiran mereka yak ,,, kwkwkwkkwkw ?? ,,
Mimpi ,,
guwe tau ko mimpi guwe benar ,, . Apa yg gw ^lihat^ ,,, insya allah akan terjadi di depan sana ,, . Tapiii ,, yaaa ,, sedikit ada ^gangguan syetan^ lah di mimpi ituh ,, jiyakakkakakkakak ,,#edisi mimpi tentang kerjak ,,
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iyak ,,, 1 night left ,, to the reality ,, ehehehhe ,, . Syedich amad hati guwe ,, . Pengennya ,, resign ,, jadi IRT ,, ngurus keluwarga ,, mpe akhir umur ,,, . Insya allah ,, amiinn ,, 🙂 ,, .
well ,, seperti babang ustad bilang ,,, :: apa pun taqdir nya ,, terima ,, dan qt diperintahkan untuk sholat dan sabar dan memohon pada aLLah swt ,, untuk semuwa kebaikannya ,, 🙂 ,, .
Insya allah ,, amiin ,, 🙂
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Yup ,, its 1 day left ,, to go back to the reality ,, jiyakkakakakkakak ,,, . So, how is your holidays ?? ,,, moment that you are waiting for since beginning of this year ??? ,,, . Ahahhahaha ,,, ya gitu deeeh ,,, . I achieved my own goal ,,, . But surely not for the hedonisme ,, wkkwkwkwkkwk ,,,, . Still wanna some ( hedonisme ), fi ??? ,, deep in side ?? yezh ,, maybe around 1-5 % ,,, hehheheheh ,, .
you know what ,, with my trainings whole this time ,,, its took around maybe 5 years ,, ??? ,,, i thought ,, i made it done well ,, . I made it !! ,, . Well ,, usaha tidak mengkhianati hasil bukan ,, ??? . But, still remaining ,, inside ,, in my heart maybe ,, like a ,, ^kejahilan^ ,, stay still ?? ,, . Poor me ,, ahahhahah ,, . So ,, my training is not finish yet ,, isnt it ??? ahhahahah ,,,
such as like this ::
around ,, i already done well ,,, as human ,,, ( you know, Islam thought me very good manner to do socialism ) ,, but ,, they are ,, not do the same ,,, and its disturb me !! ,, ahhahahhahaha ,,, . But i said to my self ,, :: apa yg lo harapkan dari lo berbuwat baik ??? bukankah keridhoan Tuhan swt ?? iyezh ,,, !! ,, terush kenapa lo masih mengharapkan bayaran dari orang lain,, berupa perbuwatan baik kembali dari mereka ??? . Hmmpphh ,, !!! ,,, . ( untung yah,, otak gw tuh agag bener dikit, selalu bsa jadi yang mikir kalo pas keadaan sulit ,, #ya kan namanya juga otakkkk ,, fungsinya is mikir kellleezhh ,,, ) ,,, wkkwkwkwkkwk ,,
hmmmmhh ,,, my training is not finish yet ,,, . So ,, lets continue fi ,, :).
stay focus to aLLah swt ,,, . Its hard to eliminate duniyawik things ,,, but ,, i think its not that hard also ,, it just ,,, hormone stuff ,, jiyakakkakaka ,,, . Hormon lagi yg di salahin ,, .
next ,, (berbuwat baik) apa lagi yah ,, ???
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Jiyak ampyuuunn ,,, !!! liburannya tinggal 2 hari lagi ,,, !! Tuhaaaannn ,,, tolong akuuuwwhhh ,,, ahuhuuhuhuh ,,, .
tudey ,, ngider ke bu Nur dan tek yen ,,, . Alhamdulillah mereka baik2 ,,, better lah dari terakhir kami lihat ,,, both of them ,,, . Terush tadi tek penah and fam dateng ,, . Nanyak2 ttg hari lailatul Qadr ,,, they said ,, maybe malam ke 27 ,, !! ,, . alhamdulillah !! gw masih sholat di malam ituh ,,, !! ,, . Aqtu bener2 terharu ,, alhamdulillah ,, .
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duuhh ,, Tuhaaannnn ,,, aq mahu kaweeennn ,,, mahu jadi IRT ,,, tolong Tuhan kuw ,,, ahuhuuhuhuhuh ,,,
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I think ,,, islam’s regulation is broken ,,, too bad isn it ??? . No, me wrong ,, its not about the islam’s regulation ,, but about people that following that regulation ,, they are broken ,,,
Its broken ,,, . Me ,, can not understand ,, what kind of model rule can be follow ,, . Ya sure ,, Nabi Muhammad saw is the real model rule ,, , but ,,, we need to see a model that close to Muhammad saw, isnt it ??? ,,, . and i ,,, can not find one ,,, 🙁 ,,,
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anyway ,,, its true ,, while your faith is going down ,,, the way to make it up is ,,, listening “ceramah” ,,, . its kind of burning your ,,, spirit ,, with in its level ,,, .
xemungudh hafikuw ,, 🙂
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actually ,,, its been long time that i cant feel Lebaran’s soul. Maybe since my mother passed away ,,, . ya ,, i think from that momment ,,, . Well ,, after ,, 9 years ,, i already used to be alone ,,, in Lebaran ,, 🙂
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Hmmhh ,,, its all done for me ,, .
bad girl ,,, good girl ,, traveling around indonesia and abroad ,,, being smart ,,, being stupid ,, bought a car a motor cycle ,,, hv my own rings ,,, being rich ,,, being manager ,,, many more ,,, . Then ,, whats next ,,, ??? ,,, thus ,, what has not done yet ??? #get marry for sure ,, jiyakakkakakak ,, . hmmh ,,, let me listed up one ::
i need to come out from my comfort zone ,,, . Really need one ,,, .
#or may be ,, this is just ^ a way^ to my next destiny ,,, ???
